You don't love me it's just an infatuation.

Tumhe is mohabbat mein dard ke alawa mujhse aur kuch nahi milega.

Stop feeling for me and you won't be hurt at all.

It's time to repay everything I have done for you.

You are behind everything going wrong in my life.

You have made my life a living nightmare.

His harsh words were continuously ringing inside her ears making her regret everything. She was responsible for everything. He wasn't at fault at all. She was the one to be blamed and to be held responsible for.

She couldn't help but cry in pain holding her heart feeling suffocated. She was fed up. Fed up with her life and the countless pain she was going through these days. It was mind wrecking.

Just when she thought the afflictions of her life came to a halt they came back again with full force rendering her speechless and all alone.

And the most painful part was not that she felt alone but it was him who first made her trust him and now it was him who broke his trust. His promise. Maybe she trusted him too much with herself.

She was curled up in a ball holding herself tightly lost in her thoughts when she felt someone's presence beside her, caressing her hair. She froze for a moment when she realized she was crying ,so she quickly wiped her tears to face the person who was sitting beside her.

"Maria..."

Taking a deep breath she turned around with a bright fake smile on her face to face Aamina who was sitting beside her.

"Why ?"

Aamina couldn't stop staring at her. She knew she was trying to hide her pain under that beautiful smile of her's.

"When did you came here aapi ?"

Maria smiled holding her cousin's hand trying to get her attention but she was busy reading her eyes. Her eyes which held the pain her smile was trying to conceal.

"Stop... Stop pretending. I know everything. I heard him. I heard every single thing he said."

Not able to hold herself Aamina burst out in tears and hugged her cousin who was sitting like a stone in shock. Her secret was out. Aamina knew she loved him.

"I am sorry. I am so sorry for the things he said."

Aamina cried holding her hands. She was ashamed of the things he brother uttered. She herself felt pain when she heard him. She would never had believed anyone if they told him about what her brother actually was. He could be an arrogant man in front of the world but he wasn't among the people who loved hurting their loved ones. He was never like that and she couldn't believe that he was so mean to Maria. She was the girl whom he had put before everyone else but maybe it was all a facade. Maybe it was a lie. Maybe her brother was not like she thought of him to be.

"It hurts appi it hurts a lot."

She paused inhaling a deep breath to pull herself together before she speaks again.

"It hurts me to see him unaffected. I know it's my fault that I fell for him but I never did it deliberately. It just happened. It was never in my plan to fall for him, my heart just did and now I don't know how to undo it.

It's not healthy. I know it's not but I can't do anything. My love for him has turned into a deadly disease which I think is destroying me as the days are passing by."

Controlling her sobs she met her eyes with Aamina's teary ones who were encouraging her to go on. To let go of the whirling emotions inside her so that she would feel a little better after sharing them.

"But now after today, I want to let it go. To destroy all the feelings for him. To set my heart free of all the burdens I have kept within myself."

Aamina wiped her tears and squeezed her hand.

"I wish I could take your pain away because I know how it feels like loosing someone ."

"Correction, you lost someone who loved you while I lost someone whom I loved, not the other way around."

Taking a deep breath she sighed and gave her a sad smile and then closed her eyes feeling tired.

Silence enveloped them. Aamina was caressing her hair while Maria was resting her head in her lap with closed eyes, both lost in their own thoughts.

"Can you ever undo love ? Will I ever be able to forget my love for him and move on ?"

Maria whispered meeting her eyes with those of her sister expecting her to give an answer which will give her hope that love can be undone even when her heart knew the answer.

"If it is love then it can never be undone. If it wasn't love then you won't be affected so much. If it wasn't love then you won't feel hurt at all. If it wasn't love then you won't feel hollow when your beloved is not with you."

Aamina paused for few moments trying to read Maria's expressions which were blank but her whole concerntration was focused on her.

"I don't know if you'll be able to move on or not but I want you to. I want you to move on and free yourself from the feelings which are giving you nothing but endless pain. Sometimes it is better to let go than to hold on."

Kissing her forehead Aamina continued massaging her head to make her sleep. Atleast her heart will be at peace while sleeping. She knew worst was about to come. She had to fight a battle and that too against her own heart, against her own feelings.

Aamina felt pity for the poor innocent soul. She was angry at her brother for breaking her and was all ready to confront him and their Abba regarding that matter but Maria knew her too well. She knew how protective Aamina was regarding her and won't leave Mustafa till she gets her answers.

"Appi promise me that you'll not talk with him or Taya Abba on this matter. I don't want be the reason behind a broken family."

"But..."

Aamina tried speaking when she pleaded her holding her hands.

"Please Appi... I request you. Please."

"Okay, but don't expect me to behave nicely with him."

Nodding her head she closed her eyes, drifting off to sleep. Just like her sleep days passed by and it was the day of the wedding. His wedding. And true to her promise she again convinced her Taya Abba to not delay the marriage and he agreed afterall he never said no to his princess and just like that her heart broke a little more.

From the day he called her a nightmare she never talked with him nor even glanced at his direction. Her heart felt dying without him but she wasn't ready to be humiliated again. She had enough of humiliation from his side.

MARIA AHWAAN'S POV

He is close, yet so far. He was right, he is not mine. I am not his. In few minutes he is going to accept her as his wife and I will be left broken by him again. Yes, today is his is nikaah with Asmara.

He was not mine but why did it felt like he was ? Why I wasn't able to stop my stupid heart from falling from him. Why is it paining so much seeing him going away from me ? I want to cry till I can't cry anymore. I want to cry till my heart feels content. I know I am stupid. Even after being hurt from him endless times I still love him.

Why do I have to fall in love with a person who can't love me back ? I am in so much pain right now. I don't know what to do, I am helpless. I can't do anything but simply watch everything with my own eyes. I wish this all is just a nightmare and it ends soon.

"It's okay. He is not meant to be yours. what's yours will find you. My brother doesn't deserve you, don't waste your precious tears on him. Allah knows everything, trust him."

Aamina aapi squeezed my hand, assuring me like she had countless times after knowing everything.

It was time for his Nikah. Asmara gave her consent and it was now his turn to accept.

"Mir Mustafa Ahwaan son of Aaqib Ahwaan do you accept Asmara Ahmed daughter of Yousuf Ahmed as your wife ?"

He looked up, his eyes clashing with mine. I tried controlling my heart but it's telling me to stop him for the last time. Not being able to stop myself I pleaded him to say no but it looks like he made his decision, without breaking the eye contact with me he replied

"Qubool hai." (I do)

"Qubool hai." (I do)

"Qubool hai." (I do)

He accepted her as his wife but his gaze is not faltering from my face. He took his decision and now it's my turn to let him go and free myself from pain. The only thing I received loving him. I tried smiling at him trying to control the prickling inside my heart when a treacherous tear leaked out of my eye but I quickly wiped it away and stood up to leave. The day he called me a nightmare I promised him to end it and that's what I am doing. I am leaving Delhi. Forever.

I won't be able to live here and see myself dying a painful death everyday. I can't live here anymore cause if I do, then I won't be able to move on.

Controlling my shaky legs I moved towards Asmara and hugged her, my eyes searching for him now. He was standing there at a corner with his friends and colleagues who were congratulating him. Mustering all my courage I moved towards him, for the last time.

Seeing me coming towards him he masked his expressions and excused everyone. Inhaling a deep breath I looked up at him who was already looking at me.

"Congratulations on your Nikaah."

"Maria...."

He tried stopping me but I have to do this for my inner peace, for my own comfort.

"I am not going to stop this time. I have nothing to loose now. I just came here to thank you for freeing me from everything. Whatever we had, whatever I felt is over. I am going forever, for good. May Allah bless you and Asmara with lots of happiness. Allah Hafiz."

Turning around I was ready to leave when he held my wrist which I jerked off immediately and turned to look at him.

"You can't go.... I mean dado and everyone is going to miss you."

And you ? Will you miss me too ? I wish Mustafa, I wish I could stay here but I can't cause if I do, then I'll die. I can't see you loving her. I will shattered beyond repair. Staying here seeing you both together will suffocate me till I can't breathe anymore. I won't be left with anything. Me going away from here is better for everyone, especially my own self.

"They are going to miss me but they'll get used to my absence with time. Asmara will fill my place and everyone will forget me in no time."

For a moment I saw guilt flashing in his eyes but it's over. I don't care. I want to free myself from the clutches of his love. I am going to break those chains of his love which captivated me for so long. I'll move on and start my life far away from here. Whatever I felt for him was over the second he said 'I do'. The end of this chapter will be the start of my new beginning.

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Salam everyone,

Finally you favorite man aka Mustafa is married. And now the real story will start. Who's excited ?

Don't forget to comment and vote.

Allah Hafiz.