It's been a little over a month since I spent the night with Pharaoh. I hadn't talk to him since but it wasn't from his lack of trying. Every time I saw him, he was with other people and I just didn't want to be bothered. I still spoke but I kept to myself per usual.

Gianni and Kira have spent the first two weeks after trying to figure out what happen that night because they refuse to believe that we just talked then went to sleep. Gianni saw the glimpse of me liking someone and ran with it. I didn't like him though Pharaoh was cool when it was just us to and he wasn't being a perv but when I saw him with his boys he was just another nigga guaking at hoes who threw themselves at him.

I wasn't pressed about a new friendship so if it wasn't for Gianni constantly asking I would've just let it go. i was more concerned about getting my little sisters ready for their middle school homecoming. I had bought their dressed and shoes, did their hair, and convinced Kira to drive them there in her boyfriend G-Wagon so they could stunt.

I was taking pictures of them before Kira dropped them off. Their friend Grace was having a sleep over so I wasn't picking them up until Sunday. I was in tears trying not to completely break down.

"Stop Ess" Anais wiped my face "You're going to make us cry"

"I can't help it" I kissed her cheek then Isis' "Yall are so beautiful! And I'm happy me and Auntie could make this happen for yall"

"Thanks Ess" Isis kissed my cheek

"You're chariot awaits baby bosses" Kira walked into the house "Oh hell yeah yall finna fuck em up! Killing these hoes!"

"Kira!" I pushed her

"Sorry" she laughed "Come on yall! I'll be back with Gianni after I drop his car off"

"Bet chica!" I hugged her then the twins "Be safe and call me before you go with Grace's mom"

"You got it sis" they said

I closed the door and sat on the couch. I turned on Netflix and went to my show Lucifer. As it started up I decided to get on Instagram and get my snacks ready. I immediately posted the picture of the twins so my linesisters could see. They loved them and always hyped my babies up.

: My Heart Personified ❤️ #MuvaEss

: Big Sis Stay strapped Too 🔪

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Bae hit them angels 😘

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Killem Sis

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#IssaDare but dats still BAE 🥰

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🗣So He Know Its Real

#CuffinSeason #BaeWatch 👀

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🥰 #ThatsBae

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👀 Talk that shit fam!

☺️ #iBlockHoes

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#DoNotDisturb

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🙄 answer the phone...

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I didn't have Pharaoh's number but I wanted to hit him up to see if he was okay. I started getting my snacks together after I ordered a pizza. The whole time I was contemplating if I really wanted to DM Pharaoh or leave it alone. I mean friends check on each other so it would be a big deal. I finally convinced myself as I got settled on the couch. I decided to shoot him a message just to be a nice friend.

ExplosiveE - 👀... you good?

PharaohDa1st - glad to know you care...

ExplosiveE - why would you think I didn't?

PharaohDa1st- where you at?

ExplosiveE - home...

PharaohDa1st - can I come through?

PharaohDa1st - I really don't wanna talk

PharaohDa1st - but I need yo energy baby girl

ExplosiveE - remember how to get here?

PharaohDa1st - omw 💯

I shook my head and hit Kira letting her know I'd come to her and Gianni spot instead. She didn't ask questions so I left my phone and headed to change into some biker shorts and a sports bra. Once I was done I went back to the couch and watch tv munching on my snack.

About an hour pass before Pharaoh knocked at the door. When I opened it he was leaning against the frame smirking at me. I chuckled shaking my headed moving yo let him in. He stepped in and let me close the door before snatching me into a tight hug. I inhaled his cologne and realized he smelled heavenly.

I wrapped my arms around him with a giggle.

"Hello to you too Pharaoh"

"Hey baby girl" he let me go "I ain't even gone front, I miss yo ass some serious"

"Awwwl" I kissed his cheek "I am great aint I"

"Face ass" he pushed me

We laughed as we walked back to the living room area and I sat on the couch. Pharaoh decided to sit between my legs, getting comfortable with a bag of chips. I took my homemade on of my homemade pickles my neighbor brings me and started munching.

It was long before Pharaoh started asking two hundred questions so I just started over since I wasn't that deep into the first season. We laughed and joked throughout the show. It was fun hanging out with Pharaoh when it was just us. I had to pause the show to make more popcorn and get another pickle. When I walked in the kitchen Pharaoh followed quietly. I waited until I started the microwave before I said something.

"You good?"

"I guess" he shrugged

"I know you said you didn't want to talk but that's kinda the bases of our friendship" I smirked "I promise I'll just listen. I won't say anything if you don't want me to"

"I don't know" he sat on a stool at the island "Maybe you should tell me what to do"

"What's poppin?"

"Remember our last talk" he sighed "Well, I went and talk to Harmony like we talked about. I just told her the truth. She felt some type of way that I didn't want to go to the appointment but that was the only thing I couldn't do. I told her I'd be there but because I didn't necessarily agree with it, I didn't want to go"

"I think that's understandable"

"So check it, she basically said she didn't want to talk about it once we talk through everything. I started talking to her sister asking question but she didn't have the answer other than the clinic they were going to. So I hit up the clinic to see how much it would cost to be seen and have the abortion or whatever"

"Okay?"

"I thought she'd be happy that I was taking care of it for her. I mean she right, she don't have money or a job so this not something she just got like that"

"I get it. So what happen?"

"I cash app her the money then sent her a text basically saying even though I couldn't be there physically I supported her decision. I told her maybe she was right and this was what we needed because everything she said was valid. We just aint ready. Then I basically said I just needed to deal with my emotions on the shit"

"What's the problem with that"

"She stop talking to me yo! I called her later that day and she went off talking about I needed to deal with my emotions and I was selfish and hung up. So I hit her with a text saying I was sorry and I wasn't saying that we couldn't do it together. I basically was telling her I was here for her still like I said I would be. I just wanted her to know I supported her decision to end it 100%"

"Was she made about it?"

"She keep ignoring me! She won't answer me about shit!"

"Has her sister?" He shook his head "Maybe this was too much for her to deal with. Maybe she's still trying to process what she went through. That's a tough procedure to endure by yourself. I mean even if you went, most clinics only let the patient in the procedure room. So it's not like you could've held her hand or some shit"

"So what am I supposed to do?"

"Honestly? Let it go Pharaoh"

"Just like that?"

"Straight like that" I shrugged "You're a good guy and want to be the man your parents raised you to be but sometimes you can't help everyone. You already said she's not the type of woman you want to be with. Well this may just be another reason why. You both handle hard situation differently. She shuts down and shuts out while you want to talk and move forward"

"You really think I'm a good guy?" he smirked at me

"Yes" I laughed "You might be a hoe... but I think it's because most of the women you go after don't know themselves or their worth so they fold when you bat your eyes and show those dimples"

"You didn't fold?"

"I know my worth" I winked

"I would give you the world baby girl, you aint gotta be perfect! No, no! You just gotta be worth it! Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah" he walked around the counter to me singing and wrapping his arms around me from behind "You definitely worth it"

"Boy move" I laughed pushing him back with my butt "You so slick! I swear"

We laughed while getting the popcorn out and two pickles before we headed back to the living room. We ended up talking for hours instead of putting the movie back on. Learning about Pharaoh was definitely enlightening and it made our friendship so real. I could definitely see the charm and appeal women saw in him. But that alone made the whole situation dangerous to play with.