For this chapter you can listen to Damien Rice's Delicate)) I think it fits the mood of the chapter)

There was something else that was eating me on the inside, but I just wouldn't think about it for sure. I would avoid those thoughts as much as possible. If people knew about this, they would've said that that if I'm avoiding those thoughts, then I'm a weak person and now maybe I am.

I knew what I needed now the most. A drink. I needed to feel numb, I just don't want to think now. People are constantly inventing some new technological stuff, but they still couldn't come up with a machine that would turn off thoughts or that would temporarily take away the thoughts that we don't want to have in our heads at the moment.

I went to the store and bought 5 bottles of beer and started drinking. I drank and I drank and I drank again. I couldn't wait until the moment I wouldn't be able to think about all of this. Why didn't I recognize her? How could I? I could describe every part of her body right now even if I don't see her in front of me, even if I close my eyes. Still don't understand how I didn't recognize and how she didn't say anything.

I was drinking and walking at the same time.

I put the first bottle aside and opened the second one. I remembered how I hurt her by sleeping with Jenna. I slept with her, though you couldn't even call it sleeping, because we kinda stopped in the middle. I didn't want to sleep with her. I couldn't even understand how I slept with her in the past. I must've been really lonely to do that. I only agreed to sleep with her so that she would leave Bailey alone. Of course, I am there to protect her, but I'm not with her every second of her life and Jenna said she would ruin her life because she "stole" me from her or whatever.

I finished the second bottle of beer and by the time I did I was already near my house. I sat somewhere on the ground and opened the third bottle. I was drinking without stopping and the only thing that stopped me at the moment was my phone vibrating in my pocket. I took it out and saw that it was Julian.

Nah, didn't wanna talk to him right now. I declined the call and put it beside me. I didn't want anyone to talk to me right now and didn't want anyone to see me like this. I had to be alone. I was halfway through the third bottle my phone vibrated again and this time it was Owen.

"Damn, stop calling me," I shouted declining his call as well.

I opened the 4th bottle of beer and when I was slowly trying to bring it closer to my lips someone snatched it from me and started drinking it instead of me.

"Give it back Julian!" I screamed in his direction.

"Dude, wassup? Whatch'a doing here? Why are you even drinking alone? I could use a drink too by the way. Such an egoist," he said laughing.

"Julian, I guess he wanted to be alone. He's sad or something," Owen said bowing to look at my face from a closer distance.

I pushed his face away.

"Well if you got that before, why the hell did you come anyway?" I asked them and they seemed to ignore me at first.

"Because I wanted a drink too," answered Julian minutes later sipping from my bottle of beer.

"What's goin' on Damon?" asked Elijah.

"Give me another bottle of beer," I said gesturing to the other 10 bottles I've bought.

Elijah passed me one and I opened it. I hoped that they wouldn't ask me again about what happened, but all of them were staring at me expecting me to answer the question.

"Well, remember the kissing game? Bailey got pissed that I didn't invite her saying only guys were gonna be at the party. She followed me to the party and saw Jenna and the other girls having fun at the party, so she got irritated because of that."

"Is that why you're drinking dude? Come on don't be such a-"

"Julian, if you're not gonna listen to me bro, I just won't tell you anything ok?"

"My bad," he said taking a sip from the beer,"fine, go ahead."

"Before you continue I wanted to ask you something. Did you or did you not tell her that initially it was gonna be us, it's just that Owen told Jenna about the party and she invited both herself and her friends?" asked me Elijah and I realized that I was so stupid I forgot to tell her about that. Sure, that wouldn't change anything from the whole thing, but still it would probably lessen my faults a little.

I shook my head and continued.

"I didn't because many things happened after that. She went home and after some time I went to her house to talk to her when I saw that she was kissing her ex."

"Holy sh*t. She's really something, huh?" said Julian and when I glared at him he understood that what she said was unnecessary.

"She's so dumb, right?" laughed Owen pushing Julian's hand with his elbow.

"If you keep up with those comments you won't hear anything Owen. Now, shut up," I said in a stricter voice.

"Come on Damon, calm down why are you so tense because of her? Take it easy."

"I said what I said Owen," seeing that none of them continued with the comments I continued," We fought a little and then I left. She followed me to my house and stayed outside. I took her home when she fell asleep and then when she woke up in the morning I told her to leave."

"You know bro we've been friends for such a long time, but I still don't understand how you didn't learn anything from me. How could you not understand that sometimes you can solve your problems in another way. It was THE MOMENT. You could've just slept with her and all your negative emotions would PUFF disappear," said Julian winking at me.

I decided that the best way to answer his question would be to just ignore it. It would hurt him more, I was sure of that. I took another bottle and started drinking from it.

"When she was about to leave Jenna appeared in front of the door and told her we slept together and I-"

"Did you though?" asked Elijah.

I shook my head once again.

"You didn't tell her that either, did you?" asked Elijah already knowing the answer to his question.

"Well, I tried, I went to her house to finally talk to her, but I met a girl in front of her door who turned out to be her cousin."

"Please don't tell me you've slept with her because it would've been really awkward," said Julian face palming himself.

"Haha it would've been more interesting at least. Right guys?" asked Owen expecting agreement from others, which he actually didn't get.

"She told me something about my past. It turns out I made a bet with Lucas that we had to make her fall in love with one of us."

"What the hell? How did you not recognize her?" asked Julian after choking on the beer.

"Why didn't she tell you that?" screamed Owen.

"She was...well... fat... in the past and maybe some other things were different about her, I don't remember. Lucas and I did the same to many girls and I don't really remember her. What concerns telling me about it, I have no idea why she didn't tell me. I'm interested in that too," I said drinking the beer.

"I'm surprised how she let you come close to her again. She's either dumb or she has had deep feelings for you for a long time. Of course, it's also possible that it could be those two options combined," suggested Elijah.

It hurt me even more to hear those words, because Shay mentioned her feelings too.

"So why are you drinking again? I don't get it. You've played her, okay, but it was in the past. Also, why would you get wasted for her? If it doesn't work out you can replace her with another one. She's not even worth your suffering dude. "

" I don't want to replace her and she is worth the suffering. There's even more to the guilt, but I don't want to talk about it right now," I said slowly getting up.

"He's in love, in love, in loooooooove," Owen started singing a non-existent song and, again, I decided to ignore him.

"I need to see her. I need to talk to her."

"Dude, you're wasted. Let's get you home and you'll talk to her tomorrow," said taking me by the arm because I was bouncing from one side to the other.

"NO, RIGHT NOW," I said taking my arm out of his grip.

"Okay, okay, go into the car and we'll take you there," said Julian.

We got to Bailey's house and I got out of the car. I was bouncing so hard, I thought I would fall somewhere and I almost did before reaching the door. I leant on the door knocking on it with my hand. She opened the door after a couple of seconds.

"Damon what are you doing here at this hour?"

"I need to see you. I need to talk to you Angel," I said caressing her cheek with my finger.

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Published on 14.06.2020