"Can I ask you about your dad?" I ask, I wanted Gavin to feel comfortable opening up to me like I had. I get that it's sometimes harder for some people I just needed to know. I see Gavin's body tense up and his green eyes meet with mine.

"There's not really much to know about him."

"You told me he's the reason you have trust issues." I remind him, I should stop. "I just want to know more about you because I feel like so much is missing."

"I was eight when he told me he was going to grab a few scratchers from a local gas station. I guess he won because he never came back." Gavin says it so casually I can't tell if he's even hurt by it. "After that my mom sent me to stay with my grandparents for a while and when I was reunited with my mother she had this great job she bought a car and a house, then came the drinking habit, I could hear the men coming in at night so once I turned fifteen I started going out a lot more and I wouldn't come home for days sometimes, I never wanted to see her that way, using herself like that."

My heart aches for him. The green eyed boy wishing for a family he could call his. I understand why he chose the parties and sex, he was trying to escape. He had me now and maybe one day we could both escape together.

"It's fucked up I know I should have been there for her but when my dad left she wasn't there for me she sent me away and thought things would work out in the end."

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have-"

"No, don't be sorry you needed to know. I needed you to know why I seem so fucked up." Gavin reaches for my hand and takes it in his. "You're the only person who knows the truth now."

I smile at him until are waiter Anthony interrupts this moment to bring us the check. Gavin doesn't want to show me the bill and I'm sure it's a lot more expensive than I even think it is. We exit the restaurant laughing at the strange looks we're being given by the older couples sitting inside there.

"Where to next?" I chirp inside the car.

Gavin looks over to me. "Who said I had anything else planned?" I can tell by the way he's holding back a smile he's just trying to annoy me. "I had a few places in mind, do you just want to head to the field?"

"You don't plan on seducing me there?" I stifle a laugh.

"I plan on doing a lot more than that." He winks at me and turns the key to his car to start the engine I feel my cheeks turning red. Gavin takes me down the familiar dirt road and pulls into the same field as before except this time the grass doesn't stand as tall and trash has been left from last weeks party.

We both get out of the car and Gavin meets me on the other side and picks me up.

I look into his eyes and we both stare intently at each other. He places me on top of the hood and I lean into him. Are lips meet before eagerly deepening the kiss. Gavin's tongue washes over mine and he bites my bottom lip a moan escapes from my lips and I tug on his hair.

We stay like this for some time until a pair of car headlights graze over us.

"Shit." Gavin says under his breath. "Don't say anything, got it?"

I nod my head at him. I hope it isn't the police.

As the car comes closer it pulls to a stop and a couple of figures walk out of the vehicle. I can hear them laughing and talking and once they stop they stare down at Gavin. I don't recognize them.

"Cambridge is that you?" One of the three boys call out. "Who's that?"

I hide behind Gavin hoping they will leave soon.

"It's none of your damn business." Gavin tells them.

"Sorry we didn't know this place was already occupied." They tell him. "Could we join?"

"We were already leaving." Gavin lies.

"Yeah, us too." The boy answers. "Bye sweetheart." He waves as they stalk off to their car.

"Who were those guys?" I ask Gavin.

"A few people I knew on the football team." Gavin shrugs.

"We should go." He helps me down before we get back inside the car.

"I thought this night was going good? You don't seem too happy now?" I say. The air felt different all of a sudden.

"No tonight was good, I just don't want people starting anymore shit at school about you especially with everything that happened last week."

"I don't care what people have to say about me anymore."

"Well I do." Gavin's voice grows louder. We reach the end of the road and I see Gavin's expression in the headlights that pass us by. His eyebrows are furrowed and his hands are clutching the wheel very tightly.

I rest my hands in my lap and look ahead at the road. It's quiet now, you can hear the soft music playing through the radio but it's not loud enough to fill the silence.

I jump up when I feel Gavin's hand rest against my thigh so I look up. "I had a great time tonight, I mean I got to spend it with you."

I tuck a loose strand of hair behind my ear and smile at him before resting my hand against his. He pulls into the driveway and we sit in the car. I feel like he's waiting to say something but he never does.

"Thanks again y'know this is still new to me especially the other stuff." I say and shake my head at my last words. Other stuff? I'm sure Gavin's been with a virgin before right? I didn't want to think about it but he seemed to know how to be gentle and I never thought he'd be the gentle type not with all the stories I've heard. Then again they were only stories.

"It's new to me too."

I almost choke on my own saliva. My expression completely changes into a confused and dumbfound one. "You've really never been with a virgin before?" Did I really just ask him that.

Gavin shakes his head. "No I've been with one before but then I decided they weren't my type."

Images flash through my mind and they aren't very pretty. I'm only guessing virgins weren't his type because girls can easily get attached and Gavin didn't do relationships.

Not until now at least.

"What made you change your mind?" I say watching his face turn away before he looks back at me.

"The girl got attached and thought I'd spend the rest of my life with her." Gavin laughs at the thought. "She cried when I-," he pauses and looks away again. "I don't need that to be happy, all I need is you."

"Why me?" I mutter.

"I have no fucking clue. When I learned you had cancer I felt like it was a sign that this fucked up universe was trying to tell me, I was angry with you because you didn't want me and then I realized why and I came to terms with how I actually felt." Gavin runs his hand through his hair and sighs. "You risked your life to go to a damn party with me and now you're here right now after everything I've done."

"I'm here because you tried and all this time all you've ever done was try, you made me feel like I wasn't such a burden or a disease, I wanted to know you, the side no one gets to see." I lean over the console and put my hand on his cheek. "Maybe we were meant to be perfectly bad for each other?"