He could feel himself falling deeper into the realm of his dream when he saw her again. She was standing at her bedroom balcony, had her back to him, her shoulders shaking and he could feel an overwhelming sadness roll off her body and slam into him with an invisible force.

He was plastered against the wall, unable to move as her sadness strangles him, and he is unable to breath or scream as her sobbing reaches his ears.

The strength of her emotions weakens his knees and he falls to the ground. Tiny bits of plastic cut through his jeans as tiny shards of glass break his skin staining his jeans with dark crimson spots.

He looks around him to see remnants of a shattered phone laying aimlessly about his knees. He knew it was hers, he knew the model and the colour of the case. He had bought her the cover for her phone as an early birthday gift. It had tiny unicorns and bunnies printed on the back with tiny coloured rainbow stickers on each corner.

He stood and hissed as he wiped the cut denim at his knees, the slight pain from the cuts was beginning to sting, but it could not match the sting in his heart when he saw the newspaper with himself and IU kissing.

He could feel his heart wrenching at the pain Lisa must have felt when she saw the photograph, and it worsened when he saw the necklace laying on top.

She had taken off the one thing she said she couldn't live without. It was sitting cold and unused, the shine it once had when it was around her neck long gone and all that was left was a dull piece of silver.

He dragged his eyes away from the broken pieces of phone and abandoned necklace. They looked at him with a cold disdain and he knew why, he could hear it in the way Lisa cried and in the rigid posture of her back.

"Lisa....." he whispered, his breath catching.

He took a step closer, "Lisa...."

"Stay away from me Jungkook..." she cried just above a whisper.

"I was right there in front of you..." her shoulders shaking with every word.

"You never saw me..." her voice begins to disappear into the night.

"I did baby, I did. I saw you everytime, I swear I did Lisa." he became unhinged when Lisa turned, her face began to look oddly translucent.

"Did you really?" she was fading before him, her words becoming quieter and fainter.

"Yes, please...stay with me Lisa...please."

"I am so sorry Lisa..." he begins to sob, his tears falling in streams but he is powerless to move as her lower body fades before him.

"No no no no no, I said I'm sorry..." desperation etched into his eyes, his breathing is laboured and her upper body follows suit.

"Lisaaaa..." his voice is strangled, his throat feels constricted and he can't breath as his body begins to shake violently as her face becomes translucent and drifts into the darkness until she is completely gone.

The last thing he saw was the intense sadness in Lisa's eyes as he felt the pain rip into his chest.

"NNNOOOOOOOOO!!!!...."

Jungkooks eyes fly open, his breathing laboured and stares blankly into the frightened eyes of Yoongi whose hands were on his shoulders, having tried to shake the young man awake.

He could see the worried features of Jimin standing beside Yoongi and RM who stood frozen at the foot of his bed.

"Hey Kook, it's ok. It was a dream. Just a bad dream." he knew Jimin was just trying to be helpful but he didn't want their pity.

Everything he felt in his dream felt real, and her pain was real. He knew it was because he felt the shards of glass in his knees and it hurt alot. But it didn't hurt as much as the pain Lisa felt in his dream, her pain, it almost choked him to the point he couldn't breath.

He knew it was just a dream, but it was the magnitude of her pain that had him at his knees, because he, Jeon Jungkook, he was the cause of the hurt they were both feeling.

When his emotions had settled, he shifted the blankets around him until he found the bear, held it close to his chest before turning his back to his members. He was always thankful and sorry for their care, but this time no one could fix this mess but him.

"Jungkook...do you want to talk?" he heard Yoongi ask. He was always the coldest member, or so people thought, but unbeknownst to the world, Yoongi was the most understanding person of everyone. He listened and most of the time often gave advice without a biased opinion.

"I'm ok hyung, turn off the lights when you leave please."

"Ok, get a good rest. If you want to talk, you know...."

"I know hyung, thankyou."

Jungkook was unable to sleep for the next couple of hours as his mind went into overdrive as he thought about everything that had happened. He began to question why he continued to idolise IU when he had the closest thing to perfection in Lisa.

The dawn was just beginning to break when he heard the birds begin their early morning singing. His eyes were puffy and red rimmed, and his emotions in tatters.

However, apart from feeling emotionally spent, he was glad he'd settled his feelings for IU. What he thought was there never really was, and what he didn't know he needed was there all along, with large doe eyes and plump juicy lips.

It was with this thought that he finally fell into a fitful sleep.

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Yoongi wasted no time leaving the dorm the following afternoon. It was a beautiful warm sunny day, the birds were singing and the skies were littered with light fluffy clouds. All were but a stark contrast to Yoongi's feelings.

He didn't know what he was going to say to Lisa when he saw her, but he had no option but to try. Jimin had promised to stay with Jungkook for the remainder of the day as the others left the dorm to attend certain errands.

It was the day before the show and Jungkook didn't have anything to do for their song other than to practise.

Jungkooks screams the night before had him scrambling into his room calling to him, but he had to physically shake the somewhat stronger youngman to wake up. The look in Jungkooks eyes told Yoongi that he had made the right decision.

He had to see Lisa, without a doubt. He didn't know what he was going to say to her, but he had to do something to help end the craziness.

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He knew Lisa would be at the building practising, the dance studio was her second home much like the recording studio was Jungkooks. There were only two places that she frequented; YG dance studio and the BTS dorm, and he was quietly confident she would be there.

When Yoongi was given clearance at YG reception to pass the rotating gates to the elevators, it bothered him that people always stared at him like he was a fossil behind the clear glass window of a museum.

It wasn't his first visit to see Lisa at the building and he'd thought staff would at least be used to seeing him occasionally, especially the young woman at the front desk with the overly large bosom, raven dark hair and bat winged eyeliner.

She batted thick lashes at Yoongi at every chance, and even though he ignored her obvious advances with his cold exterior, she never gave up.

He thanked her and blatantly walked away without so much as having set eyes on her face, his features hidden under a well brimmed bucket hat.

When he exited the elevator he could hear music drifting down the long corridor. There were four large studios on the floor, however three of them appeared dark and vacant as his feet carried him towards the only lit studio and the impressive chords of the song.

Watching Lisa perform always blew his mind, and he could never understand and still didn't, how such huge amounts of charm could ooze out of a body that seemingly appeared fragile when in actuality she was as tough as nails.

Until it came to his golden maknae, then Lisa turned into a soft sludge of giddy happy giggles, but that was a long time ago now.

Lisa had a quality that demanded your attention, whether you wanted to give it or not. On many occasions at awards ceremonies he had watched Jungkook physically hold himself back from jumping out of his chair to pound the faces of male idols who all but drooled at the sight of her doll-like beauty.

It never bothered Lisa because there was only one person she wanted to be with, but for Jungkook he found it a constant battle of wills to not harm his own male idol friends like Mingyu.

The boy had an unabashed crush on Lisa, granted he didn't know the maknaes were dating, he was very vocal about his interest and Yoongi always enjoyed the spectacular show of male territory Jungkook displayed every time Mingyu was around Lisa.

He watched Lisa dance around the studio, and was surprised when he saw the blindfold. Her body moved seamlessly around the floor, her steps timid but still confident as her arms reached out before her, searching before pulling it back to her and turning faster with the music.

She was such a beautiful sight to behold, and he congratulated Jungkook having found someone as beautiful on the outside as she was on the inside.

He waited patiently as she finished and entered with soft footsteps when he saw her laying on the ground catching her breath. He stood quite unsure how to greet her, it had been a long time since they last saw each other and she was still wearing the blindfold, he didn't want to frighten her.

When Lisa stood and still hadn't noticed his presence he took a few steps back and opened the door to shut again, smiling as she turned, shock registering in her eyes followed by confusion.

He wondered if he was wrong to have gone to see her knowing there was every chance she might ignore him the way she was Jungkook. Those hesitant thoughts soon left his worries when all of a sudden Lisa flew at him, the blindfold flung onto the floor as she threw her arms around his shoulders and cried.

Yoongi's heart relaxed at the feel of her warm body against his, her sobbing coming in spurts as her body rattled with her tears.

"Hey hey munchkin, you miss me that much?"

"Oppa...oppa I have missed you so much!" he could feel the sincerity in her words soaking through his FG tshirt, but he didn't care. He was happy she was glad to see him as much as he was to see her.

"I've missed you too munchkin." he tried to step back but was mildly surprised as she clung onto him harder. He had missed her energetic tenacity and her penchant for bear hugs.

"Hey hey I'm not going anywhere Lisa. It's ok."

"Oppa I haven't seen you for so long I thought maybe you were mad at me."

"Why would I be mad munchkin? Come on look at him hhmmm?"

"Jungkook and I....." Lisa sounded hesitant as she detached herself from his body and took a step back.

"Lisa, if there is one thing I could never be; that is being mad at you."

"It will never happen munchkin, you can trust me on that one."

"Ok?"

"Ok oppa." Lisa smiled at that and it made him happy to see atleast one of the maknaes smiling.

"Get your things together, i'm taking you to lunch."

"I can't oppa, I have a friend coming soon for practise."

"Friend? Do you have something coming up?" Yoongi never missed a chance to see Lisa in action, and he knew Jungkook would be equally pleased to see her dancing again.

"Something like that oppa." she smiled.

"I can't go far but let me text my friend and we can go to the building cafe downstairs for a coffee?"

"Sounds good munchkin, I'll wait out in the hallway." Yoongi finished before giving Lisa a little privacy to gather her items.

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