I hadn't been to the beach in years and Gavin seemed to know the exact roads to take which meant he's probably been there a few times before. As we get closer I can hear the sound of waves crashing against rocks and I could only imagine what's beyond these apartment buildings as we park.

"So is this where you take all the girls you force into your car?" I ask laughing at my own stupidity.

"No, just the ones that annoy the hell out of me. The waves block out their voices." He chuckles at me and I flip him off before we start walking toward the boardwalk.

There aren't too many people at the beach today which was good because I didn't want to be around a lot of people enjoying their day out at the beach. Here I was complaining about someone else's happiness, the dark cloud above my head was growing again.

My converse sink into the sand when we finally reach the beach and I struggle as sand begins to fill my shoes. There goes Gavin already a mile ahead of me leaving me behind. "What's taking you so long?" He calls out.

"I guess I should have taken my shoes off before I decided to step in the sand." I tell him once he reaches me again.

Gavin rolls his eyes like I'm just making excuses and I can see he's holding back his words before he says something rude again. "Get on."

"What?" I let out a nervous laugh.

"Jump on my back." He replies standing in front of me with his back facing me. I stare at it like it's going to attack me or something but Gavin wanted me to get on that?

Don't mind if I do.

I step closer and he kneels down otherwise I would have never been able to reach. I put my hands on his shoulders and push myself up and then suddenly I feel Gavin's large hands gripping my thighs to hold me up. "There now was that so hard?" He mocks me.

"Shut it." I snap wrapping my arms around him for some sort of security. We walk closer to the ocean shore and once we get there do I hop off of Gavin and stare at the scene in front of me. It was amazing. I only wish I wasn't wearing leggings so I could stand in the water because I can't swim.

"It's nice isn't it?" Gavin says sitting in the sand. I nod my head and take a seat beside him.

"It's alright." I tease nudging Gavin with my elbow. We sit in silence for a bit until we start arguing about the color of the ocean. Gavin was sure it was green when it was clearly blue at the moment but I could never win with this one.

Gavin gets up dusting off his hands I suddenly feel a horrible pain in my eye. There was definitely sand inside there. "Ouch." I said holding one eye shut Gavin grabs my hands and helps me up.

"Did you get sand in your eye?" He asks.

"This is your fault you were dusting your hands and the wind-" I cut off my rant as the pain increases.

"Just relax here let me see." I feel Gavin's hands gently open my throbbing eye and I stare at him as he slowly blows into it. I look up at him and the pain suddenly disappears. "See all better."

Today has been a series of unfortunate events and surprisingly Gavin has managed to fix my many issues. His hand goes along my cheek and follows down to my jaw where his thumb traces over my bottom lip and I can't help but feel like this is all a dream again. Suddenly I see him leaning in and I don't pull away instead I pull in to him until are lips meet.

Both of his hands cup my face until they travel down to my waist where he brings me closer to his chest. Gavin's kiss is sweet and sets my whole body on fire and once he opens his mouth to deepen the kiss do I feel like melting into his arms. I put my hands to his chest enjoying every bit of this moment before something ruins it.

Gavin's teeth bite into my bottom lip and it only ignites the flames in my body a hundred times more, he pulls away but his lips are still inches away and I open my eyes to look right into his. We're both breathing a bit heavily now and he pecks one more kiss to my lips and smiles.

"What was that for?" I breath out

Gavin removes his hands from my waist and steps back. "I wanted to kiss you." He casually replies shrugging his shoulders. Gavin turns around and starts making his way back to his car so I quickly take my shoes off to follow after him but before I do I smile and think, what the hell just happened and why did I enjoy it so much?

By the time I reach the car Gavin was already inside looking at his phone in his hands. I close the door once I'm inside and he doesn't even care to look at me.

As I look out the window I feel it hit me, it was a pain in my chest and I take a sharp intake of breath and clutch my chest as it happens again. "W-we should go." I say. "Now."

"Are you okay?" He asks starting his engine.

"I'm fine I have asthma and I need my inhaler." I tell him and it was partially true I didn't have asthma but I did have and inhaler in case of emergencies when I can't physically breathe.

Gavin doesn't question me about it but that pain in my chest seems to keep growing and I try my best not to crawl into a ball. I was glad my house wasn't far from the beach so once Gavin's car pulls into his driveway I run out.

"Alex wait." He calls out and I can hear him running after me but once I enter my house I slam the door behind me and lock it. "Alex what the hell."

"Go away Gavin." I said stepping away from the door. I'm breathing a lot heavier again and the next thing I know I feel my whole body hit the ground.

I'm not sure if this is what all my doctors were waiting for, a final end point to where I wasn't even capable of kissing someone without my lungs suddenly collapsing. They said the tumors grown at a faster rate than normal and that the pain in my chest was from the cells I have left in my body trying to fight against it.

I suppose they lost.

I was back at the hospital surrounded by Ash and Peyton who have been waiting for me to wake up for a couple of days now. Peyton was crying and was to afraid to hug me thinking she'd hurt me.

My mother was also crying and she hasn't let go of my hand since I woke up. The doctors came in to tell me I can go home whenever I'd like and that I should stay on bed rest for a few days.

My eyes squinted shut as we walked out of the hospital and the sun beamed down on me. Ash pushed the wheelchair the hospital lent us to my mothers car where I got inside.

"Peyton and I will stop by tomorrow, get some rest okay?" Ash tells me.

I nod my head. "Thanks Ash."

My mom starts the car and we make are way home.

"Does Gavin know?" It's the question I've been dying to ask because I don't know what happened after I fainted. I don't even know who brought me to the hospital because I haven't talked to anyone about it.

"No." She shakes her head. "I heard loud noises coming from downstairs and when it went completely silent I rushed downstairs and saw you on the ground."

"I'm dying aren't I?" I said. "I won't even make it before senior year ends."

"Alex don't talk that way, the doctors are doing everything they can to help you. Your going to get through this." She assures me but it doesn't help.

"Your just saying that to make yourself feel better." I scoff crossing my arms over my chest. She doesn't say anything else and we finally get home when we pull into the driveway I quickly notice Gavin's outside washing his car. I sink into my seat and cover my face with my hands.

"I can't let him see me." I told my mother. "He'll ask where I've been-"

My mom rolls her eyes at me like I'm being childish. But I had bruises on my arms from all the needles they stuck inside me at the hospital and my skin looks a lot more washed out because all I've been doing was sleeping. I didn't forget about that kiss either and it's all I've been thinking about.

Gavin wanted to kiss me?

Me the girl who's been locked inside her house for years now. I wasn't anything special.

I get the courage to get out of the car and see Gavin's eyes land on me. I want to run inside but I'm really weak and tired so I can't.

"You haven't answered my texts." Gavin says walking toward me I continue my slow pace to the front door where my mothers waiting. "Alex?"

"I can't do this." I let out. "I know you okay, you toy with girls hearts, you break rules and you make me do stupid things. I don't want to be your friend."

His eyes darken and he seems taken back by my words. I'm positive no girl has ever rejected Gavin's requests to be friends although I'm pretty sure he's never been friends with a girl before. It was hard for me because Gavin made me smile a lot more than usual. He made me do stupid things but I enjoyed it because it was fun.

Gavin made me feel like I wasn't sick like I was more than just a disease.