Que sera, sera

This was destined to happen, you can't change somebody's fate

If I had told her to stay with me, something terrible would've happened to her, leading her to be in the same place she is at now

If she had married Luca he would've treated her like total shit, leading her to be in the same place she is at now

But...

If I hadn't said those words, if I hadn't been such a p*ssy, if I knew how to protect her... She wouldn't be in the same place she is at now

If only

There's always pain..remorse and compunction behind the "ifs".. Pain like no other

I've never experienced such a feeling before, ever since my mother's death.

I felt a deep ache in my heart at the memory of my mom's cold pale and lifeless body staring at me with her dead faint dark eyes... I was the last person she spoke to before her soul left her body

A chill ran down my spine and my heart felt too heavy as I looked down at her almost lifeless body

But she wasn't staring at me, her eyes were closed, and I was holding on to the last hope that she would open those angelic eyes of hers and look at me, I wanted her to wake up, to see me, to scream at me

I wanted her to tell me how much she hates me

I want her to blame me for the state she's in

I want her to let everything out

But that's too late now isn't it?

If only,

I had went to her during her darkest, affliction filled week, if had let her scream at me, let all her feelings out instead of bottling them inside making them sharp knives wounding her more and more with every breath she takes

Then she would've felt better, and yes she would still be in pain but not.. Not half dead.

Instead of going to her, I was taking all my pain and suffer on my maids, using them to make myself feel better, my escape was s*x and alcohol.. Her escape was suicide

I knew, I knew I would've lost myself and been completely shattered apart if kept thinking about what I did to her, right after she admitted that she loves me

The only woman I've ever loved besides my mother, said she loved me back and I completely destroyed her feelings.

Women are fragile and delicate, they're strong yes, but their feelings are to be protected at all costs..

Funny I'm saying this now

But even with my escape ways, she still managed to creep her way into my thoughts, haunting me, taunting me

And when I got that damned bedevilled phone call from Luca, telling me that the love of my life, was currently suspended between life and death.. That's when the only piece of compassion and love I had left or developed in me because of her, it died.

Do you know how it feels like seeing someone you're completely crazy for in a state that they're here and not here? In a state that's so critical that they might leave you at any second? And if they do leave you they'll take a part of your soul with them?

I felt disgusting, I wanted to her to wake up already

I looked down on her, on that plain hospital bed, tubes connected to her, these tubes were the only reason she's still alive..

I can't believe that's Adriana.. My feisty tigresa.. My carina

"Why did you give up that easily... Adriana you've been through hell and back, all because of me but it only made you stronger.. WHY GIVE UP NOW? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF YOU LOCO WOMAN, YOU REALLY BELIEVED I DIDNT CARE FOR YOU? I KNOW YOU'RE SMARTER THAN THAT... HOW DID YOU LET MY F*CKING WORDS WOUND YOU SO DEEP ADRIANA WHY?!" I started screaming at her, blaming her for the state I'm in...

How selfish of me

"I want to hear your cocky comebacks..I want you to see you smirking back at me, giving me that look of victory... Where is all that sass now? eres estúpido mi carina... How did you believe me? Adriana I'm head over heels for you, I'm loco for you.. I love you" I said with too much sincerity, I was in a vulnerable state right now

A tear managed to escape my eyes and I wiped it as soon as I heard the door open, I looked up and saw a nurse standing there staring at me

"¿Qué?" I snapped when she kept mute

"I'm sorry mr. Massarotti but visiting hours are over.. You need to leave, the patient needs to be left alone" She said in a low voice, she kept her head down and her eyes wouldn't meet mine

"She's in a fucking coma, nothing affects her, how is my presence harmful to her?"

"Sir I know you don't want to leave her but those are the rules, please don't make this hard" this time she looked up at me and had this challenging look in her eyes

Count to fucking ten Noah, don't do anything stupid.

Stop being so problematic and leave, if Adriana was in a state where she's able to speak what's on her mind, she wouldn't want you to be here.

"Fine. But I'll back first thing in the morning" I stood up, ready to leave "oh and next time butterfly don't try acting so tough around me, or I will make you regret ever being a nurse and working in this hospital" I said then I opened the door and left

As soon as I was out my phone started ringing, I took it out of my pocket and groaned when I saw it was Andres calling, which means something is wrong

"

I hung up and let out a frustrated groan then I start walking down the hallway and headed to the elevators

I clicked the button and waited, right as it arrived the doors opened and I came face to face with Luca

I felt my blood boiling up at the sight of him

I instantly pushed him inside and wrapped my hand around his neck, the elevator doors closed

"You have the audacity to come here?! Haven't you done enough damage? Stay the bloody hell away from Adriana" I said in a low threatening tone, tightening my grip around his neck as he fought to push me away and struggled to breath

Then I backed away and he started coughing uncontrollably

"What.the.. Fuck is wrong with you?! I'm here to check up on her you bloody d*ck, I see that's how you're making things better on yourself? Blaming me? Whatever makes you sleep at night hermano"

My hand formed into a fist and I was ready to beat the living sh*t out of him but the elevator stopped and the doors opened, I looked behind and saw a nurse standing outside, next to her was a young girl, who apparently has cancer was seated in a wheelchair.. I decided not to make a scene in front of the girl and got out, I smiled at her and she grinned back

Then they got in and I was back with Luca

"I know why you're here, you're not worried about Adriana because you care about her, you're worried you'll lose your only way to that f*cking business deal. Well you know what? F*ck you and that business deal, and f*ck Leo, you all are the culprits and the main reason Adriana is up there, so close to her death" I looked at him with pure disgust and rage then I remembered I have a putana to deal with so I left and headed outside towards my car

I got in and roared the engine to life then speeded out, my house was ten minutes away but it took me five minutes to get there, I stopped in front of the gate and got out, throwing my keys to the guards and walked my way in, I was in no mood to discuss sh*t with that b*tch but I had no choice

I reached the main door and instantly got in and started making my way to my office, I saw Andres standing in front of the door

"Holy f*ck finally, she was driving me insane! She's a dirty little thing, she developed a liking to me.. I mean she's pretty hot if you ask me, big titties and all but she's too old for me man and you know what.. Oh." He started rambling then instantly stopped when he saw the look I was giving him

"Never mind go in.." He said and stepped away from the door, I opened it and got in, only to see her seated in my seat

"Oh hola Noah, still as handsome as the last time I saw you, oh do come in, we need to talk" she smirked and I was ready to wipe it right off her face along with all the make-up and chemicals filling her

"Rosalinda Esmeralda Lockwood, what brings you right into my hands? Thought you were smarter than this, I made myself clear last time we talked, didn't I?" I said as I walked towards her

"Well, I'm here to see my daughter Noah, I miss her." Right as the words left her mouth I burst out into a fit of laughter

"Now you want your daughter back? Honestly cut the bullshit and tell me what you want, huh? More money? But I'll go with your crap, you should know your daughter no longer works for me, she left a long time ago" I wasn't going to tell her that her daughter is currently fighting for her life, it's not because I care about her feelings, it's the other way around, she wouldn't actually care and I wouldn't be able to control my actions and repress from killing her if I were to see her careless attitude about her daughter

"What do you mean she no longer works here?!! Wasn't our deal based on this?! How did you let her go?" She had the guts to scold me about her daughter after she practically sold her to me?

I struggled to compose myself from snapping her neck

"The deal? For God's sake, you wanted your daughter out of your house so bad that you sold her to me, after I saved her ass from freezing to death in the ocean or being eaten by any sea creature, you didn't even want her back after you knew she was left all alone on an island, you didn't even had her name in your will! You got lucky by surviving and that's only because you knew about my plan and helped, I gave you more money than what you asked for just because your business was collapsing, and now you're back here saying you want your daughter back? You think she'd want to see you? You faked your own death! Not that she really cared or mourned you though, the Apple doesn't fall far from the tree now does it?"

"Fine. I'm not here for her, I need money, and my business wasn't collapsing, it's all Ernesto, he took over the company then left me with nothing! And I didn't want my daughter to be living through all this, so I just made a deal with you, you wanted her all for yourself from the moment you laid eyes on her, you're not so innocent yourself, if she ever finds out about our scheme, she wouldn't look at any of us, heck she might shoot us dead" she rambled, her voice was nothing but annoying and I was ready to punch her vocal chords but decided against it, what she said made sense somehow

"I gave you ten million dollars six months ago, what the f*ck did you do with all that money huh? Spent them on your boyfriends? Bought drugs? What?" I approached her, turning her in the chair towards me and I towered her, after I was leaning on the desk

I grabbed her by both of her cheeks and stared into her eyes, "tell me. What the f*ck did you do?" I squeezed harder and she whimpered, I knew something was wrong, this was all a part of a little game she's playing

I let go of her and push her back "I know you're playing a game, I'm giving you 10 seconds before you start talking or I swear to god rosalinda I'm emptying my gun in your head" I threatened and took out my gun, she looked beyond terrified that she started shaking at the sight of the gun

"O-okay just pl..ease put .. The gun away" she stuttered, I smiled and put the gun away

"Tell me rosalinda what's your biggest fear?" I asked and turned to her, she looked confused and horrified to say the least

"What?"

"Answer the question, did you hear it or do you want me to repeat it? I wouldn't blame you if you didn't hear it, ageing really affects our senses" I smirked when I knew I hit that sensitive spot in her, she looked beyond offended, and by all the botox filing her face I could easily tell that her biggest fear was ageing, really but there must be something else

"Sharks, my biggest fear is sharks" she said

"Oh? Well then rosalinda you better start talking and you better say the truth because trust me I will find out if you lie and I wouldn't hesitate feeding you alive to ten sharks, what game are YOU PLAYING?"

"Tell me Noah, do you Luca Di Vaio?" Her tone changed dramatically, into a challenging one, she had a smirk playing on her lips because she knew damn well that I know who he is

How did he reach her?!

What are they planning?

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