It's been some time, I'm now 7 months I'll be 8 months tomorrow. My baby is approximately 18 inches long and around Five to Six pounds. Yeah my baby sure can eat, just like me!

I was laying in bed scrolling through Instagram. 'Bzzz' my phone went off letting me Know I had a notification from Facebook.

'Marvin Philips' It read. A friend request popped up by that name.

"Who?" I mumbled, kicking my feet up and down into the air as I let my brain work it's magic.

[Flashback]

He got up, exposing my naked body. I laid there lifeless. Taking deep breaths of air.

"Aye Marvin, you up" the tall yellow guy spoke. Opening the room door, shouting out of it.

In walked a tall chocolate man. His gold grills stood out off rip, he was tatted up all over his chest. I could see through the white polo he was rocking.

Not too long later, everything went black.

{Flashback over}...

Outta curiosity, I accepted. What could he possibly want from me now?

Scrolling through his pictures, anger built up in me. This nigga really took advantage of me, he really hurt me at my weakest. Getting frustrated, I exited off the app.

'Bzzz'. Not much longer a messenger notification popped up. My heart sunk to my ass when I seen the user ID read 'Marvin Philips'.

"Hey, I'm not that far from yo cousin's crib. I was wondering if I could stop by and we can talk some shit out" he wrote

Hesitation took over me, should I answer back?...

"Who's this?" I replied, playing stupid

"Nigga, stop acting dumb. I'm finna pull up." She shot back. replying instantly

"Alright, I'm home right now. I'll drop you my location" I said back

Why all of a sudden these niggas wanna pop up playing daddy.

I hopped out of bed, stripping my body to my underwear. I threw on a black Supreme sports bra with the matching black boy shorts. I tossed on some basketball shorts over it. Something simple and slump.

Dropping my location over to his phone. He pulled up in less than 15 minutes, my house wasn't that far from where Ashley stayed.

"I'm outside" he wrote.

Sliding on my puma slides, I made my way outside.

{Marvin}

Pulling into the driveway. I killed the engine.

"I'm outside" I shot and texts letting her know. My heart began racing, ion wanna be this child's father and this hoe got me fucked up if she think I'm finna be taking care of a child that's not mine. Shit even if it is mine that ain't my fault, she knew what she was doing by laying down in a bed with a nigga anyway, why's that mean I gotta end my life over a bitch just cause she claim her child to be mine. She should've aborted that motherfucker from jump.

The door swung open, out walked Anaya. She was bigger than I thought, her belly poked out as she wobbled her way over to the car.

I hopped out, closing the door behind me. Hell nah this bitch was not finna get in my car, my girl would be pissed if she knew I had another female in my car. "Wassup" I spoke greeting her.

"Hey" she replied. I could tell she was nervous, she kept her hands in her pocket at all times, gazing down at the ground as she kicked her feet. She ain't even wanna make eye contact.

"Look Marvin, ion need you feeling no typa remorse for me and I damn sure don't need you thinking I need you for this baby, remember you contacted me I didn't contact you! I'm not keeping the baby anyway, I found a nice family who is willing to take on this child as their own. Nike, Chris and Darvis are willing to get a DNA test before the baby leaves the hospital with its new family, for closure purposes I guess. You can join the train if you want, but one thing I'm not finna do is force you to be a daddy to somebody if you don't want to." Her words hit like rocks. Shit closure might be what all of us needed right now.

I nodded my head up and down agreeing. "I'm cool with that. Aye but until we get this test done, I want no part of this bullshit. Till I see it through blood, that ain't my child and I'll be damned if I'm saving a hoe who ain't even carrying my seed" I might've came off disrespectful but shit I meant every word i said.

"Cool, are we done here?" she spoke. I could hear the frustration in her voice

I nodded my head. We both had all rights to be mad right now. I just wish this shit would've never happened.

She walked off, going back into the crib.

This shit just need to hurry up and be over, I just want my life back. I told moms bout it and she went complete off, she ain't speak to me since. Of course my girl found out, she was pissed at first but we talked it out. Mane I'm already over the situation..

{Anaya}

2 weeks ahead...

"Ashley help me" I whined tryna fit my dress over my bump. Today was my baby shower, I found a beautiful family to adopt my beautiful healthy baby boy! Yes I said boy. I wanted to throw a shower for the Coopers, they accepted not only my baby but me as well into their family.

Ashley walked up, helping me out, my dress was hella extra. But cute.

"Thank you" i said. Zipping up the back of my dress, Ashley stepped back admiring me. I gave a little twirl.

"Okay girl" I bust into laughter as Ashley hyped me up.

"So, which ones out the baby-daddy crew is coming today?" Ashley asked, fixing the strap on her dress.

I rolled my eyes, "I invited all of them, let's see who shows up" I said putting my sash over my chest. 'it's a boy' it read.

Nike and Darvis has been there for me since they've entered my babies life. Darvis not as much, but he puts in his effort. Me and Marvin haven't spoken since the day he pulled up on me, shit doesn't phase me. Like I told him, I'm not finna force him to be a daddy to somebody he doesn't wanna be.

"Come on everybody, we're running late" my mom came into the room rushing everybody out. Tory helped me grab my belongings as Mesha and Ashley held the back of my dress, helping me out the door.

We made our way to the limo moms rented, hopping in. We gave the driver the address and on he went, to the destination.

[At The Baby Shower]...

The double doors opened and there stood the crowd. I greeted everyone as I walked in. The Coopers were on stage opening gifts, I'm so happy for them they finally get their dream baby.

Time flies by, my feet were on fire I was up mostly dancing. Everybody wanted to take pictures with me so I was pulled back and forth from one side of the building to the other. Nike and Darvis showed up as I expected. Unexpectedly though, Chris showed up. He's been keeping his distance, but I'm still appreciative that he did come.

"Tory, come with me to the bathroom" I said grabbing her by her hand, I speed walked to the restroom. A bitch felt like she was about to piss herself.

"Slow down girl" Tory said as we pushed our way through the crowd.

Pressure weighted down on my lower stomach causing me to move faster. Bursting into the bathroom I ran in the first stall that caught my eye. I lifted up my dress sitting down, releasing. 'PLOP'

"What was that?" Tory asked, talking as she stood behind the door.

I looked down, spreading my legs. Blood flowed down as clear liquid gushed out. "What is that" I screamed freaking out. The door rattled as Tory tried letting herself in. "Anaya open the door" she yelled, fear rung through her voice.

I quickly hopped up turning the nob. The door swung open and there stood Tory, she looked like she had just seen a ghost. Standing there she watched as the blood stained my nude colored dress.

"Go get my mom" I demanded, a sharp pain struck up my back and into my stomach. Without hesitation Tory ran off, coming back in with my mom and Ashley trailing her ass.

"What happened" my mom spoke, freaking out. "I don't know" at this point tears were flowing down my face. My hands were soaked in the clear liquid and blood.

"We gotta get her to the hospital" Ashley yelled, she grabbed me by my arm helping me out the stall. I limped as I took each step.

[At The Hospital]...

I was laying in bed, stripped. The only thing covering me was a blue printed hospital gown. When I arrived I was 5 centimeters dialed, guess the baby couldn't wait another month. I had lost a lot of blood, going in and outta consciousness. I was being closely monitored. The shit was kinda annoying, imagine being in pain and multiple people coming in a out your room fucking with you. Yeah, I was bout ready to curse a nurse out.

Nike and my moms sat in the room, across from me. Ashley went home to pack me a hospital bag since I was gonna be staying here overnight.

I'm in a little pain, but I'm good. I had gotten an epidural but it hasn't fully kicked in yet.

"You good?" Nike asked as he walked up to me. He sat down next to me on the bed, massaging my back as another contraction hit.

"Yeah I'm straight" I gripped the handles on the side of the bed letting out low groans. Nike helped me through the contraction, he was an amazing support system.

I turned around facing his direction, I could see concern in his eyes as he gazed into mine. "You really wanna go through with this adoption" Nike asked talking in a calming voice

"Nike please, not right now" I spoke. Right now was not the time to be having this conversation.

"Anaya please, please don't give my child away" Nike spoke with so much pain, tears streamed down his face as he spoke. They were soon wiped away, Nike doesn't like people seeing him at his weakest. I've peeped that.

It went silent for a minute. I didn't know how to respond.

"Alrighty ma'am, let's check how dilated you are so we can start pushing" the nurses walked into the room heading my way. I turned onto my back so they could do their jobs. Slapping on gloves, she did what she had to do.

"You are" she wiggled her fingers around trying to get a accurate answer. "Ten centimeters dilated. Alright now, it's time to push" my heart sank to my ass as those words flew out her mouth. "You'll be okay, I ain't gon let nothing happen I promise" Nike spoke, grabbing ahold of my hand. He must've noticed the shift in my atmosphere. I watched as nurses rolling in small tables with sharp utensils laying flat on them. My mom came over to my side reassuring me everything would be alright.

The doctor walked in introducing himself, he was a nice gentleman. "So what's his name" the doctor asked trying to distract me, as he put me in position. "Massiah" I replied. His parents gave me the opportunity to name him, so he at least has something to remember me by. The doctor smiled.

Not too long later I was laid on my back, surrounded by nurses. My legs were in the air resting on these thin metal bars.

I pushed for 30 minutes before my son was born. That shit hurt!

They placed him on my chest, screams came out his little mouth as he cried. Tears flowed out my eyes. I never felt this typa love before, a love for your own child.

Without giving me time, my baby was snatched from me and taken out the room.

"Where are they going, momma where are they taking my baby?" I freaked out, nurses tried holding me back as I tried raising from the bed.

"It's okay baby" was the last thing I heard momma say.

Everything went black....

......

I woke up with my head pounding.

"What happened" I asked, I could barely speak. My mouth was dry and my voice was dull. "Where's my baby?" I managed to get out loud enough. Moms popped her head up, rushing to my side of the room. Nike was nowhere to be found, he must've left. I'm guessing Ashley popped by while I was still asleep. I haven't seen her since I was first admitted in.

"Baby, it's okay you lost a lot of blood but the nurses said you will be okay" my mom spoke trying to calm me

"I don't care, I wanna know where my babies at" I yelled, tears started to stream down my face. They really took my child. Moms took a deep breath in before exiting the room. When she came back, in walked two nurse behind her. They wheeled in what looked like a small clear crib on wheels. There my son laid. He had a tube inserted into him nose. They better not have hurt my baby.

"Give me my child" I said quickly sitting up, holding out my arms. They wheeled him over, gently lifting him up. Hading him over.

"His family is here to take him, once you sign the documents signing over your rights. We will transfer him and his family over to a different hospital" they stated. I nodded my head up and down understanding. I just wanted these folks up out my face. As soon as they left the room I instantly broke down.

"Mamma please, please don't let them take my baby" I weeped. I held him tight as he gripped onto my gown. His hands were so little.

"Baby, that's a lot of responsibility that I don't think your ready for" my mom spoke. Her words didn't matter to me, I just wanted my baby.

"Ma I promise I will take care of him and every responsibility that goes with it, I will finish school, i will go to college. I will be the child you always wanted me to be, just please don't let them take my baby" I never felt this way about another human before.

My mom went to say another word but I quickly cut her off. "Momma please" I spoke, tears continued flowing down my face. I felt like I could cry a whole river at this point.

Mom hesitated to answer at first. Without saying a word she got up, leaving the room going into the hall. After the door shut, in walked Nike.

"How you feeling" He asked walking up to me. He had a cup in his hand filled with iced water.

"Good" I said a smile emerged across my face for the first time

"I got you some water" he said placing it on the table next to me. Sitting down on the bed, he slipped a finger into Messiah's hand.

"I couldn't do it" I said, as a tear flowed down my face

"What? He asked

"I couldn't give him up, I just couldn't" I said In between tears

A smile shot across Nikes face. "It's alright" Nike said caressing me. I felt so bad for the Coopers, they really feel in love with messiah. I knew how bad they wanted this baby, how could I do this to them. I just couldn't give my baby up like that, it would kill me inside.

Nike pulled away gazing straight into my eyes.

Pulling me back in he placed two soft pecks on my lips.

I didn't know how to react, I didn't want to react. Nike already knew how I felt about him. He knew what he did to me and I will never get over that. I hope he doesn't think he's gonna be in my sons life, I don't care if that test comes back that Messiah is his. I just don't trust him.

Acting like it never happened, I continued on with my life, enjoying the new chapter that was just brought into it.

Massiah Trayvon Bryant