☆: *.☽ LUCID DREAMS

you're the only girl I dream about, babe.

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, the whole day everyone had been talking about 'Maddy's bruise' but I honestly couldn't give two shits about some girl who's boyfriend I fucked. Apparently the night of the carnival while I was looking for Gia, Nate choked Maddy, go fucking figures. As I sat in class I texted Fez.

After I texted Fez I looked up as the bell rung. Rue, Jules, and I all headed to the cafeteria. As we sat at our table Nate Jacobs and his family walked through the gym. While they past us Nate have Jules a stern look which confused me and Rue.

"Okay one: What was that about? Two: Can we talk about how you fucked Nates dad?" Rue asked as she looked at Jules.

"Rue, swear to God, like, on your life that you will never tell anyone." Jules paused and looked at me. "Same with you Eva."

"That you fucked Nates dad?" Rue asked even though she already knew what we were talking about.

"I'm serious!" Jules whispered. "Even if you decide to hate me one day, don't tell anyone."

"Why would I ever hate you?" Rue asked.

"That's not the point." Jules pause and grabbed Rue's hand. "Like seriously this is some go-to-your-grave shit." The bleach blonde haired girl said.

"I promise." Me and Rue said.

"Do you think Nate knows?" Rue asked as I looked at my phone.

"No, why would Nate know?" Jules asked.

"I don't know. You went up to the Chili booth at the carnival. Did......he look like he knew?"

"No, like, literally I didn't even notice." Jules lied.

"Nate's scary." I said lightly.

"That whole fucking family is scary." Rue added.

"I don't wanna have this conversation." Jules said looking at her paper she was writing on.

"Know what would be amazing? If they paid you off with a bunch of money and we do a bunch of cool shit." Rue joked.

"Rue, this isn't a joke." Jules said softly as she got up and left.

"Why does she think I could ever hate her? She literally couldn't do anything in the world to make me mad, I even told her that." Rue said looking at me.

"I don't know why she thinks that Rue, obviously there is something she's hiding though." I said looking at Rue.

"Why won't she trust me then?"

"I don't know Rue. Maybe cause sometimes you make serious things a joke." I said looking at her.

"I don't-I don't do that all the time though." Rue said trying to defend herself.

"You literally screamed at my boyfriend, for drugs, while I cried on the ground." I deadpanned looking at her.

"You know I'm sorry for that, Eva." She said as she grabbed my hand.

"I know, I know, sorry." I said looking at her.

"You don't need to be sorry, it was a shitty thing for me to do. I love you Eva."

"I love you too, Rue." I said as I got a text.

"I'll talk to you later Rue, Fez is here to pick me up." I said as I kissed her forehead and left. As I walked outside he smiled at me from the car.

"Hey babygirl, how's your day goin'."

"Shitty, just take me away to your place please." I whispered into our kiss as I got into a car. That afternoon Fez and I had sex 4 times, 4 fucking times.

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Over the next week our highschool had us watch 6 abuse survivor videos, an even though no one would say this to her face, we all knew what happened to Maddy, and none of us wanted to ask if it was true or not. As Rue, Jules and I sat in the back and watched the video I couldn't help but look at Maddy. I really did feel bad for her.

After school that day I went to NA with Rue. We sat outside with Ali while he smoked.

"An what happens in a month? Six months? A year? When she moves away and goes to college? When she tells you she just wants to be friends." As Ali spoke I pulled out a cigarette of my own, Fez always hated when I smoked but it helped me stop using so he dealt with it.

"You mean 'if'." Rue said looking at him.

"No, Rue. He means 'when'." I said softly as I looked at her and exhaled the smoke.

"I mean, I don't know. We talked about living together, like, If she goes to New York. I'll just go with her." She said looking at the two of us. "I'll go anywhere she goes."

"I think your missing the point, Rue." Ali said as he looked at the ground. "Nothing in highschool last forever." As Ali said those words it hit me, that Fez wasn't always gonna love me, no matter what he said. And that thought alone just made me sad.

"You should meet her." Rue said softly as we got up and went into the building. When we got into the building Rue admitted that she hasn't been sober for how long she's been saying she has. I knew this was a big moment for her so I ignored the texts from Fez and listened to her.

"But I met someone, and she's helped, and now I want to stay clean....and shit-maybe that's just me being selfish. You know and Ali just scared the shit outta me, 'cause he told me that it wasn't gonna last and fuck you know what? Maybe your right." She said pausing. "But I really, really, really, hope your wrong. 'Cause, uh, I've been clean for 13 days, it's been okay, um, I've actually been really happy. So yea I guess that's why I wanted to come here, and tell you guys the truth." As she finished everyone clapped for her and Ali looked over at me.

"So kid, how long you been clean?" He asked as Rue came and sat down next to us.

"I, uh, however long I've been dating Fez, I mean I haven't been fully clean, cause me and him took some molly together the night of the carnival." I paused and looked at Rue. "But I've been clean from Xannies and Coke for about a month." I said as I looked at the two of them. As I looked down at my phone I had 4 unread messages.

"Hey you wanna go to the roller rink tonight, I was thinking about inviting Lexi and Jules." Rue asked looking at me.

"Yeah sure, I'll just go to my house and get changed and I'll meet you there." I said as I looked at my phone and then at Rue. As we split and I began to walk back home I texted him.

After I sent him my location I waited for him at the spot. When he pulled up I got in his car and he kissed me.

"Why are you actin' so weird?" I asked as he began to drive.

He hesitated and looked at me. "There are just some...fucked up people in this world that wouldn't give two shits about hurtin' you, I just need you to be safe." He said keeping his eyes on the road.

"Oh, okay." I said quietly as he looked over at me and grabbed my thigh.

"Trust me, okay babygirl?"

"Okay Fez." I said as he smiled.

"So you're going to the roller rink?"

Now what Fez didn't tell her was that, she was being followed, all day, everyday. And he knew exactly who was following her and why. He just didn't want to scare her. So, instead, he decided to just make sure she was safe on his own.