I watched a movie with Matt even though I almost didn't listen to any phrase because I was thinking of Damon.

Though I know that he just could've understood that if I had to choose (which I had) between him and Matt, I would surely choose Matt. He doesn't mean anything to me, we're just halfway to becoming friends. No matter what I just worried about my talk with him. I haven't ever been that irresponsible, so I feel bad for what I've done. The hard thing is going to be finding him, because tomorrow we don't even have a class together.

I tried to distract myself from him by doing homework and then reading for a while. By the time I read just a couple of pages my eyes were closing. I put "Gone with the wind" on my nightstand and turned away to sleep.

Generally, on days like this I am not able to sleep, but today I intentionally did so much homework so I would be able to avoid unnecessary thoughts and sleep. I will figure out what to do tomorrow.

I closed my eyes and then heard the alarm. I just closed my eyes. How could it already be the time for me to wake up? Are you serious? Now I finally understand why people always say that the time flies. It really does.

I don't know what's happening to me, but I even decided to have a breakfast today. A voice deep inside of me whispered to me that I wanted to escape from reality, that I wanted to go to the university as slowly as possible to avoid the talk. If you ask me, I don't even want to know why, but I was afraid of the talk we were going to have.

Moments later I was a completely different person who was saying that I'm not afraid of the talk even for a bit. He's the one who has to be afraid.

I heard a knock on the door. I opened the door and saw Matt standing in front of me.

"Hello baby! Missed me?"

I did, I really did, but today I just wanted to be alone. I wanted to organize my thoughts.

"Sure, Matty I missed you," I said hugging him tightly.

I grab my bag and we head towards the university. The whole way from my house to the university Matt was constantly telling me something, which I just couldn't concentrate to hear. I came back to the reality when he suddenly touched my arm.

"Who are you and what did you do to Bailey?" he said with a shocked expression.

"Why are you saying that?"

"I just tried to scare you as always, but you weren't scared at all. It made me sad."

"Really? I didn't even notice that you wanted to scare me. Sorry. I promise to be scared next time," I said smiling at him.

"Did something happen? Are you thinking about that demon of yours?"

"Honestly, yes I am. I know that the date didn't mean anything to me personally, but I had to do it for you," I said and felt ashamed of myself for lying to my friend.

For some unknown reason I was bothered by it was well. I think that it was because of his expression that day.

I was happy that Matt bought my lie and I didn't have to explain myself or something. He didn't say anything till we reached the university. He kissed my cheek and ran to his class. I was finally left alone with my thoughts. Meggy wasn't going to be here at the moment because she went to a meeting with one of our professors to discuss her essay she got a B on.

I entered the university searching for Damon. I couldn't find him.

I finally saw a hint of him, which was Julian.

"Hey hotie pie. How are you? Don't you want to go on a date with me today? I heard that you dumped my friend. I always knew that you wanted to go on a date with ME rather than him," he said winking at me.

"Julian I don't have time for this bullshit of yours. Have you seen Damon?"

"Your taste is soo bad. I thought you realized who was DA BEST!"

"Julian I'm gonna take out your eyes and turn them into socker balls, don't joke with me when I'm angry. Do you or do you not know where he is?"

I saw him shocked because he hasn't ever seen me like this.

"Okaaaaay calm down. I haven't seen him today and I don't even know whether he's gonna come or not," he raised his hands in defense.

"This is how you should've been from the beginning. Bye," I said leaving him standing there.

"Get angry more hotie pie you're so hot when you're angry!" he said when I turned my back to him. I wanted to go back and punch him real hard, but I knew that it was what he wanted me to do.

I found Elijah and didn't get any answer from him, as he doesn't like to speak that much. He was nodding in between my questions, which didn't help me at all.

Asking Owen was the most stupid thing to do in this world. I asked him whether Damon was here (meaning at the university) and he answered me that if I don't see him it means he's not here. That's when I realized that I wouldn't have wasted a couple of precious minutes of my life if I didn't talk to him. Whatever, whatever's past cannot be changed. I know that now.

I texted him once and didn't get any answer. I didn't want to call him because my pride wouldn't let me to. I lost my hope of seeing him today and I knew that it was even better. I would be able to organize my thoughts and then tell him precisely what I wanted to.

I went to my class together with Meggy stopping the search for today.

The day ended so slowly for me because I wanted it to end to badly. I even did all the homework I had for the week.

The next day I woke up without the alarm and didn't have anything for breakfast. I walked quickly to the university even earlier than before. Today I didn't want to go to the university with Matt. I was a nervous wreck.

When I reached the university I started searching for Damon's car, to see whether he came or not, but I didn't see it there. Also, I completely forgot that it was too early for him to be here, as he doesn't even like coming here.

The time was passing and so did the classes, but I couldn't see him yet.

I was at least hoping to see him during Music & literature. And he came, not alone. This one was a new girl. I haven't seen him with her before.

He wasn't even looking at me. During the whole class he was whispering something in her ear and they were smiling at each other.

Why bother asking me out on a date, if he's having fun with other girls?

When Mr.Arthur turned to the blackboard to write some of the terms that stupid demon kissed her. He freaking kissed her during the class!!! That's so disrespectful and disgusting!!! UGH!

I was waiting for so long to talk to him and there he is doing this kind of things during the class! This is so amazing! All of this is my fault. Why did I let him enter my life once again even if it was partly?

After the kiss he looked at me, smirked and turned back to the girl he was with. After a couple of moments he went out with that girl and never came back till the class was over.

I took my bag and left the classroom. So, he came just to kind of what he felt like would be 'humiliating' me? Jerk.

I decided for myself that I wasn't gonna talk to him. I knew that for sure. I'll try to talk to Matt about this issue and whether he can do the project on his own. I was relieved right now. A date with him would be horrible.

I suddenly remembered that I left one of my readings in the classroom I was before Music & Literature. I said a lot of bad words to myself, as I was distracted because of that demon of an idiot and I have to go and take that reading from the classroom and I don't even know whether it's still there or not.

I went upstairs and opened the door to the classroom. I saw that a couple was making out. Really? In a classroom? I face palmed myself.

"I-I'm sorry," I said and then I internally punched myself. Why was I the one to apologize? This is a university. THEY are the wrong ones.

After the couple stopped making out I saw a familiar face. It was Damon Bennet. Wow what an interesting view. I felt bad. I don't know whether I wanted to throw up or I felt said, but in general I felt bad. I didn't need the reading anymore, I'd rather print out a new one.

I wanted to answer him the same way he did during the class. So, I smirked at him showing him I don't care neither about him nor about the girls he keep changing.

"Get a room guys it's embarrassing. Also, there are cameras here."

The cameras in the classrooms didn't work, but it didn't matter at that moment.

Those were the last words I said and closed the door behind me.

"Wait," I heard him scream out, but I didn't care anymore.

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Published on 29.01.19