Dear Santana,

Artist. Noel. Hayes. When I first decided to write you this letter I wanted it to be a suicide letter so you know how it feels to read one. But I wouldn't do that to someone I truly love so this will be a thank you letter. Thank you. Thank you for giving me hope, hope that maybe one day someone will truly love me. Thank you for letting me be me, I never had to be too sweet or too gangster around you I could always just be me. Thank you for being you, you never switched up. Thank you for not judging me, everybody knows my past is one hell of a story shit somebody need to write a book about it. Thank you for loving my scars inside and out, I've always been insecure but for some reason when I'm with you, you make me feel like I'm the most beautiful person in the world. Thank you for opening my eyes, the world is so beautiful and no one should ever take it for granted especially if blessed with the opportunity to see it. Thank you for trying to help me at my lowest, I'm going to work on not pushing people away when times get rough especially you. Thank you for taking my mental health seriously, I be feeling like a brand new person when I'm not drinking all day. Thank you for taking your mental health seriously, the thought of you leaving never sat right with me. Thank you not committing suicide, now I take others mental health seriously as well. I can keep going on and on but Last but not least thank you for making me a mother to my baby boy in heaven and to my baby that's on the way surprise shawty the doctor confirmed it's a healthy so we got us a miracle baby.

P.S I think I got pregnant on that balcony I'm so exciteddddddddd to be a mother.

Anyways I'm not finna say no corny shit like we been in love since we laid eyes on each other because we both know that things may have been much more simple if we offed each other the first chance we got. But I don't like simple I like living on the edge.

I love you, I don't say it as much as I should but I do as long as you staying that mean loving gangsta I know that you are I'll forever love you and you'll forever hold a special place in my heart.

Thank you , love Amour