We flied back to Austin two days ago and I it seems like Jensen wants to tell me something but he can't. I guess Jared was right.

"Jensen? Can you come here?" I shout from the bedroom

"Yeah, everything ok?" he asks and sits next to me

"Yes, I'm good. I wanted to talk about you actually. Someone told me that you are really stressed lately" I say and I put my hand on his "I wanted you to know that I want too to have the talk with JJ about the baby and me"

"Did Jared tell you?" he asks

"Honestly, I thought about it before he told me that you were trying to talk to me. But don't be mad at him, he just cares about you"

"To be honest, I was really stressed about it, about how should I tell you this, about your answer and the talk we had last weekend about you not wanting any drugs made me even more stressed" he says

"Hey, you don't have to be stressed when it comes to me. You can tell me everything, ok? And as for the other, we are going to be prepared and if I can't take it, there is always the choice for an epidural or anything else" I say and he nods

"Thank you" he says and hugs me

"You can always talk to me, for everything" I say

"I know" he says and kisses my cheek without pulling away from the hug "I love you"

"I love you too. Now maybe you should go pick up JJ from school and stop postponing the... talk" I say and he nods.

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"Hi sweety, how was school?" I ask as I hug her

"Really good. I won first place on the drawing contest today. Look" she says and shows me her drawing

"Wow, you did this by yourself?"

"Yes"

"You are a big talent. Now go wash your hands and come back to eat lunch"

"Ok" she says and runs to the bathroom.

After lunch we all sat on the couch and JJ sat on Jensen's lap. "JJ, it's time for the three of us to have a serious talk" he says

"Ok" she says

"Look JJ, you are a really smart, funny and beautiful little girl, you know that right?" I ask and she giggles "So I wanted you to know something. Your little brother is coming in 20 weeks"

"I can't wait to meet him and play with him" she says

"I know, me too. But life is gonna change when he comes for all of us. Because you've been your daddy's only baby for almost five years. And I know that there might be some times that you maybe get jealous of the new baby, I want you to know that you can always come and talk to us about it" I say and she nods

"And if sometimes I feel like you are giving the baby too much attention, I'll come and tell you that I want you to come and play with me" Jensen says to her and we both chuckle

"We are both going to love you just as much as we love this baby but because we are going to love this baby as much as you which might be weird for you. And if sometimes you feel like we are not giving as much attention to you as you want it's not because we love this baby more, it's because he just takes all our energy away, ok?" I ask and she nods

"Can I come here and help with the baby?" she asks

"Of course you can. You don't need to ask us about it" Jensen says.

"And right now I want to tell you one more thing. You know that I'm not your mommy, right JJ?" I ask and she nods "Great. But I don't want you worrying that because this baby is my baby, that I am his mommy, I will love this baby more than I already love you. I'll still think that you are my baby too, like I do now, and I'll keep loving you just as much" I say. She jumps off her dad's lap and hugs me

"I love you mama" she says

"I love you too" I say and I hug her

"Can I go to my room and draw?" she asks

"Of course, the big talent has to practice, right?"

"Yes" she says and runs to her room.

I take a deep breath and I look at Jensen "Wow, how did I do?" I ask

"You did great" he says and kisses me "Thank you" he says

"No problem" I say and I kiss him again. We pull away and he wraps his arm around me. "I love you so much" he says and kisses my head "And I can't wait to meet you" he says rubbing my belly.