Confidence seems like one word

But it carries the whole world

From your birth to death

It is supposed to be yours to hold

But what happens when you don't have any

What happens when it crushes your dignity?

All these people who ooze self-confidence

They would never understand the feeling when you are nothing but a lost lamb

They would not understand how anxiety fix claws inside someone

The would not understand what cherophobia is

One moment you are happy and the other is like drowning in a whirlpool

But I guess they have also faced their troubles & conflicts

I'm tired, I don't wanna hear a single positive word

I know what they all say, those whispers are quite old

But how they don't know the lies I've told

I don't need any pity

Neither I'm helpless, it is a matter of time that everything would be nearly perfect

Just some days I want to hide, from everyone around me

Bury myself in the ground, and through my rapid heartbeats

I want to relive all my horrors and nightmares that I've kept safely so far.