okay

so

bts recently had their comeback

and

holy

f******

s***

y'all probably know by now that i'm a huge taehyung stan

all i can say...

is that my soul left my body at the sight of his beauty and perfection

i just

i just

i just can't

i cannot comprehend

i cannot process

all i know is that i want him to be happy and be healthy

he deserves the best in this goddamn broken world

♣ ♣ ♣

I have a blank expression on my face when I drag my feet into the cafeteria. All my emotions are tornading inside me as a result of the unexpected encounter with Yuna, making my head spin. My shocked appearance causes Areum to watch me worriedly when I approach the table, sitting down without uttering a single word.

"Blue, is everything alright?" she asks warily, making everyone focus their attention on me.

"I'm fine," I say too quickly, brushing it off with a forced smile. "I'm just really tired, that's all."

"Well, you better save your energy for tonight 'cause we're watching Lights out! You definitely won't be able to sleep after that one," Baekhyun says with an evil smirk.

"Is that one really that scary?" Jin asks nervously, his voice shaky. Hoseok pats him softly on his back.

"You'll be fine. It's only a movie after all," Namjoon says reassuringly to calm Jin down.

"Be a man for once," Yoongi mutters, rolling his eyes. Areum and I giggle at the scene.

"Excuse me? I'm more manly and handsome than you'll ever be," Jin says with confidence, appearing to be offended by Yoongis words.

"But we all know I'm the manliest here," Jungkook adds, flexing his biceps with zero shame whatsoever.

"Shut up, Kookie," Yoongi mutters, seeming disturbed by Jungkook's action.

"I told you not to call me that!" Jungkook whines while burying his face in his hands, making us all erupt in laughter at their silliness.

"Okay girls calm down now," Areum finally speaks up, and silence fall over the nagging boys.

Baekhyun then starts talking about something, however I wasn't in the right mindset to pay any attention at all. My thoughts decides to once again engulf me, causing me to space out. I notice that Taehyung seems to be out of it as well, though I forced myself not to look at him since I was still annoyed with him for acting like a douche.

After a while I suddenly get a strange feeling, as if I am being watched. The suspicion causes me to lift my head and my eyes immediately find Jimin's, noticing that he's watching me with a worried expression. His lips suddenly moves, however he doesn't speak. I then realize that he's mouthing to me, "Are you okay?"

My insides slowly melt at his kind gesture. I then give him a small smile, nodding shortly. Jimin returns a smile before joining the conversation with the boys again. My eyes then unwillingly wandered to Taehyung against my will, whose facial features held a rather empty expression while watching his friends converse with each other, prominent that his jaw is clenched. I'm not sure if I'm seeing correctly, but he really appears as if he's ready to beat someone up. His behaviour worries me as much as it gives me headaches.

What was up with him?

♣

I take a deep breath when the clean, crisp air caress my face at last. I figured it was no use in going to the lesson since my mind was too distracted, there's no way I'd be able to concentrate. Naturally, the roof was the best place to be when having too much going on inside my head, so that's where I am.

With slow, heavy steps, I make my way behind the corner and sit down with my back leaning against the wall. My eyes engulf the view of the city before me, staring into the infinite sky. While enjoying the soothing sound of birds singing, I allow myself to finally relax and eventually space out.

For each minute that managed to pass, I could feel the weight of my eyelids become heavier and heavier, until I couldn't keep them open anymore. The previous fatigue hits me like a truck, eventually causing me to drift to slumber on this peaceful rooftop.

♣

The first sense that my brain was able to perceive was that my head is leaning against something soft. Slightly confused, I slowly peel my eyelids open and proceed to blink a few times in order to readjust my eyesight. Further confused, I notice that I'm looking down on someone's legs and sneakers that is not my own. Completely confused this time, I slowly lift my head from where it was leaning against before finally examining the mysterious person that's currently sitting next to me.

I almost choke on my saliva when I see who it is.

"W-what are you doing here?" I ask Taehyung, whose eyes lock onto mine when realizing that my conscious self has been brought back to life. His teeth makes themselves apparent as he smiles, releasing a soft chuckle with it.

"You told me to let you know when I've cooled down," he murmurs softly, still not breaking eye-contact.

Just like that, my heart starts beating hard against my chest.

I just slept on Taehyung's shoulder. Taehyung let me sleep on his shoulder.

This unexpected scene makes my brain commence complete shutdown. For a short moment, all I could do was to stare back at him, my eyes lost in his dark ones. I had to fight against a smile that was threatening to creep up on my lips. How was it possible for a boy as confusing as this one to make me feel this way?

"For how long did I sleep?" I then ask, finally breaking the silence between us.

"About an hour," he says with a shrug, before flashing me a devilish grin. "You were snoring like a man."

I gasp and deliver a hard pinch to his arm, making him exclaim a loud "Ouch!" while stroking the sore spot with his hand.

"Okay okay, you didn't snore! I was just kidding!" he whines with a pout, making me chuckle.

"You deserved it. How come that you're here?"

"You didn't show up at class, so I sneaked out to see if you were alright. You seemed upset before, what happened?"

This time I didn't even try holding back my smile. Hearing that he's actually worried about me made me forget all about Yuna for a moment.

Taehyung, why are you doing this to me?

I sigh deeply before replying, "I'm fine. I'm really just tired, that's all."

He gives me a look that tells me that he doesn't believe me for a second. Damn, he saw right through me.

"Okay, I'm not just tired. But I promise it's nothing to worry about, I'll be fine," I admit since I couldn't see the point in denying it anymore. I then divert my gaze from his eyes to watch the clouds above us.

"Are you sure? I'll listen if you need to let out some steam," he says while nudging me gently with his shoulder against mine. I break my stare from the sky to look at him again.

Oh how I wanted to tell him about Yuna. But I can't. I'm not sure how he will react, since he's friends with her. He'll probably think I'm sensitive and overreacting. Besides, they've known each other for years, he'd most definitely not take my side on this.

"I'm sure. Don't worry about it," I eventually say, after contemplating whether I should tell him or not. But I decided not to, at least not today. "But you can try to get my mind on other things if you want."

"Well if it helps; I'm sorry.. For how I acted this morning," he says quietly while scratching the back of his neck, looking away from me. It's the second time he's apologized to me.

"Apology not accepted," I snap, crossing my arms while glaring at him. His eyebrows curl upwards, making him look sad.

"Really? Why?" he whines with a pout. I burst out laughing at his attempt to look cute.

"Of course I forgive you! You're so easy to fool."

"Pfft, I knew you were kidding. I just went with the act..." he mutters, crossing his arms. I couldn't help but giggle at how hard the tried to look cool and calm, but I see right through his little act.

"Sure you did."

I honestly don't know for how long we sat up here -- time always seemed to fly when I'm with him. We're lying with our backs against the ground, watching the clouds slowly swirl by while talking about whatever came into our minds. Everything from what our favorite animes are and favorite toppings on pizza, to what music we listen to and what we dreamed to become when we were toddlers.

To my surprise, we actually seem to have a lot in common; more than I thought we'd ever have.

♣

"So you seriously made three cakes for us? I thought you were kidding when you said it!" Taehyung snorts, making me glare at him.

We're currently in his car on the way to my house since he insisted on driving me home, and this boy really didn't tolerate a no as an answer.

"I was totally serious! Do you think that they don't want cake?" I ask with uncertainty in my voice, suddenly becoming hesitant if I should bring them.

"Of course you have to bring the cakes! .. I want to taste them."

My face lights up. "Really?" I exclaim happily. He chuckles and nods. Then the car slowly stops, indicating that we have reached our destination that is my home.

"I guess I'll see you at Baekhyun's then," I say with a smile while holding the car door open.

"I'll see you sooner than that." I look at him in confusion. "Well obviously I'm driving you there. I'll pick you up at seven."

My heart skips a beat. Wow, this kid isn't really making it easy for me to stay away from him. Honestly though, I wanted the opposite. I want to spend time with him. I like being near him, it just feels.. right. It's almost as if I belong with him somehow. Why? Beats me.

"Okay," I eventually say with a smile. "I'll see you at seven, then."

I shut the door closed and watch him drive away until it disappears behind that same corner. While walking up to the door, I let out a deep sigh and grin to myself.

Sorry Yuna, I won't be playing by your rules.

♣ ♣ ♣

GUYS what are your favorite songs from the album?

Mine are probably go go and mic drop, but ofc all the songs are lit af tho