I had a very long phone call with Peyton this morning. I told her everything that happened and that me and Gavin want to try and make this work. By the way she screamed through the phone, she was quite excited for me. At first she didn't believe Gavin actually wanted to commit to a relationship, I couldn't believe it either.

Gavin also stopped by my window before he left for school. He was going to skip the day so he could spend it with me but I made him go. My mother told me goodbye and then she left for work so I am now left with Peter once again.

"Get me a beer." He says as soon as I go downstairs. All he does is sit on are couch and drink all day. He still hasn't even found a job, shocker.

"No." I say making my way into the kitchen.

"What the hell did you say!" He shouts from the living room. I should have stayed in my room. I grab a glass of water and turn to the fridge when Peter appears in front of me he grabs my arm and the cup falls onto the floor. The glass shatters against the floor and the cold water soaks against my feet. "You little whore I hear that little boyfriend of yours in your bedroom all the time your just like your mother." He spits in my face.

I find it ironic how he calls my mother a whore when he's cheated on her multiple times while she's stayed faithful.

I can't let his words hurt me.

"Let go of me." I say trying to pull away from his grip. I can smell the alcohol on his breath. I step back and cry out when I feel a few pieces of glass enter the bottom of my foot.

He finally lets me go and starts laughing now. "Seems the fridge is empty of beer, clean up this damn mess I'll be back in and hour."

I limp over to a chair and sit down crying as I see the sight of my foot. I've left a trail of blood behind it looks like a crime scene. I clean it up and after a long attempt to pull all of the glass out I then wrap it with a bandage. I even clean up the mess because I know if I don't my mother would have to.

A few hours pass and Peter still hasn't came home which I'm thankful for. I'm sitting in my bed watching TVD on my laptop and it seems to take my mind off of my throbbing foot.

"Hey." Peyton enters my room so I sit up and wave.

"What's wrong?" Peyton asks.

"Peter, I stepped in some glass." I said.

"That stupid fucking, ugh." Peyton groans and takes a seat on my bed. "Anyway have you talked to Gavin?" I shake my head. He'll probably be home soon anyway.

"A lot of people are talking about Saturday nights party, about you." She tells me. "They heard about the fight between Gavin and Zach and now the school might cancel that football scholarship."

"What?" This was all my fault. Well not necessarily but I was the reason why Gavin assaulted Zach and now they might get their scholarships taken away for that.

"Zach didn't look so good today he had a black eye and left before the day ended, Ash couldn't come here because the football team is now having a huge meet up about all of this." She sighs. "But enough of that how was it yesterday?"

"Well we made out for a while and then I told him everything." I say smiling in remembrance.

"Aww that's actually so cute." She says.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask. Peyton nods her head but I'm hesitant to say it. "Does it, does it hurt?"

"Losing your virginity?" She adds. "I hope he's not already pressuring you."

I laugh. "No actually he made sure he could touch me."

Peyton's mouth forms into and 'o' expression and I laugh again. "Your kidding? What have you done to him?"

"I'm serious though."

Peyton lost her virginity sophomore year of high school to a boy who told her he loved her just to get into her pants and at a young age like that she was vulnerable. He broke up with her less than a week later and moved schools that same year.

I don't know how that would feel, to be taken advantage of like that and then be thrown away like a piece of trash. Peyton cried for a while until she eventually got over it.

"I won't lie it's not comfortable the first time, I didn't bleed but I heard some girls do. As long as the guy knows what he's doing which in your case, yes then you should be okay."

Ouch.

"I think it's great Gavin's finally trying to commit just be careful okay?" She replies.

I nod my head. "Thanks Peyton."

"Anytime." She smiles. "I better go, parents want me home before dinner so I'll call you later."

"Okay, see you." I said.

At five o'clock my mom arrives home with a bag of Subway. I limp my way downstairs and tell her what Peter did today. She doesn't say much about it and moves on from the subject. I think she ignores it because she can't make him leave. Not unless I call the police on his ass next time.

"Was Gavin over?" She says as I take a bite of my sandwich.

"No he hasn't been home all day." I say. I haven't mentioned anything to my mom about us and I don't because she'll tell me she knew this would happen all along but she's also my mother and the closest person I have so I do. "We are actually trying to see how that whole relationship thing works out?"

My mom almost chokes on her salad. "Relationship? Just last week you were complaining about him coming over."

"I know." I groan out loud.

"Are you sure you're ready for that I mean does he know?"

"I told him everything." I sigh.

"Well that's exciting it would explain the reason I caught you two yesterday afternoon looking very suspicious." She chuckles. "You guys haven't-"

"No!" I say covering my face.

"I'm just saying Sarah has told me a lot about Gavin and his sexual tendencies. Yes I understand you guys are young but please make sure you are safe." My mom tells me.

"Yes be safe I know."

"I can talk to Dr Miles about contraception pills?" She adds and I give her a blank stare. She couldn't be serious?

"No I don't want you or Dr Miles talking to me about my sex life." I finish my sandwich and toss the remaining paper into the trash. "Now if you'll excuse me I'll be in my room."

I limp my way back upstairs and lay on my bed to continue TVD but I'm soon fast asleep. By the time I wake up again the sun is gone and replaced with the moon. I grab my phone and I see I still don't have any unread messages.

Where is he?

There's a knock on my window and my question has finally been answered, he's here.

When I approach the window Gavin gives me a cheesy grin and I laugh before opening the window. "Woah, be careful there." I say grabbing onto his arm as I see him slip. He eventually makes his way in stumbling a little.

"Hello beautiful." He smirks at me.

"You're drunk?" I say. I can tell by the way his eyes look red and glossier than usual he's also slurring his words. "Why are you drunk?"

"I'm not drunk." He laughs, he grabs my hands and pulls me toward the bed. I see his smile fade as he looks down. "What happened to your foot?"

"There was and accident in the kitchen." I say. I know if I told him the actual truth he'd wake up the whole house to try and find Peter.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." I tell him. "Where were you today?" Gavin sits on the bed and I stand between his legs looking down at him.

"I went over to Beckham's house for a couple drinks after I quit the football team when my coach told me they were giving the scholarship to Zach."

Oh no. "You quit the team! This all my fault."

"No, it's okay." Gavin takes my hands in his and brings them into his chest. "I don't care about the scholarship Alex I just want to be here right now, with you."

I smile at him because he's so cheesy. "I thought you didn't drink?" I mention.

"I don't."

"You say that a lot for someone I've seen drunk twice already." I chuckle.

"I'm sorry baby."

Okay, my insides aren't freaking out right now. Gavin puts his head against my stomach as he hugs me and I wrap my arms around him.

"Can I sleep here tonight?" Gavin lifts his head up and his green eyes stare right through me I can't look away.

"You aren't really giving me a choice here." I answer. "Fine."

Gavin let me stay the night yesterday when I was drunk the least I could do was let him stay tonight. I know he says he doesn't care about the scholarship but he wouldn't have gotten drunk if he didn't care right?

Gavin grabs the back of his shirt and lifts it over his head. I don't know if I could ever get used to that. I put my hands on the sides of his face and pull him in for a kiss. Gavin has a sweet taste lingering on his lips.

I lean in to him and get on top if his lap. His hands grab onto my hips closing any space we have left between us. My fingers run through his soft curls and I let out a yelp when I feel him pick me up and flip me around onto the bed.

"Your so beautiful." He whispers in my ear. His kisses tickle as his nose lightly brushes against my neck. He takes the skin between his teeth and it's gentle enough to be very pleasurable.

His hands lift up my shirt slightly but I take the hem and pull it over my head. Gavin's eyes light up as he watches me. I lie back down not knowing where all of this confidence has come from.

Gavin starts kissing my chest and his tongue follows down between my breast it sends a cold wave of shivers down my spine. I take a sharp intake of breath when I feel him reach just below my belly button. He pulls down the shorts I'm wearing just a bit that my pelvic bones are now exposed.

"I can stop?" He says looking up at me.

Is it bad that I want him to continue?

"You can keep going." I say I look back up at my ceiling as his kisses continue. Gavin's body moves back up to me and are lips attach again perfectly molding together.

"Tell me if it hurts okay?" He breathes out, his hand resting against my stomach slowly slips into my shorts I hiss slightly as I feel his touch.

I hold tightly onto his shoulders and bury my head into the crevice of his neck.

I really was missing out.

I let out a whimper as I feel the sensation grow, I'm glad he's also going slow so it doesn't hurt me.

"Gavin." I say my nails dig deeper into his skin and then I feel a wave wash over my entire body. Did I just? I can feel the sweat building on my forehead and all of the heat rushing to my cheeks.

He removes his hand and smiles down at me kissing the tip of my nose. "Sweet dreams." He whispers.