•All diamonds shine in the ruff, All concrete roses illuminate the dark,

All pain shall cease in the morning...

We are all born blind to how cold the world is..

I was once Insecure,

Now I am In....Secure!

_Kells••

When I got back to the crib I looked around and my pits were sleep..

Sherry and Hunter took my car and went out to go get something for us to eat..

I put my roses Herb got me on the counter and slipped into some pajamas and sat on the couch..

I called my mom to see where she was at and to see if she was still coming over..

I called her twice but it kept going straight to voicemail..

I already knew what that was about, Her Husband...

I can't ever be with her because she always running behind him, at his every beck and call..

I sighed and poured me a glass of champagne when I heard my alarm beep and the garage open..

I opened the garage door to see if Sherry and Hunter needed help..

But all I seen was Sherry with her big ass over sized purse made for dead bodies and sneaking meals in the movies and Hunter with a big ass box of Creamy Chicken Roman Noodles..

I smiled as they followed behind me...

I sat down watching them..

"Look bitch we here with you to let you know how proud of you we are.. And not Candice, Julius, August, your lying ass momma or Yazz can break that.."

Sherry said hoping on the kitchen counter...

"Exactly! We all going through some bullshit.. but it's about to be a new year and Christmas is coming up to..

So we bout to kick this shit off college style.. When we were all broke hoes living off of Roman Noodles.. So cheer up, brush that dirt off your shoulders and smile!"

Hunter said opening the box of Noodles...

I laughed.. thinking about how blessed I truly was..

Sometimes God gives you family that ain't blood, but it seems they're more related to you then blood.. Sometimes blood ain't thicker than water..

"Aye I'm not mad at Noodles right now.. that sounds good as fuck! Y'all always know what to do.."

I said walking over towards them lighting some candles...

"Hell yeah and plus I stashed some of those bottles of champagne and chocolate covered strawberries from your dressing room at the ceremony!"

Sherry said pulling everything out of her purse sticking out her tongue...

"Sherry no you didn't take them folks shit.."

I said cracking up..

"Hell yeah she did! And I got fancy ass toilet paper in that nice ass bathroom.. you know a bitch can't never have too much fancy toilet paper!"

Hunter said throwing five rolls of scented toilet paper rolls at me..

"Y'all some thieving hoes.."

I said shaking my head...

"No we some finessing bitches!

But forget about all that, where ya moms at? I thought she was supposed to be here with your 'surprise'...."

Sherry said taking the joint from Hunter and taking a hit...

I sighed shaking my head and taking a sip of my champagne..

"I called her but her phone is going to voicemail as usual..

I'm not even shocked about nothing that happens with her at this point... You know how she is behind her husband.."

I said putting down my glass and hitting the joint Sherry passed me..

"Your moms fucked up man.. just like my dad.. I guess that's why I got so attached to Candice.."

Hunter said hopping on the counter by Sherry as I hopped on the opposite counter..

"Yeah, how you feeling since that bull went down?"

Sherry said as we both turned our attention to Hunter..

"Oh I'm cool now.. I'm back to being about this money! If I want sex I get it here and there you know.. I'm a tuff bitch, I had to be shit I raised myself.. Even though she calls me every night.."

I shook my head..

"So she calls you?"

I said watching the joint go in rotation feeling way more chill from the euphoric bliss..

"Yup and I ignored it for the most part.. but when she called me today I told her to go be with August and stop blowing me up.. While she calling me she should be here supporting her best friend since the 2nd grade.."

I shook my head passing them the bottle of champagne...

"I guess all of our love life's are fucked up and gone to hell!"

Sherry said sipping out the bottle...

"GIRL BOOM!"

Me and Hunter said looking at her at the same time...

"What you and Herb Have is beautiful... You always cursing his ass out for no reason.. He's good to you, matter of fact I wish he had a clone.."

I said taking the last sip from my glass...

"Everything ain't always as it seems.."

She said as one tear rolled out her eye by itself..

And I'm telling y'all I've know Sherry since the first year of college and that was 6 years ago, I have not ONE TIME seen her cry.. Even at her grandmas funeral..

I hopped off the counter walking towards her..

"Sher.. What happened? talk to me..."

She took another sip out of the bottle and gave it to Hunter and began to take a slow puff of the joint...

"Everything y'all See isn't always good.. it's some shit going that I can't talk about.. don't worry about it, I'm strong I can handle this.."

She said passing me the joint..

"Fuck that shit! Tell us what happened or I'm fucking everything and everyone up!"

Hunter said getting serious as hell..

"Sherry don't hide anything from us.. we got your back, you don't have to be strong like that all the time.."

I said clearly noticing the sudden pain in her eyes.

That's when she broke down..

"Yes I do! I always gotta be strong.. Cause I love my man, you know he just slipped up a little.."

She said wiping her tears..

"Sherry, did he put his hands on you? What happened to you?"

I said grabbing her face..

"No! Hell naw! I woulda killed him foreal, he's not crazy enough to raise a hand to me.."

She sighed..

"I'm not bad mouthing him y'all because I love Herb with all my heart.. You know I'm crazy as fuck towards him but that's just how we do.. We love each other.. He still loves the shit out of me so what I'm about to tell y'all stays in this kitchen..

Don't look at him any different, you know Herb has a good heart.."

Sherry said looking away..

"Sherry, WHAT HAPPENED!"

Hunter said

"We know you love him Sher, we wouldn't judge you.."

She snatched the joint out of Hunters hands and killed it..

"You know last year me and him were trying to have a baby but it hadn't happened yet..

So I went to his moms house a couple of months ago to take her out for her birthday and pay her rent up for the next 6 months while he was on the road..

she told me that the only reason she's telling me this is because she wanted me and Herb to work and I make him happy and that makes her happy..

She wouldn't go into detail but she told me to watch him closely and no matter what I found out to be strong and not to leave him.. Now y'all know I don't have social media just because they like to make shit up but this particular night as I went back to our house I got to thinking about some shit you know on some high shit.. And the words his mom told me was tumbling through a bitch brain like an avalanche... So I start doing a little investigation.."

Flashback to What happened to Sherry and

I was at the crib getting so high and drunk.. You know all alone just thinking.. Thinking if I should trust him to tell me what was up or if I should find out on my own.. But something inside of me told me fuck that I'm bout to find out..

I made a fake Instagram account and went to the shade room.. I couldn't find much.. So then I went through his Instagram and seen a picture of him and some girl sitting on his lap.. I can't lie she was beautiful..

You know everything a nigga like: mixed, Coca Cola bottle shape, short, chinky eyes..

She was mesmerizing..

At first I didn't think nothing of it because he always takes pictures with beautiful women..

But than I noticed he replied to a comment saying "in Do time.."

So I clicked on it and seen her picture and she commented

"I can't wait until you get back.."

So I go to her page but it's private...

I request her as a friend and take a shower trying not to over react at the fact that he follows her.. Maybe that's his cousin, but I know my intuition ain't wrong..

I get out and see she excepted my friend request and get to going through her shit right so I see these...

So of course my first reactions rage right..

I start getting pictures and everything he ever got for me and him and burning shit.. You know just tearing everything up in sight left and right.. I'm on some Angela Bassett, waiting to exhale type shit..

But than I look around and think about how that won't change anything but it sure did make me feel better...

Well anyways he was going to be home in two days so I sat in that same spot for two days.. Dried eyes from crying... Fucked up thoughts from all the weed I had been smoking..

Finally he came home...

I guess he had seen everything I fucked up cause I heard him click back his gun and call my name.. he continued to call my name but I didn't answer I just sat there silence waiting on him to find me..

He bust through the room and came seeing me on the floor..

"Sherry WHAT'S WRONG! Baby you Okay?!!"

He said tucking his back pocket and coming to where I was..

"Why didn't you just tell me?"

I asked softly..

"Tell you what? Sherry what the fuck is going on, what happened to the house?"

I handed him my phone that was almost dead..

"Scroll!"

I said, as he grabbed it squinting..

"Baby.."

"Is it yours?"

I asked..

"Hell Nah, that ain't mines! I would never do that to us.. I love you girl, she probably just a fan photoshopping shit!"

"Herb don't lie to me.. cause we could fix this, but if you lie this could go real wrong real quick.. I seen that you follow her back.."

"Sherry baby, you know I'm gone on the road all the time.. I follow a lot of bitches back, and you get to wondering for no reason.. But I don't know the bitch she's lying.. Believe me.. she found a random picture of me and now she's tryna put that baby off on me.. You all I need I don't give a fuck about these hoes!"

"Did you fuck her?"

"Sherry get off the floor.. come on man.."

"DID YOU FUCK HER HERBERT?"

"Man Sherry get up from the floor.. Why you even snooping, you supposed to trust me.."

"Fuck you Herb.."

And I got up headed towards the door he tried to chase me but I got in the car I bought myself and left..

The phone, the clothes everything he ever got me I left that shit.. I didn't want any parts of him..

I moved into a little apartment uptown and went incognito..

Then one day a week later I had a knock at my door..

I looked out my peephole and it was the girl from Instagram...

I opened the door and almost had a heart attack.. I knew instantly that baby was his from the look in her eyes..

I let her in..

"You want something to drink?"

I asked looking at her pregnant belly about to bust as she rubbed her stomach..

She looked as lost and scared as I was..

As much as I wanted to go off I couldn't.. I could tell she didn't know about me as much as I didn't know about her.. And she wasn't disrespectful at all..

"No thank you I'm fine.."

"What's your name?"

I asked as she continued to rub her stomach...

"Simone.. Simone Mayako"

I nodded slowly..

"Please have a seat.. don't be on your feet with that baby..."

She nodded sitting on my couch as I sat across from her and we starred at each other for a while..

I sighed...

"It's His isn't it?"

She nodded slowly...

I shook my head as the tears flowed..

"I promise I didn't know about you.. Me and him met a year ago and he would just come see me and chill.. he wouldn't touch me we were just cool.. but than eventually he started to tell me how he was in love with me and we would have unprotected sex like every night.."

I breathed in real hard trying to take in all she was telling me..

"When I found out I was pregnant he made me make my page private and he paid me off to keep quiet.. He even bought me that Mercedes Jeep outside.. here's proof.."

She said handing me her phone..

I put my hand up..

"I'm good I don't need to see it, I believe you.."

I ran my finger through my hair seeing the room spin and everything go from red to pitch black...

I walked away from her, I didn't want to take my anger out on her.. after I collected my thoughts I came back..

"Look he came to me a couple weeks ago telling me he didn't want anything to do with me or my baby and to stay out of his life.. He said he would send me money to keep quiet.. that's when I knew there was more to the story and went to his mom to find out more.. So when I seen you shopping one day I recognized you from the pictures in her living room and followed you.. I finally built up the courage to come see you.. I know that you're hurting and I'm the cause of that.. I'm so sorry, if I would have known I would have never even spoke to him PERIOD! You guys have been together way before me and this baby came along fucking up life's.. I just don't know what to do, I'm scared and you deserve the truth.."

I was beyond pissed..

But not at her, this isn't her fault..

She was just a girl that fell for a niggas bull like anybody else...

I felt for her and that baby...

How you gone turn away your own flesh and blood..

I sat by her and gave her a hug..

"Look what me and him going through isn't your fault honey.. we both been played... I'm strong enough to handle him.. My question is do you want to be with him?"

"Hell no... it's a wrap, I just want my baby to be good.. that's all.."

"And it will be handled don't worry.. If he doesn't, Hell I'll be your baby daddy.. trust me I got you, whether he wants this or not.."

I wiped her face, and we got to know each other..

She told me so much dirt about that nigga it was unreal..

I cooked for her and got her info to keep in touch with her..

I don't know if Herb had senses on me and her but he called me right after she left and I agreed to meet up with him for breakfast the next day..

He tried to give me a hug but I didn't want him near me..

I started eating without him and all...

"Sherry I miss you.. I been tryna find you.. Come back home.."

"Why'd you lie to me?"

"Sherry I told you I don't know that girl.."

"Nigga don't do that in this public place I will light this Bitch up! She came to my apartment so I know what's up.."

He sighed..

"Sherry I told that Bitch to get an abortion she was just a road thot.. she's not you.."