Chapter 7

After our sexual encounter I hadn't seen much of Julian. Just once or twice in the hallway and around our neighborhood but that was it. He was still with that Brionna chick and him making no effort to call me or text me or even say whats up at school only aggravated me and turned me off. He was a loser as far as I was concered. The months following seemed to all melt into one, it was just like a big blur. I was ready to graduate. As quickly as my days at Riverdale started was as quickly as they were ending. It was like I was just walking through the doors looking for my classes and now it was time for prom. David and I were still together but notohing has happened between us. I wasn't sure if it was because I got accepted into Northern Illinois University and was going back to Chicago or If it was because I was having an internal battle with myself because of what happened between Julian and I, either way I wasn't serious with anyone and that was fine with me. I was laying out on my bed when I heard my mom walk in through the front door. "MOM!!!" I shouted down the stairs. "Yes Mija whats up" I heard her respond. I rolled off my bed and ran down the stairs so I could greet her properly. I kissed her on the cheek and followed her back up the stairs into her room. "Mom" "Heaven" I sighed and plopped down on her bed. "Mom rememeber I've been asking you for my shot records so I could send to the school so I can get them off my back" "Heaven, honestly I have no idea where those records are. Try going to your doctor here, I'm sure your physician back home sent them over." "Ugh mom what am I going to do with you " I Joked. I hopped off her bed and kissed her on the cheek before telling her I'd be right back. I had nothing to do for the day and I needed to get all this school stuff taken care of and out of the way before school was over but more importantly before summer started. I wasn't trying to spend my summer stressed out. As I walked to my car I saw Julian standing on his porch having a conversation with Brionna. Her back was turned to me and he caught my gaze, he winked at me and I shot him a middle finger back. I hate Julian and all he stands for like he must of really thought I was on some hoe shit or something. I instanly made a mental note to add him to my block list when I got home. I didn't want anything to do with him or Atlanta. I was ready to get back to Chicago like yesterday. I arrived at the doctors office and instantly felt like I wanted to throw up. The last time I was around doctors they were telling me that they couldn't save my father's life. "Hi my name is Heaven Cassanova and I'm here to get my shot records" I told the receptionist. "Okay... It seems like you have one more shot that needs to be taken would you have time to do that and get a quick physical just so your records can be up to date?" I looked down at my watch before agreeing I really had nothing but time anyways. Soon after I was being weighed and poked and questioned about any and everything in the book, doctors sure knew how to pry but I mean it was all part of the job I assumed. My doctor came back in holding my records and I felt all of me lighten up I was so ready to get out of this office and go back to bed when her face dropped mine did too. "Dr. Liz whats the problem" I questioned. "When's the last time you were sexually active" "A little over 4 months ago" "That sounds about right" she responded. "What does that mean? Do I have an STD? Am I dying?" She chuckled and that made me frown. I was potentially dying or on the verge of it burning when I peed and she was laughing. She must of caught whim to my change in attitude and came out and told me that news. I almost passed out when the words left her lips... "Congrats you're going to be a mom" ... A mom I thought. What was I going to do. Dr. Liz shook me and smiled at me and said "You're going to br a great mom, you and the baby's father should be excited, children are a blessing." I placed a weak smile on my face to show her that I wasn't going to go lay on train tracks and or throw myself down a flight of stairs. She prescribed me some prenatal vitamins and set an appointment for me to meet with the high risk doctor because it was so far in my pregnancy and I had yet to get prenatal care. I left the doctors office feeling numb. My doctors words played in my head over and over again. You're going to be a mom... you and the baby's father should be excited. I swallowed a hard lump that had formed in my throat. Excited? We weren't even on speaking terms, we were never together, he had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend. I was going to Chicago for school and he was staying in Atlanta for school. How would I explain this to my mom, how was I going to be a mom. I looked down at my stomach, I wasn't even showing. My thoughts seemed to take my hostage, but I wasn't going to cry about it. I was going to be a mom and be the best mom I could be the problem was Julian. How the fuck was I going to tell Julian.