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Adriana

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Yes I do know that this is a hard decision and one of the most life changing and important decisions someone could ever take, so if you can't make up your mind now, and if you're confused or shy or anything for that matter, I won't press further on this topic tonight, I'll give you all the time you need to think this through. But I hope you take a decision that would make me the happiest and luckiest man on earth, mi amor" Luca said then he held my hand and kissed the back of it

Here I felt like a huge weight was off my back, I felt relieved. Luca must've noticed the state of shocker I was in, and how I wasn't able to utter a word, so I'm glad he made this less hectic and awkward for me and said that

I mean where the hell did the question pop from? Like this? Just like this? From working for him to MARRYING HIM? What the f

But for some weird reason I couldn't say no.. I didn't want to say it just yet. I needed to think about this

I swear this is the last time I'm ever going to a fking yacht party, nothing good ever happens there!

I heard people let out sad sighs and someone yelled that I'm a fool but like ok.. All good because I noticed Noah punched him

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

I needed to talk to him, I needed to ask him about this, I don't know I just I needed to ask him ok, he has known Luca longer..

Im always contradicting myself, my heart and my brain are never on the same page

I noticed Luca got up so to make this less weird I wrapped my arms around him and he hugged me tight, he inhaled my scent and let out a satisfied groan

"You smell so good" he whispered and I just let out a small giggle then took a step back

The spotlight was still on us and I was getting dizzy

"Ok the show is over can you please take this light away from me I'm getting lightheaded!?" I yelled loudly at no one in specific and within a moment it was dimmed

"Thank you!" I yelled again, who was I talking to anyway? I heard Luca laugh beside me

"I'll leave you to think about this, now I'm going to see Leonardo again" he said and stepped closer kissing my forehead

Forehead kisses are the best I swear to god

But hey, nothing tops the Noah kisses

Oh shut up

Luca placed the ring box back in his pocket then left me .. Oh..kay then.

But all good it's time to talk to Noah, get suspicious and use my brain later

I scanned the crowd but Noah wasn't in my sight, but.. He was here a minute ago where did he disappear?!

Maybe he went to see Leo too.. I'll.. I'll just wait

I slowly started moving and got down the small stage, and headed back to my table, taking a moment to thank the lord first, for not tripping and embarrassing myself in front of these people, because if I had I sure would have carried the shame with me my entire life.

Everyone I passed by was looking at me, and I felt their stares on my back

Ughhhh I hate this feeling

Is there something on my dress ? Oh my god what If my period just struck and there's blood that's why they're staring???

Or it's maybe because one of the most important billionaires just proposed to you and you technically said no...

Yea that could be a reason too

I finally sat my ass down, still looking at my surroundings in hopes to spot Noah

nothing.

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The night passed by rather quickly, i spent the rest of it alone, well not entirely, few women came and congratulated me on the proposal, telling me not to blow it... And Luca didn't come back until it was time for us to leave and I didn't get to see Noah again... He probably left early and I didn't notice him slip away

Now that I'm alone, my thoughts will consume me, I knew I had to think about the proposal but I wasn't ready yet

I let out a sigh, then I got up from my bed and went outside to the balcony for some fresh air, it'll help me think this through

I looked up at the moonlit sky and smiled, it was so beautiful. A cold breeze hit my bare skin and I inhaled deeply and exhaled

This was so calming

I wish I could get a sign, of the right answer and right thing to do.

So I definitely don't love Luca, and if I marry him that would be me just torturing my heart, myself. But if I do, that would be a total game change, I will be back to my old life style, financially at least. I won't be living like this anymore and I'd actually have someone in my life.

Hah if mom was still alive she'd be thrilled about this, she always wanted me to get married... And now I kinda want to too, what am I waiting for? I mean Luca is a gentleman, he's really nice to me and he respects me, I don't hate him at all... I do have feelings for him so what harm would that do? My feelings can grow with time..it would be like killing two pigeons with one rock

Two pigeons with one rock? Yea. Or smthn close to that I think

But the harm? The harm would be that I'd have to live with a man that I don't love, I'd have to share the same bed as him, I'd have to be his perfect wife.

Wife.. I never imagined myself being somebody's wife, I mean I knew it had to happen one day but not like this

Luca really took me by surprise tonight... Yes he was hinting at wanting a wife and all but me? And tonight? Suddenly? Just just like that? what made him do it so soon? And why marriage? We didn't even go through the dating stage, the engagement, nothing.

What do I want and what's best for me are beyond different.

What I want?

F*ck it, I want Noah. I want him, I've been hiding and denying and lying, trying to convince myself that I didn't fall in love with my captivator, that I didn't fall in love with the man that held me against my will, that did inhuman things to me... But on top of all that... He made me feel special.

He has problems admitting his feelings, and with his actions but I'm not an idiot, I'm not blind. I've his actions towards me, I've seen a major behavioural change, I've seen jealously in his eyes, lust, guilt, regret,want. I've seen his overprotectiveness, the way he doesn't let anyone look at me in the wrong way, or talk to me. I've seen his dominance, his possessiveness. And tonight, he let out that side of him that he's been hiding, with my withdrawal he let it out, he showed me this side.

"Adriana.. I L-"

His words played in my mind, he L-? What are the odds that what he was going to say wasn't Love.

I like

I laugh

I left

I lie

I lost

??

What? Nothing really makes sense. But why would he be admitting he loves me?

Noah doesn't love me.

He is just attracted to me, he likes the idea of me.. But love? Oh how dare I say love.

Love is such a strong word.

And God damn it I need to know, I need him to finish what he was going to say.

Then what am I waiting for? I'm done waiting for answers to questions that will eat me alive, I'm done waiting for Noah to come to me, I'm done. This time, I'm going to him.

And right now.

Based on his words, on his actions, I will take a decision.

Marry Luca

Or

Go back to Noah

But not as his maid, not as his prisoner, but as... As something bigger, closer, better. If he says that word, if I'm not insane and what I'm thinking about is right, he will admit it. He won't let me marry his cousin

Why else he would've disappeared tonight after Luca's proposal? Why did he have that look of defeat on his face when Luca proposed?

Yes call me lunatic, call me delusional, call me an idiot, call me whatever you want, but I'm going to confront Noah right now, even if it's past midnight

I.dont.care.

I want the truth.

I rushed inside, grabbed a robe, wrapped it around me and left my room straight to the kitchen to grab a knife

Not doing anything crazy, but figured since I'm going to take a cab to Noah's house I might as well need it considering the time...

I wrapped it in a small towel then placed it on my waist, stuffing it under my shorts for support then tied the robe tightly

I grabbed my keys, my phone, placing money inside the case of the phone then left the apartment, being really sly and quite, I didn't want any of Luca's men seeing me or him seeing me leaving at such an hour

I only now realised that I was wearing my fluffy sponge bob slippers but it was too dangerous to get back inside, besides I was really determined to get there

I don't know what has gotten into me, but I'm fed up, I hate being curious about anything, I hate waiting. So why wait when I can easily get what I want?

I started making my way down the hall, until I reached the elevator, I got in and pressed the button to reach the ground floor

The elevator stopped, I got out and ran to get outside the building, just as I was close to getting out, I made a sudden halt when I heard voices outside

Seriously?!

I peeked slowly and saw two of Luca's men guarding the main gate, which is the only way in, and only way out.

And there's no way in hell they're going to let me pass, now that i might be Luca's wife, they would never leave me alone or unprotected

Think Adriana think ...

Nothing.

I was starting to accept my defeat and heading back up but then I felt a slight pain in my lower stomach

Oh f*ck the knife

Wait...

An idea struck my beautiful mischievous mind, I took out the knife unwrapping it from the towel, thank god it didn't cause any injuries to me, it just poked my skin.

I threw the knife on the ground and ran down the hall screaming

"SOMEBODY HELP OH MY GOD"

Now. I wait.

It was only a matter of one second until the guards came rushing inside with their guns ready to shoot

"Adriana?!! WHAT HAPPENED? ARE YOU ALRIGHT?!" One of them said, once they saw me the other was just looking at me with pure concern and rage, they started looking behind me, and that's when I spoke, in a fake trembling voice

"I-I, I'm so s-sor ry, for scream-ing like that but... But I was in my apartment w..when I heard a loud crash coming from the hall outside, I instantly w-wwent to see what was it, I saw a man with a knife in his hand, he.. He was wearing all black and when he saw me he ran down here, I followed him and and-" I broke out in fake tears and fell on my knees, looking beyond terrified, I looked up to see their reactions, they were so alarmed

"WHAT? HIDE SOMEWHERE, WE'RE GOING TO FIND HIM" they both shouted in unison then ran up the hall to find my imaginary criminal.

Nice.

OH MY GOD IT WORKED

I instantly stood up and ran outside, not looking behind, I kept running as fast as I could until I was finally on the main street

Guess the odds were with me today, because a cab passed by, he stopped next to me, I jumped in, giving him the address and he drove away

Oh thank god

The driver looked like he was in his late 50s... Didn't look dangerous to me

Then again Noah doesn't look dangerous...

I could have gotten the knife but I needed something to lead those idiots on...

I felt my heart pounding way too swiftly, I mean I was so nervous and I can't believe my stupid plan worked

Just relax Adriana, everything is fine.

You'll forget about everything when you reach Noah's house.

Wrong. I was utterly wrong. Everything was far from fine when I was standing in front of Noah's gate.

Holy shit why did I even come here

Okay inhale exhale Adriana, remember why you're here.

This confrontation is going to decide your future okay? Now go ahead, show Noah the real Adriana. You've never been afraid of him, let's see if he'll be afraid of you, afraid of confronting you.

"HEY, WHO'S THERE?!" I heard one of the guards yell then I looked up and saw three heading my way

"It's me! It's Adriana!" I yelled back but i figured I had yelled for no reason at all because they were right in front of me

"Adriana!" One of the guards who was standing behind the other two yelled excitedly and pushed his way through, knew I recognised that annoying voice that I missed

"Andrés!!" I chirped and attacked him

with a hug, he hugged me back then stepped away

"Long time no see, I missed you! what are you doing back here? Have you lost your mind or something? Did you even check the time?!"

"Yes dumbass I know what time it is, I missed you too, and well I'm here to talk to Noah"

"Oh yeah about that.." He trailed, his facial expression got me worrying

Omg what if Noah isn't back home yet?

"What is it?! What's wrong!!" I asked

"Cupcake, you're not welcomed here, so head your cute little ass back home before it get whipped" one of the guards said and my mouth fell slightly open, completely humiliated and betrayed

"You little bitch! Oh I can assure you there's nothing little about my ass, however I can't assure that about your tiny friend downstairs" I shot back, giving him a bitchy smile, it was only a moment of victory until I felt seriously scared when I saw the look on his face, he was about to attack when Andrés blocked his way

"Woah woah woah there mate, you really think Noah would keep you alive if you hurt her?" Andrés yelled and I was trying my best not to say anything snarky that would get my butt kicked

"Look, I have no idea why I'm not welcomed here buttercock but I just need to talk to Noah ok? Now let me get inside!" I began moving forward then I was yanked back, by .. Andrés

"Andrés what the hell is wrong, let me pass" I fought helplessly to release myself from his grip

"ADRIANA YOU CANT GO INSIDE BECAUSE YOURE BANNED FROM COMING HERE, NOAH'S RULES" he shouted and his grip tightened so I took a step back

I was completely hurt

Why.. Why would he do that?

Is this some sort of a game to him? Is it?

"I'm sorry" he said, and at this point the other two guards just left

"Why.." I said, but my voice was barely audible

"Rules are rules, I don't know why.. Just let me drive you back home? Ok?" He said and I nodded lightly

Come on, let's go, my car is parked there he said and approached me, that's when I did something he wasn't expecting at all, but he could call it déjà vu

I kicked him in his balls, hard, that he fell on the ground, groaning in pain, clutching to his private area

The other two guards must've heard him because they came running towards me, I managed to duck at the first blow one of them was sending my way, and kicked the other one in his private area too

Two down, one to go

Before I could do anything I felt an agonizing pain sensation on my cheek

I had only noticed now that the final one punched me, I knew it was so use to fight him when I tried to use my only weapon, my leg, because he caught it before it reached him

I managed to release it, but there was a f*cking bull in attack mode right in front of me

"OK LISTEN TO ME YOU F*CKING ANIMAL, I DID NOT FOOL TWO GAURDS TO ESCAPE MY BUILDING, AND I DID NOT RIDE A CAB PAST MIDNIGHT JUST TO COME HERE AND NOT GET WHAT I CAME HERE FOR, SO STOP TRYING TO ASSAULT ME YOU UGLY PATHETIC HUMAN AND LET ME PASS BEFORE THINGS GET UGLIER!" I yelled so loudly that my throat hurt, but by the look on this stupid guards face I could say it worked, he looked petrified of me to say the least

"So the legend is true.. What Maximilian always say about you is true.. Damn it you're a maniac" he said and I just smiled at him

"Why thank you lovely sh*t" I said and turned back to continue what I came here for, but I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw him already here, staring at me with a confused look.

I swallowed a lump in my throat, and I felt my hands shaking

Stop stop! Remember what you did to be here

"Adriana... What the hell did you do" he said in a warning tone that only made me a nervous wreck

"I..I just wanted to talk to you. And they weren't giving me the consent to pass" I said trying to sound confident

"That's because they were following the RULES" he roared and I jumped back, shocked to say the least

"C-can.. can we please go inside and discuss this privately? I have a reason to why I came here" I said softly with pleading eyes

I honestly didn't know what I was doing her anymore.. I should leave... He literally stepped on what was left of my pride, crashing it.

I'm such an idiot! Why the hell did I even think he'd admit anything

"You have two minutes only" he said and started marching inside, I automatically followed him, even though it was no use anymore

Why was he acting like this? Why?

Once we were inside the house, I saw a lot of maids peeking behind doors to see what's the hassle, I flipped them all off and continued walking behind Noah, oh I could hear their gossip already

We entered his office and I shut the door behind me

"Speak" he ordered and I flinched at nothing in particular

"First of all, care to explain why you're being such a huge d*ck to me? And why you have such a rule against me?!" I asked, confidence and rage lacing my words

His eyes snapped to me and I could see his jaw was tight and fists clenched

Oh my god what happened to him.. Why is he back to his old self

"Simply putana I don't want you here, ever again" he said ever so calmly that goosebumps crawled on my skin

My eyes were becoming teary as hell, but I sucked it in, I couldn't show him I was weak, I couldn't cry in front of him.

"Now I'm damn sure you didn't come here to ask me these stupid questions so start talking you have less than one minute left"

I remained silent

I was honestly trying to find my voice

"I.. I came here to ask you.." I started but my lip started quivering and I was on the edge of balling my eyes out in front of him

I looked up at him and his expression from earlier had softened, I noticed he eyes shot to something behind me, I turned to look but nothing was there, just the couches

I may have imagined that..

"I came here to ask you about Luca okay? I wanted to ask you if you're okay with this marriage, I wanted you to tell me that you don't have any feelings for me, I wanted you to tell me that I belonged to Luca not you, I wanted you to confess that everything you have done to me, every kiss we shared, that dance, our tiny moments, you coming to visit me when I left, that all these meant nothing to you, that I mean nothing to you, and ... And I want you to prove to me, that I didn't fall for the wrong person, that me falling for my captivator wasn't the biggest mistake of my life. Tell me to leave, tell me that you don't love me Noah Massarotti or I swear I'll keep pestering you, but if you do, I'm ready to get back here" I spill it all out in a go, taking a few seconds to breathe between my words but I now felt like a huge weight was off my heart,