I follow Demetri into my room, and through the balcony doors. I look down at the two cups of blood and tray of chicken wings, with two small lanterns on the sides of the banesters. Is he trying to have a repeat of last time? Did he not enjoy the show earlier? I sit down and look up at him waiting for him to take his seat besides me. I grab the tray of chicken and set them in my lap. I can feel him moving inside me. Do you smell that too baby? A little chicken would be good for you. Demetri takes a piece off the tray and doesn't say a word. I look out past the balcony and take in the view. I've never focused in on the night sky. I've either been sleeping or trying to get food in my body. The sky is black with a tint of blue creeping in from the moon, the stars brighter than Washington's stars. You can see the sway of the flowers in the fields ahead of us and the dimly lit houses. It was peaceful here. When there weren't any issues with the man sitting besides me.

"I owe you an apology." He whispers, I turn my head to gaze at him but he is still staring out into the distance.

"I didn't mean what I said earlier, any of it. I just can't allow myself to grow an attachment to you. Corella always tries to touch me, it's me who can't stand the sight of her, the only person I think about is you, and him of course, but you're stuck on my mind. It shouldn't be like that, I love Corella, she's supposed to be all I think about. Not you. You are a fire growing by the second in my heart, and I'm not quite sure whether I should put it out or let it burn." He says still looking into the distance. I grab another piece of chicken and sip some blood.

His hair moves softly in the wind pushing it to the side, he jaw tense and he bites into the chicken, his eyes focused on the darkness surrounding us.

"Demetri, you were cruel to me, the last time you were even remotely nice was the day we made him, and now I'm barley hanging on to him too. Helena told me I'm smaller than normal term. She says he can sense us. Now you're telling me you want me. You don't get to run back and forth between Corella and me. She's your wife. I'm just the girl lucky enough to carry your son." I whisper, I want a good relationship with him but not a sexual one, he is married.

"Exactly, we have an emotional bond. He is our connection. Shouldn't he feel our connection too? Who cares about Corella, she won't know. It will be just us, give us a happy ending before it's too late Jamie." Finally his eyes cross over to my direction. I put the tray on the table and hold my cup. His eyes a light red burning into mine. How cpul d he possibly think we would work. Human and vampires don't match, not only is it wrong it's illegal.

"Demetri, we don't have to have a sexual relationship for the baby to feel our connection."

"I want it. I miss your touch, I miss your smile, be with me." He begs. I place one hand on my stomach and look down at him. He deserves good memories of us. He deserves parents who love each other.

"You promise after all of this he will be happy?" I whisper, looking up to Demetri with tear filled eyes.

"I'll give him the world and more." He says. I press my hand harder against my stomach and feel him inside me, he's there, and he's safe, and he will be happy.

"I'm in. But nothing we do leaves this room." I demand.

"Whatever you wish." He smiles happily. If this is such a good thing why does it feel so entirely wrong.

"I haven't seen the baby do you think we could go see Helena and have a look?" He asks, I now my head, when I stand up I feel as if I just got the wind kick out of my. I grab Demetris arm to steady myself and take a deep breath.

"I think he's growing faster than I anticipated, he moves too much." I tell him, I hear his slight laugh and we make out way towards Helena study. I look down at our hands; connected. But for the first time it feels good.

"Helena we need an ultrasound." Demetri announces without a knock. She turns around and looks right between us were our hands meet, I feel tense and slide my hand away from his and rub my sides, she looks up at me and nods her head without a word.

"He's been moving around suddenly, it's making it a little hard to breath." I tell her.

"Good. Whatever it is you two are doing keep it up, he needs the connection to grow. Your baby is different from the rest." Helena says. I hear his heart beat on the monitor, strong and steady. It's the first time in a few weeks that I've heard his heart beat. It makes it all so real. His small body appears on the screen and I feel the attachment all ready, I look away quickly and.close my eyes. My heart pangs at the sudden pain and guilt I carry.

"Why aren't you looking?" Demetri says.

"She always does this, she listens, takes a quick glance and looks away till the check up is done." Helena confirms.

"I don't want to grow an attachment to him when he isn't mine to keep." I shamefully announce.

"He's yours just as much as he is mine."

"No, he's not, he is yours and Corellas, he won't be calling me mommy any time soon." I sigh, feeling my.throat tighten up as I try force the tears to stay away.

"Jamie look at him. He looks so good." He says.

"I can't. Please just hurry up." I cry, but no tears leaving my eyes. I feel the stick leave my stomach and his heartbeat cut off, I open my eyes slowly, revealing a sad Demetri and Helena.

"I'm sorry if you didn't enjoy that moment, I just can't look at him, I know he is already perfect, look at you, he's gonna look just like you." I smile. Sitting up and fixing my top, I get up and thank Helena and leave her room.

"I can't wait for him to be here." Demetri announces proudly. Following behind me.

"Yeah me too." I whisper so lightly barely I could even hear it. Cause once he's here I'm gone. So I could see why he would be excited for him to show up, he can finally live his life again. No interruption from a human. But once again I think, once he comes, I'll be leaving.