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"do you ever wonder why? why you've had three fucking girlfriends and NONE of them have worked out? why you always come back to finn, even after all these years? everyone saw you in the van. the way you two act around each other. god, i've seen that kid almost break his neck just turning to see you when he heard your laugh! but, i get it. keep telling yourself just friends, jack." and with that, jaeden walked off.

jack stood there, his mind racing and his heart pounding.

he wasn't in love with finn. those relationships ended because they were with toxic girls. finn was his best friend.

but now, it sounded like he was trying to convince himself of all of that.

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

jack took a moment to get his thoughts under control, and properly process what just happened. a few minutes after he had finally calmed down, he made his way back to the others. their food was ready, and everyone had already started eating.

finn started to scoot over to make room for jack, but jack shook his head and placed a hand on his shoulder. he instead found a place in between barbara and wyatt, and ignored finn's pouty expression from a couple seats over.

he slowly ate his chicken strips and fries, (he ordered the same thing every time,) and listened to the others conversations, taking in what they were saying. whenever jaeden would try to make eye contact with him, he would simply look at his food or whoever happened to be talking at the moment.

"you're quiet, jack." sophia commented halfway through the meal. "you good?"

jack nodded, maybe a little too enthusiastically, and mumbled an excuse about being tired. the others continued with their meal and about some roller coaster they wanted to go on, but finn couldn't focus on the topic on hand. he was only focusing on jack. he was never this quiet; only when something was on his mind. a lot of people seemed to think jack was always quick on his feet, and quick to make decisions. while that was somewhat true, jack was also logical. he tended to think out serious decisions or situations longer than almost anyone finn knew. he didn't want to make a mistake; and even though he often did, (that was just jack,) he was okay knowing he had made the decision he wanted to make.

finn didn't know what could be on his mind, but he didn't want the boy to be sad. when they all finished their meal, finn quickly ran to jack's side, running his fingertips down jack's spine and standing in front of him. he laughed as jack got a cold-chill from his touch, and the shorter of the two grinned and pushed him away slightly.

"you were quiet," finn remarked.

"why is everyone saying that?"

"because you were."

jack looked at finn for a fleeting moment before looking at his feet and shrugging. "just thinking."

"ohhh, right. thinking about what, jackie?"

as soon as finn muttered that last word, jack looked up at him quickly, with an almost bewildered look. it caught finn off guard, and he shook his head, furrowing his eyebrows.

"are you alright? you're acting weird."

"no, i'm good! i just- i'm really tired, finn."

frowning, finn decided against pressing the matter. instead, he just nodded and turned to pay attention to what barbara and andy were saying.

wyatt and chosen were talking about how they wanted to go on a rollercoaster called the Leviathan. eventually everyone got involved with the conversation, and the group was on their way to go see if they truly wanted to go on it.

"it's the tallest rollercoaster in canada." wyatt remarked, looking at the group. "we have to go on it."

finn looked at jack, who had wide eyes, and looked nervous as wyatt continued talking about the ride.

"scared you won't be tall enough?" finn taunted, which earned him a punch on the thigh.

"no, i'm not scared." jack stuck his tongue out.

"chill out, miley cyrus, keep your tongue in your mouth!"

"you suck." jack stuck his tongue out again, and finn quickly stuck his hand out, causing jack to lick his palm. he figured that would get jack to buzz off, but instead, he licked finn's hand again.

"ew, jack!"

"you put your hand out!"

"so?!"

"guys!" jeremy interrupted them. "c'mon, let's get on! we have a fast pass."

"we just ate." jack stalled, looking at the others, then up at the ride. "and that's one tall fucking rollercoaster."

"c'mon jack." finn pulled jack forward, positioning him next to the chart that makes sure you're tall enough to get on the ride. "look! you exceed expectations! now let's go."

jack looked up at finn and shook his head. finn gave him puppy dog eyes.

"this is usually the other way around," finn said. "i know you're not feeling the best but, please? for me?"

as jack looked at finn, he knew he couldn't let him down. he had to get what jaeden said out of his head, at least for a little bit.

he grabbed finn's hand and pulled him forward, and they quickly joined the others to find their place on the rollercoaster. they got into their seats near the back, and the workers came by, making sure everyone was buckled in properly. the rollercoaster started, and as it started uphill that would eventually lead to a drop, jack grabbed finn's hand again.

this time he intertwined their fingers, and finn looked at jack, slightly surprised. jack shrugged.

"i'm scared."

"you're not scared of anything."

jack almost laughed out loud at that one. he was scared of lots. spiders, black holes, and the fact that he might be in love with his best friend.

but that was besides the point; big roller coasters happened to be one of the fears on that list, so saying those other ones were just useless.

"i'm scared of some things." jack said. "like how long it's taking just to get up here. we all know it's gonna drop and i'm gonna get that horrible feeling in my tummy."

finn chuckled at that, his eyes not leaving jack's. jack could listen to his laugh all day, like his favourite song on repeat, over and over.

"i'm surprised you're afraid of this, honestly. you're the most fearless person i know."

jack gave finn a small smile, shaking his head. "i'm not as brave as you think."

and the roller coaster dropped.

jack screamed and cussed at the top of his lungs, which finn couldn't stop laughing at. jack kept a strong grip on finns hand, closing his eyes and wanting the ride to be over, over, over.

and finally, he felt the ride come to a stop. he opened his eyes slowly, starting to let go of finn's hand. however, finn kept his grip on jack's hand, helping him off of the ride.

"that was horrible!" jack said, as they walked to the exit, the others already in front of them.

"you screamed like a girl the whole time! i swear, your grip on my hand was insane." finn lifted their intertwined hands up, poking fun at the younger boy. jack successfully released his grip this time, and grabbed finns hand, examining it. there was white marks where jack's fingertips were, and he could tell his fingernails had dug into finn's

knuckles.

"jesus christ. i'm sorry," jack dropped finn's hand, and he just shook his head, smiling. "don't worry about it. poor jackie was scared."

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

finally, the group had went on their last ride, and they all started to walk to where they would be watching the fireworks in only a few minutes. jack couldn't stop grinning as finn teased him, and continued making awful jokes. he swore his cheeks were going to fall off, they hurt so bad from laughing.

however, what jaeden had said was nagging at him in the back of his mind. he still didn't know what to make of it; he couldn't figure out what he was feeling. it was the most confusing thing to him, even if it shouldn't have been. he had been trying to act like he wasn't nervous around finn since had had talked to jaeden, but it was harder than he thought it would be. finn was his best friend. the one thing that jack was certain of. at the end of the day, as long as he had that dorky boy, who always watched the shittiest movies, but also had good taste in music, who teased jack endlessly about dumb things, who would get flustered whenever he got called a silly pet name, jack would be okay. but now, he wasn't sure if finn had always just been a best friend, or a little bit more this whole time.

jack sat on the grass next to chosen, finn sitting down next to jack. jaeden and wyatt sat next to each other, which surprised jack, but their small talk was almost excruciatingly painful. but, he was happy they were on talking terms. he had been hoping to talk to jaeden, to make sure they were on okay terms, but no moments had seemed like the right moment. maybe, until now.

jack got up and approached wyatt and jaeden, barely able to see because of how dark it was getting. but he made it anyways, and sat next to the two.

"i hate to interrupt, but could i talk to you jaeden, alone?"

wyatt nodded and shifted his attention to the others, and jaeden stood up with jack as they moved a couple feet away.

"i'm sorry, jack, about getting mad at you earlier. i was just so frustrated with the wyatt situation, and i wasn't thinking straight."

"no, it's okay. what you said- i've been thinking about it all day."

"you have?"

"i'm scared." jack confessed. "all this happening at once, it's too much for me to figure out in one night."

"what do you mean?"

"i don't think i can stay with you guys in the apartment. at least for a couple days."

jaeden made a confused face, shaking his head. "what?"

"i think i'm gonna stay with mama roo in her hotel room. not for long! just a couple nights. i need to, just, get my feelings under control."

"what do you mean by 'get your feelings under control', though?"

jack shrugged, his eyes softening. "i don't want them."

"you can't stop your feelings. that's not how it works. and we're filming a tv show here. what about andy? he wants you and finn spending time together."

"i know we need to work on the chemistry part, but-"

"you guys already have that chemistry; i know you do, we all do. that's why you and finn were cast as richie and eddie in the first place."

at that moment, a firework erupted above them. jack heard his name being called, and looked behind him to see finn motioning him to come over.

"come join us! you guys are slow pokes."

the two rushed to join the others, and jack shimmied in between finn and chosen. finn resorted to pulling jack onto his lap.

it caught jack by surprise, but he easily cuddled into finn. finn placed his head on jack's shoulder and wrapped his arms around him, watching the fireworks up above. jack turned to his right, making immediate eye contact with jaeden; jaeden gave him a sad smile, mouthing one word to him:

"chemistry."

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

☆゜*・:+* 。 *゜☆

sooo where my fellow bisexuals at

and thanks for reading, of course:p

-courtney

ALSO, ALSO, the song of this chapter is lovesong by the cure because i listened to that song while writing the majority of this chapter and i jUST