Hank and I walk out of his office and I don't see Jay or Ruzek but I hear Ruzek calling my name. It sounds like it's coming from the locker room. Hank obviously hears it too because he looks at me with concern and confusion. We run to the locker room and the sight breaks my heart.

EL- "Jay?"

AR- "I don't know what happened. He just said 'I didn't mean to' and broke down."

HV- "Ruzek, go back to your desk."

He nods and tries to leave but Jay has a death grip on him. I go sit next to him and hold onto him and gently pull him off of Ruzek. He lets go and grips straight onto me. Ruzek leaves and Hank leaves but comes back with a cup of water. He tries to give it to him but Jay won't let go of me. "Hank, can you give me a minute with him?" He nods and leaves.

"Jay. Can you please talk to me? What's going on?"

"I..I'm s..so sorry E...Erin."

"What are you sorry about?"

"I hurt you. I..I didn't mean to"

"Hey. Sh it's okay. I understand."

He just keeps crying into my shoulder. I don't know what I can do to sooth him. Hank comes in and crouches so he's to the height level of the bench. "Why don't you go home today, kid?"

Silence...

"Halstead, I'm telling you to go home. Get some rest."

He comes out from my shoulder and put his elbows on his knees.

"I'm sorry Sarg."

"Don't be, kid. I understand."

Jay gets up and goes to his desk. I mouth 'thank you' to Hank before I walk out. I just hate this. Everything about it. Jay might loose his job! I just wish I could be there for him. Some may say I'm there for him the most but I don't feel like I'm helping. He needs help. I just don't know how to get him the help he needs. I told Hank that I was gonna make sure Jay got home safely and then I was gonna come back to the district. "I'll be home in a little awhile. You're gonna get through this Jay." He hesitates to nod and goes to get a beer. A beer? At noon?

"Oh no no no. You're not gonna go to this. Jay if you go to drinking I swear to god I will drop your ass."

He starts laughing a little bit. I'm not joking but at least he's happy.

"We have beers lined up in front of the coffee creamer. I was moving them out of the way. No need to 'drop my ass'."

He smiles at the end. I smile back at him.

"I'll see you in a little bit! Love you." I say as I walk out. We've never told each other that we love one another but I really do. I love him with everything I have. Now is probably the best time to say it because I hope it'll encourage him to make it through this. I didn't give him a chance to say it back but he did look back at me in surprise. He has the whole unit for support, I hope he'll be okay..