Sleep doesn't come easy that night. I lay in bed, my eyes wide and staring at the ceiling. Brittni is staying with Jackson tonight, but luckily, I don't hear anything sexual going on or I may have just killed myself.

"I think that you're in love with me and he was no more than a friend to you."

He was right, but I still don't like that he knew that. Dustin and I had something even if it wasn't love, it could never compare to the way I feel about Colten, though. I think he knew that.

The thing I have a hard time explaining is when Dustin even showed up to leave this. Was he at the party? I didn't see him, but that doesn't necessarily mean he never showed up. He promised me he would, and if there's one thing about Dustin Capri is that he never breaks a promise. So he had to have been there.

I already knew I was going to give it back even before Colten demanded me too. I had the sudden urge to keep it just to be stubborn towards his possessive behavior, but that wouldn't of helped either of us. So, I made up my mind to hand it back at school tomorrow.

The late December air seems to not be letting up as I snuggle deeper into my covers, and that makes me fall asleep. Something about the warmness of being buried in duvets and sheets has me sleepy.

So I sleep.

•••

I park in the first spot I see and get out of the car. I need to find Dustin.

The cold wind blows against my cheeks as I walk towards the school, but if anything, it drives my determination further. Dustin needs to give this bracelet to someone he loves, not me. I don't deserve it. I think that's the mantra I use while trying to scope out the boy.

I see him, then, over by the rest of his friends. They all look to be in deep conversation, most of the boys having their arm around a girl. My heart sinks when I see Dustin. He looks so perfect in the winters snowy weather.

It sucks I couldn't have feelings for him, he really is a fine looking specimen.

"Hey, Dustin," I greet nervously, his group turning to me. His eyes, though, brighten when they land on me.

"Hey," he smiles, that perfect smile.

"Can we talk?" I cut straight to the chase, I can feel how hurtful this is going to be. Dustin doesn't seem to notice as his smile stays the same and he nods.

"Of course." I bite my lip and start walking towards a snow covered tree a few feet away from his group of friends. "So, what is it you want to talk about?"

I take a deep breath and pull the box out of my bag. I can visibly see Dustin's face drop we if he knows what I'm about to do.

"Nikki-"

"I appreciate you being there for me when I was going through a rough time," I take a deep breath. "But I can't take this knowing that you feel more for me than I do for you."

His eyebrows furrow as he looks at the ground, his hands shoved into the pockets of his unzipped jacket. Snow flakes fall between us, some of them getting stuck on top of Dustin's black hair making him look somewhat of a goddess.

He hasn't said anything for a while.

"You read the note?" He questions, finally look up at me with sad eyes. I nod, averting my eyes from his face for a second. "You don't feel the same way?"

The way he says that has me wondering if he knew all along. He sounds like he's making a statement not asking a question. That makes my heart break a little.

"I love Colten," I tell him, swallowing the lump in my throat when his face contorts into a painful one. "He's the only guy I love. And as much as I wish I could feel something for you, I don't."

That's when I hold out the little box that holds the most beautiful piece of jewelry I've ever seen.

"That's why I can't take this," I place the item in his hand. "You'll find a girl that loves you and then you can give this to her. I don't deserve it."

His eyes are intense as they bore into my face. "No. Keep it. I don't care if you wear it or burn it, but I got this gift for you. And only you. It doesn't matter if you have feelings for me or not, this is what you deserve."

My eyes sting from the wind or emotions I'm not sure, but he hands the gift back, his hand brushing against mine.

"I'm sorry," I croak.

He smiles slightly, it looks forced. "Don't apologize. I understand."

I nod. He steps closer, and for a second I think he may kiss me because he cups my face between his hands. Though, I'm proven wrong when he presses his lips to my forehead, keeping them there for a few seconds before moving away, not looking back as he walks towards the school.

That's when I notice Jackson, Brittni and most importantly, Colten watching me. I look away, biting my lip knowing Colten will surely be pissed. Instead of putting off the inevitable, I start walking towards my group of friends.

"Hey," I sniffle, mostly from the cold.

"Hey," Colten pierces his lips.

"We're gonna head inside," Jackson clears his throat, eyeing Colten for a second before leading Brittni inside. I notice the sympathetic smile my best friend gives me as she leaves as well.

"What happened?" He asks, his jaw clenching every so often.

"I went to give the gift back," I eye him. "But he wouldn't take it."

"Why?"

"Said that its mine." I step closer to my boyfriend who I love with all my heart. The weight that I once had on my shoulders now seems to be lifted. It's time Colten and I get our relationship back on track. "But it doesn't matter."

I play with his jacket, trying to get closer to him for his warm body heat. "Because I'm in love with you."

I stand on my tip toes, my eyes purely on Colten's lips as I press mine to his. Almost instantly, he wraps his arms around my back, pulling me as close to his chest as I'll go and he kisses me with the same intensity. My arms find their way around his neck and I enjoy the closeness of the two of us.

The slickness of his tongue running against my own has my feet curling inside of my boots and my body heating up. This is love.

•••

"Jackson's in the other room," Colten warns as I step out of my pajama bottoms.

Colten had snuck into my room early this evening both of us very happy to be back together. He had no issues with Dustin and I told him that everything has been put behind us. It's just us now.

"I don't care," I breathe, pulling Colten's half naked body back down so I can kiss him. Our tongues dance against each other in an erotic dance making my insides stir deliciously.

Colten has seemed to forget all about Jackson as he finishes taking off the rest of his clothes. His mouth massages my neck and breasts, leaving sloppy kisses down my stomach.

"Fuck, baby," he groans. "You're soaking."

"Colten..." I moan, my hips raising to meet his mouth.

"We have to be quiet," he grunts, his palms planting themselves on my hips for what's about to come. "We don't want your brother finding us."

I bite my lip in attempt to keep my moans and gasps at bay. It's quite hard when Colten decides to tease my sęx, kissing along my lips instead of where I so desperately want him to go.

A noise is made at the back of my boyfriends throat when I grip that back of his head, pushing his face down to my soaking core. I have to cover my mouth with my hand when he finally gives me what I want.

Something about knowing that my brother is only in the next room while we do this has my body rushing with more adrenaline. I'm not usually the risk taking type, but sometimes you have to.

Colten's tongue laps up my juices, teasing my clît with his lips and groaning against me. Every sound out of his mouth vibrates straight through me making a whole knew round of heat rush through my body.

I want to scream his name at the top of my lungs when I finally come undone, but I instead bite down on my hand while releasing small whimpers. Colten finishes his actions before climbing on top of me again, his member situated in front of my entrance.

"You looked so hot biting down on your hand, baby," Colten huskily compliments, grabbing his length in one hand and rubbing the tip against my swollen bud. "You wish someone would catch us, huh?"

I moan, wanting him inside of me now.

"You like the thrill," he grunts as he slams into me. I nearly scream out loud when his mouth covers mine, swallowing every noise. His thrusts are sharp and hard, definitely not the moment for this, but it adds to the excitement. "Right?"

I shake my head, causing him to send another rough pump into me making my back arch in pure pleasure. As much as I love slow, gentle Colten, I also feel in love with his possessive and rough exterior. Some things will never change.

My hands claw at my boyfriends back, my legs wrapping around his waist to increase the harshness of every thrust. Along with every penetration into me, my teeth sink into my hand while my other palm holds onto the head board.

"Fuck...Nikki fuck..." Colten rasps, his movements becoming sloppy as both of us near the end of our orgåsms.

"Colten..." I whimper. "Please."

"What baby?" He questions, the head board threatening to rock into the wall. "You want to come?"

"Yes, yes..." I cry out softly, my end finally pushing forward. An explosion of feelings filters through my body the same time Colten releases. Curses fall from his lips like no tomorrow and grunts of approval.

He slows down finally when we're both pretty much sedated, his member slipping out of me as well as his seed. Neither of us move, though, he lays his head in the crook of my neck, both of us comfortable with the position.

I can't imagine what would've happened if we never would've gotten back together. I shake the thought from my mind, not liking to think about it.

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