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ANDY:

I tried to bring the pillow to my face as the bright sun light was piercing through my eye lids entering in my eyes. Damn sun! It was so bright! I squeezed my eyes tightly, trying to pull the pillow up but it wouldn't move. I opened my eyes and saw an arm around me.

Austin. He'd slept with me last night.

I inhaled deeply the air mixed with a faint smell of perfume coming from Austin's track suit and slowly - very slowly trying not to wake him up - turned myself around, facing him. Our faces were just a foot away. His face was half buried in the pillow.

His breathing was smooth but he snored lightly, making funny noises. It made me giggle but I controlled it. He looked so tired. The match practices had him totally worn out. I kept looking at his face, wishing he'd wake up so I could look in his deep ocean blue eyes which drowned me in them every time I look in.

I again inhaled the smell of his faint perfume, letting it sink in me. My sight dropped to his red lips. The touch of his lips still lingered on my lips. It was so soft, so gentle and so full of something that just happened.

Love.

How did this happen? When we were so careful to just hate each other and nothing else... then how can we both fall in love? At the same time? I don't know about Austin but I was sure I hated him from the depth of my now broken heart! And I sore I would so just whatever it takes me to pull myself outa this shit... but I couldn't! Because... outa nowhere I started loving Austin Blake...

I was badly startled by a loud ringing that made me jump and every part in side my body turned upside down. I was totally drooling over sleepy Austin when his cell phone rang, making him jump up too and he fall off the bed. I sat up looking at him dumbly.

"Shit!" he cursed just as his head hit the floor. "Shut the hell up!" he shouted when his phone continuously rang and he couldn't find it. A little later he took it off his pocket and hit answer button.

"What?!" he answered and ran his hand to the back of his head and cursed again. "Damn! I was sleeping when you freakin' called-"

He was cut short by a very sharp, loud and authoritative voice. "What the fuck are you doin' sleepin' when I told you I wan' you're bloody face 'ere at eight am sharp!" the person on the other side shouted so loudly I could here his clearly.

Austin sat up straight, his eyes wide. "Coach I-I'm sor-I-I'll be-" he spluttered.

"Get you're bloody ass 'ere right now or the team will play with out their captain!" the coach hung up and Austin stayed down staring at his phone blankly. After a minute later he gathered himself and stood up, looking at me.

I shook my head as I found myself staring at him stupidly.

"Why the hell didn't you wake me up?"

"How was I supposed to know I had to?" I suddenly felt myself getting mad at him again. I slipped off the bed standing opposite to him. He looked down at me and suddenly his worried face turned into soft one.

"Be there at my match." He said softly, touching his hand to my cheek.

"Yeah I'll be."

"You're gonna be my lucky charm..." he whispered, leaning in. I pushed my self up on my toes but before our lips could touch, something hit me hard in my stomach. I back as I felt a volcano erupting in me once again. I clapped my hand to my mouth, stepping away.

"What's wrong?" Austin asked a little strangely.

I quickly ran in the bathroom, locking the door behind me so Austin wouldn't follow me in. He'd be worried about it, plus I didn't want him to know about it until I was sure that he was really going to be a daddy.

I threw up and washed my face, when Austin knocked over the door. "Andy? You okay in there? What happened babe? Let me in."

"I'm okay. You better go. I'll be there." I shouted.

"Okay." He paused but I know he was there. I just stared at the door when I heard a very faint "I love you..." and Austin rushed out of my room.

I looked at myself in the mirror and found myself smiling. He'd be glad to know about it. I hope.

PAUL:

I wasn't able to sleep all night and I didn't even have any idea why! I just rolled over and over till my body started hurting. The more I tried to sleep the less I was able to shut my mind up.

I was up because I had been thinking all night. When ever I tried to sleep and close my eyes only one face came in front of me.

Andy.

I sat up shaking my head, trying to throw away her thought because I know I wasn't in love with her! I couldn't be.

I wasn't sure if I still loved Karen or not but I wanted my child. At least just to see him for once. I was feeling so miserable and helpless!

"Why'd you do that to me Kari?" I whispered, wiping back the tears that came upon my lashes ready to flow down. Seeing Andy last night felt that there was my own child probably waiting for me to hold him.

Damn it! I didn't even know I had a boy or a girl?! I was the most pathetic person on this planet. At least Austin was better than me. He had Andy and a baby... but I wasn't sure about it.

Andy...

Damn it! Every time I thought about her I felt my heart flip. Why was I feeling that way about her?! I didn't want to... I shouldn't!

Because I was practically a dad to the kid I won't ever know my whole life. I didn't know where Karen was? Was she even alive? I couldn't imagine her dead. It still hurts me to see her in pain and if she was...

No!

I stood up. My whole body trembling with rage, anger... pain... fear... of losing her. I still wanted her. She was the reason what I am right now.

Maybe Andy was a breath of fresh air for me...

But Karen was my life!

I dropped down on my knees as I felt I couldn't hold my body up. I slowly pulled on the drawer beside my bed and there it was...

Last picture of Karen... I had nothing of her but this. I took it out and stared at it for a long time till I felt my eyes going numb.

"Where are you Kari? Please come back to me..." I choked and felt awful because I was a guy crying out for a girl! I was supposed to be tough but I wasn't.

I wasn't because at that moment I could hear Andy's voice ringing in my ears. I tried to ignore it but it wouldn't stop. I didn't wanna love her! She was Austin's fiancée.

I shut my eyes tightly and as the tears rolled down my eyes I whispered. "Love me back the way I love you... please... I don't wanna love her because I'm still in love with you!"

"You won't love anyone else if you're still in love with her..." Andy's soft voice sounded so near to me. I opened my eyes and saw her kneeling beside me. Her huge light brown eyes leaking a stream of tears looked at me with sympathy.

Her sight shifted to the picture I was holding but I couldn't take my eyes off her. I was trying to figure out how could I possibly love her? It wasn't her physical features that made her so likable. It was her softness, her delicate intellect and... she was sensitive just like Karen!

"She's so beautiful." She looked back at me with a smile on her lips. It made her look so much better. Only the pearl like tears in her eyes disturbed me.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because you're sad Pup. I'm crying because you're crying." The tear slipped down on her cheek. "I'm sure she'd come back..." she slowly brought her hand to my shoulder but instead I pulled her to me, hugging her.

I wanted to wipe off her sadness...

I wanted to wash away my pain...

I curled my arm around her tightly. I wanted to feel her...

I brought my palm to her face and slowly pulled myself back in a way that our cheeks brushed against each other. Our eyes were locked and so were my hands around her. She breathed a little heavily and I felt my heart racing fast.

She brought her hand to my palms around her face, gripping them tightly. She wanted to free herself. I looked deeply in her eyes and leaned in a little. She closed her eyes quickly, inhaling a lot of air.

'You can do it! You can't use her!' a voice rang in my ear. I kept my eyes on her face, leaning closer so much till our forehead touched. I wave of current passed my whole body. 'Don't do this...' I heard a faint voice again and this time it wasn't mine...

I stared at Andy's lips looking for a hint that she might have said that but her features were so still like frozen.

Then I heard it again... 'Don't do this... I love you.'

Karen! It was her voice!

I threw myself back, my breath caught somewhere in between my lungs. Andy opened her eyes looking at me strangely but I couldn't look at her. I quickly stood up and rushed out of my room. I heard her calling me but I didn't turned and looked around.

Shit! What the heck was I thinking!?

I ran in the garage and drove out in my car. I didn't know where I was going but I had to get away. What would she think?

I promised I would make Austin and her work out together instead I was falling for her? I can't!

"Shit!" I cursed hitting the steering with my fist, hurting myself. "Shit!" I shouted again.

What the heck is wrong with me! Why the hell everything was getting so hard? Why now? I was lost in my thought when I got startled by a car horn and I hit the brakes before I ran into the car, skidding at the parking side.

I closed my eyes and breathed heavily, putting my head back. A few minutes later I opened my eyes and found myself staring right at place I've been so much before.

ANDY:

I sat outside the house on the porch worried dead about Paul. He was so upset earlier and whatever happened... I couldn't get any of that! For a moment I thought he'd kiss me...

He'd been out for so long; I started worrying where could he go??

I was suddenly startled by the ringing of my phone. Without checking the caller Id I hit the answer button.

"Paul? Where are you?"

"Uh... I-"

"Oh shit! Austin! I'm sorry... I thought its Paul. I don't know where he is! He's been out for so long... I'm so-"

"He might be dead somewhere..." Austin replied carelessly.

"Shut up! He's you're brother for chocolate's sake!"

"I didn't call to talk about him! I was waiting for you here... when are you coming?"

"I'll be there when Paul's gonna come!" I hung up, getting all red with anger. Austin can be such a jerk!

After waiting for another half hard hour I dialed Paul's number. I waited till the sixth ring when he finally picked up.

"Paul!!" I almost shouted in the mouthpiece.

"What's wrong princess!?"

"Wrong? Where the hell are you? I'm dead worried here!"

"I'm just-"

"You had to take me remember? I'm sicker than ever!" I wasn't joking. I was seriously sick.

"Just hold on. I'm comin'!" before he hung up, I heard his car racing hard, gaining speed.

A few more minutes later he drove his car in the drive way. He got out fast running to me.

"You alright right?" he asked panting hard.

"Yeah I'm fine. Where have-"

"I'm so sorry princess for being late. I totally forgot I had to-"

"It's okay Paul. I'm worried about you! What happened to you earlier?"

He froze in his place looking at me with huge eyes. "I uh... I'm really sorry about that. I wasn't thinking... I was..." he looked down with embarrassment. His cheeks turning a little red and so were mine. "We should go..." he said in a low voice.

Oh great! Now here comes Awkwardness in between us! Last thing I ever wanted!

Paul came out, ten minutes later after changing his clothes. We got in the car and drove all the way in silence. I could feel the awkwardness growing with every passing moment. Paul started humming after a little time, trying to relax but I could feel the tension.

"I didn't mind that at all Pup..." I started, biting my lip.

"Mind what?" he crocked his eyebrow.

Okay! How do you think I'll say it!? "Well... that... you being... uh, sissy!" I giggle escaped my mouth but I controlled it.

He coughed out a chuckle. "Me being sissy?! Be thankful that you're dear to me or I'd have..." he laughed. "I was just..." he stopped again.

"C'mon Paul! It's not like you haven't kissed me before."

"But that was while you were half dead!"

"Oh poor me! I didn't got to taste you." I pout my lips.

He turned his face to me, smirking widely. Oh great! Do I have to spill out everything!? "I taste extremely good... wanna have a bite?" he said cheesy, his smirk growing wider. "I know you want me badly..."

Shit! I took a quick glance around and found that we've stopped. I smirked in return. "You know you can wish Pup... you're just not my type!" I pushed him away as he leaned in and rushed out of the car.

He got out quickly, behind me. He slipped his arm around my shoulder, looking down at me. "Breath Andy... it's going to be okay."

I released the breath I didn't know I was holding. Damn! This is it! I get to know what's wrong... I didn't even know if I was ready for it! I looked up at him and smiled assuringly.

**********

We both were sitting on the bench in waiting room, holding breaths for god knows how long. Paul started tapping his feet as we waited for the test results. I was nervous all the time when the doctor took all the tests and checked me up thoroughly.

"I'm nervous Paul..." I whispered, taking my face in my hands.

"Tell me about it!" he leaned towards me, curling his arm around my shoulder. I rested my head on his forearm. "I'm nerveser than you." he chuckled.

I pulled my head back looking him. "That's not even a word."

He was about to say something when the nurse announced my name. We both stood up, taking the report from her. She smiled widely and my heart flipped. Just as the nurse left, Paul pulled me to him, hugging me tightly.

"You're crushing me!" I could barely whisper because of a tight squeeze by him.

"I'm gonna be an uncle!!"

AUSTIN:

I was warming up in the field with my team when I saw Andy and Paul walking in hands in hand, smiling at each other.

What the Heck!? When will Paul seriously learn to really stay away from her? Its not like I'm jealous... it's just-

Wait... am I really jealous? No!

I looked at them and this time, Paul was kinda hugging her. Okay! This is it! I'm jealous!

There were already so many people to watch the match but they both were just so easy to spot 'cause they were so obvious... or was I just noticing them only!

They started towards the benches when I kicked the ball hard towards them stopping them at their place. Fortunately it landed right on their feet. They broke apart, looking in my direction. They again smiled widely. They were acting weirder than ever!

I walked to them, picking up the ball in my hand.

"I expected you to be here a little early..." I said rolling my eyes on Paul who was still smiling like a retard. Without answering me Andy threw her self on me, wrapping her legs around me. "Whoa! What's all this about?" I couldn't locate my voice because I was shocked.

"Austin!!" Andy squeaked, getting down. She leaned in and quickly pressed her lips against mine. Before I could get deep she pulled back smiling widely.

"Okay... I'm a little confused. A little explanation would do good." I narrowed my eyes.

"I have to tell you-"

She started to say something but was cut short when Seth shouted from the field. "Yo Austin! Get up here man! Its 'bout to start!"

"'M comin'" I shouted back, turning to Andy again. "You were saying?" I crocked my eye brow when she stepped back to stand right beside Paul and they again grinned. "What the hell is going on!?" I was getting impatient.

"I have... uh..." she started but stopped looking behind me.

"You wan' me to carry ya huh!?" I turned and found Coach Walberg behind me with his regular angry expression. "Get your ass back in the ground now!" he shouted at me turning to leave.

I inhaled in a lot of air, soothing myself 'cause he's been able to crush all my patience since the morning! "Just give me a minute!" I again turned to Andy who looked a little irritated now. "What is it?" I tried to be polite. Paul's arm was around her now and it was irritating me!

"I'm- you're goin-"

"Is it something I should worry about?"

"No! It's um..." she stopped, gulping in. her cheeks turned a little red, making her look cute. I patiently waited for her to gather words to say what ever it was.

"Tiger! There you are!" we all turned to see Lana walking towards me. Shit! She quickly closed in, only looking at me ignoring Andy and Paul.

"Lana I'm-" As I opened my mouth to say she threw he mouth on me, gripping the collar of my shirt. I quickly pushed her away but she still wore the same pout expression. "What the hell-"

"C'mon tiger... we're all waiting for you..." she said cheesy. I looked over at Andy whose face was red with anger now and Paul's hand was tight round her shoulder.

"Just go away!" I pushed Lana away, nearing towards Andy. "Just ignore what happened Andy..."

"Oh hey Mandy!" Lana said bitchily and turned to me. "Best of luck tiger." She smiled devilishly walking away.

"Yeah Best Of Luck Austin!" Andy said and they both turned around to leave.

"Andy wait! You were telling me something."

"Forget it. It's not important!" she and Paul left, mingling between the audience.

Damn everyone!!

ANDY:

I saw Austin running back to the team, forming the circle, planning about the match strategies. Coast Ivy Soccer team entered the field and the crowd went wild. I and Paul were on the middle seats, all the crazy Soccer fans from my school. I couldn't locate Collie.

"You're okay right?" Paul shouted over the noise.

"Yeah! I think I can handle a little bit of that and this!" I shouted back. He smiled assuringly.

The match started with a little bit of tension. Austin and Kyle McCartney - captain of other team - were having some problems. First twenty minutes were kinda shock for all Austin fans because he wasn't playing well. I saw Austin looking at my way a few times and then he got back in the game. The ball was in the possession of Coast Ivy's team for a long time. They dodged the ball all the way to their goal until; Seth rebounded the ball and passed it to Mark. The crowd went wild!

Damn!

Mark passed it to Austin who couldn't play for long because Kyle bumped into him, landing him on the ground and running off with the ball. Austin quickly stood up again giving me an uncomfortable look, noticing Paul's arm around me.

"Is it just me or he's really getting jealous?" Paul chuckled.

"I think you should stop it. We're distracting him." I looked over at Austin but he was busy playing the ball.

"It's totally working princess... he'll regret kissing that bitch!" Paul gritted his teeth.

AUSTIN:

Shit Paul! I felt like running to him, and beating his ass out! I never got to know when he got so close to Andy! I was lost in my thought when someone bumped into me and I landed on the grass.

"Sucker!" Kyle hissed, running away with the ball.

"Shit!" I spat, getting up and eventually I looked over at Andy who was watching me. Paul's arm around her annoyed the shit outa me! He whispered something in her ear and chuckled.