I've only had one crush before in my life. An athletic girl with tan skin and platinum blonde hair and a permanent smile on her face.

Maybe it was the blonde hair I was attracted to. Or the bright, blue eyes.

Because now I was crushing hard on Christian.

I think so anyway...

It feels so different than my crush on Katie did...

The crush on Katie was so hard and painful but Christian was warm and soft. I wanted to see him everyday, I smiled when I thought about him. It was nice.

I just wanted to be around him. At first I just thought it was because he always brought food but now I'm not so sure that's all it is.

And I feel like I should be scared.

But I'm not.