Masayahin, mabait, palangiti, yan ang sinasabi nilang katangian ko, pero I'm very sad deep inside. Ako kasi yung tipong gusto ko nakikita nila na kaya ko lahat, na may mga bagay na di ko basta basta susukuan, pag kaya may paraan. Ayokong makita nila yung side ko na sobrang lungkot, napaka down to earth, AYOKO.

I came to the point where I almost killed myself without knowing why. Maybe I'm just lonely and very sad that time, yung wala na akong makausap na matino even my friends. Oo friendly ako but some people don't take me seriously, I wanted them to feel that even tho I'm not the madaldal one, they can still tell me or run to me when they don't have anyone to run to. I love everyone, I wanted them to feel happiness..

But the problem is...

My own happiness.

Behind those wonderful smiles,

"hi", and simple question as

"are you ok? " is the lonely and very sad side of me. I feel happy on small things but that happiness is not true, it seems like I'm faking myself just to look happy infront of everyone. I'm a very lonely, sad and depressed person, and I'm very touched whenever there are some people even the one who are not my friends, the one who are not always by my side, noticed all the pain that I'm hiding and holding inside.

I am Joy, the one who gives happiness to everyone yet the loneliness and very sad and depressed person.

-Joy