Seven years later.....

It's been seven years since I've left Atlanta...Seven years since I left Julian... Seven years since I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl Janae. Right before I had her I was so scared and didn't know how I would go about things being a soon to be mom on my own. I was sitting down outside my town house and an older woman approached me and stared at my stomach before saying "Janae.. it means God has answered, name her Janae" The woman had never seen me a day in her life how could she have know that I didnt have a name and that I was carrying a female child at that. Before I could respond to her she was gone, Like she disappeared into thin air. After my encounter with her I didnt have that anxiety anymore and when I actually researched the name it meant exactly what she said it did. Even though I didn't see it at first Janae was definitely the answer to my prayers. She is my ray of sunshine, my good after all that bad, the love of my life. But everytime I look at her my heart breaks because she is every bit her fathers child. The only thing she took from me was my chocolate complexion and my hair everything else was Julian. The way she walked, her passive attitude, her piercing green eyes, the way she let her words kind of dangle off her lips, and most importantly her smile. She's now at the age where she's asking questions about her dad and I don't too much know what to tell her. I've been avoiding the topic but I know soon enough I wont be able to. Whenever she ask what her dad's name is I say J, whenever she ask where he is I say Atlanta, and whenever she ask when she'll see him I say soon. I always keep it short and I make sure to tell her the truth. I may have stretched the truth a little about her seeing him soon but what is a mother to do. If I could keep Julian away from her forever I would but things have been getting difficult with him being in the limelight, Oh did I forget to mention he is now a NBA player based out in Atlanta, and social media. I always have to be sure not to post anything of her because I don't know who knows who and I'm just not ready for my secret to come out. My mother was visiting from Atlanta and had Janae for the weekend so I had the house all to myself when I heard the door bell ring. I opened the door to find my boyfriend Rico and my publicist Rebecca standing on my doorstep. "Hey baby" he said with a full grin before planting a quick kiss on my lips. "Hey... what are you guys doing here" I responded, voice full of curiosity. "Tell her, Tell her" Rebecca egged Rico on. I let out an impatient sigh. "Yeah tell me" "Well baby, you know I've been a sports therapist here for a while and its great but you know my dream has always been to work with professional athletes.." "Okayyyyyyy yes I do and?" "I got an offer to be the lead sports therapist/trainer for a NBA team today and they want me to start on Monday." I frowned. "It's Friday night Rico" "Baby I Know I Know, but they got a spot for me, us.. You, me, and Janae. And I'll be able to really provide for you guys now and we've been talking about moving in together and marriage, and we've been saying Chicago isn't a safe place to raise Janae, and you want to open up another shop in a new metropolitan area so that way you can have more revenue and be able to focus on your music" Rico carried on and on but everything he was saying was the truth. He didn't know that he didn't have to sell me on anything I was all for it if it was about bettering us. He waved his hand infront of my face to catch my attention. "Heaven did you hear me ?" "Yes baby I heard you and I'll for it" A big smile spread across his face and picked me up, spun me around and started planting kisses all over my face. "You know I love you right?" "Yeah I know Rico" I smiled at how much this man cared about me and mentally kicked myself for not being able to give him all of me because I was still in love with my childs father. He never pressured me into anything and thats what I adored the most about Rico. He put me down and said "Better start packing we leave for Atlanta Sunday morning." "ATLANTA" I shrieked. Both him and Rebecca looked over at my like I was a psycho path. "Yeah Atlanta, the peach state, where your Momma lives. I know it's country but we'll manage, It can't be that bad" He laughed. Ha Ha I thought, he really didn't know how bad it could and would get. I never got into details about my tainted past with Rico and he just figured it was so traumatic I never wanted to speak on it so he would dead the issue. If i had't already agreed to go and he had told me the location before I said yes on a whim I would've just broken up with him on the spot but it was too late my check was cashed and I was about to be facing my problems head on. Atlanta is big but not big enough. "Yeah we'll manage" I said dryly before forcing a fake smile.

RICO IN MM