𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧

❝SOME MISTAKES GET MADE, THAT'S ALL RIGHT.❞

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[no silent readers pls 🥺]

What no one tells you about wanting to move on is that you can't when you know the person has touched every part of your body. Mia was having problems with her last stage of grief: acceptance.

She had spent her Saturday morning rubbing her skin till it burned so that couldn't feel Fez's hands all over. From her feet that he loved to play with to where he rubbed her thighs with his fingertip whenever he drove somewhere with her in the car, to her stomach the place he loved to lay on whenever she slept over, all over breast and neck which was his second favorite place to kiss her and her lips. Her soft lips that he loved staring at and kissing over and over again till Mia couldn't stop giggling.

She moved on to her hair, the brown hair he loved. The ponytail that he would twist around his hand. She hated it because he loved it. So Mia at the very last minute decided to bleach it. Making sure to damage all the traces of Fezco that he left in it. She asked the lady what would be most damaging to her hair and platinum it was.

On Mia's trip back to before she met Fez, she met up with Maddy. The two had made up over one simple text which had the most meaning and didn't need any explanation: Rainbow Whore. It was a safe word, one that they made up in middle school in case if they were ever doing anything stupid no questions were asked they would always be there.

The two weren't back to besties like before, but they were alright and Mia was okay with that. She just wanted to move on and push everything negative that happened in the past weeks away and out of her head. It wasn't the healthiest but it was how she was coping with things.

Mia was also letting Brandon be there for her, not in the way he thought he was though. She realized that he was just a distraction and that was the only thing he would ever be well at least at the moment. He really didn't care though because he was there.

He stood in her room as Mia got ready for East Highland's homecoming. Mia was walking around her room in her bra and underwear looking for her setting spray. She had just finished her makeup and was almost ready.

Brandon looked over Mia's skin, it was pinkish but her chest area was bright red like irritated. "Baby are you okay? Your skin looks red." He asked.

Mia winced at the name he used for her, "Yeah I just tried this new body soap today and it left me a little irritated." She lied.

Brandon nodded, "We can go buy you a new one tomorrow." He brought her into a hug.

Mia felt awkward in his embrace, it didn't feel right. She had to try though so she hugged him back. "Thank you for being here." She mumbled into his chest. She was thankful he was here.

"I got you, you know that." Brandon kissed the top of her head.

Mia broke the embrace slipping on her dress. Her dress was simple, it was a white, skintight, strapless dress. She was however pairing it with a big, blue fuzzy sweater and white go-go boots. The blue complimented her hair and she felt very 70's chic. It was the prettiest she felt all week.

Her hair was let down from her everyday hairstyle another change that was made.

After the countless pictures her parents took and comments about how Brandon was missed around the house and they were so happy that he was the reason Mia had been so happy they were finally on their way to the school. Mia had never told her parents she was dating Fez so they had assumed that it was Brandon who had been the reason Mia was the happiest she had been.

As Mia walked into the school's gym which was decorated like any other dance and blasting music that played on the radio she couldn't help but think about all the other places she could be. She didn't want to be there but she had to move on with her life and stop sulking.

She let her eyes drift around the gym, her eyes landing on the table that had all her friends sitting at. "I'm going to go talk to the girls real quick." Mia let Brandon know.

He nodded, "Okay I'll be with the guys, text me when you're done."

The two parted ways and as she walked over to the table all her friends sat at she noticed that everyone had been staring at her. She grew self conscious wanting to hide and run away.

"Hi." Mia smiled softly at all the girls, taking a seat between Cassie and Lexi.

"Woah, your hair?!" Cassie exclaimed running her hands through it.

"Like it?" Mia flipped her hair over her shoulder trying her best to the be the normal girl she once was.

"Love it Mia, you look insane!" Jules smiled. After Halloween Mia realized that Jules didn't remember anything so she wasn't going to hold a grudge over it, she was just happy that Rue and her seemed better.

"Thank you, I think I needed a change." Mia nodded. The girls all glanced at each other. They all knew that Mia and Fezco has broken up and that Mia didn't take it well.

"So Brandon.." Rue started.

"He's sweet and he's here." Mia responded fast.

Maddy looked over at Mia who looked very pained to be talking about that subject. "Want some gatorade?" Maddy giggled, wiggling her eyebrows at Mia.

"Yes please." Mia laughed taking the bottle and taking a big drink. Letting the sweet but also strong juice run down her throat.

The girls all stared at their classmates dancing on the gym floor. "What if these are the like the big moments in life? Like my mom always talks about how high school was like this big, monumental part of her life. But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back at this, like wow." Cassie explained.

"Yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school." Maddy responded making the girls laugh responding in what they think was their peak was at.

"Honestly, I thought that I was at a full 100 but I'm really just at 0." Mia shrugged.

"I feel like I'm at 100, but I can definitely get to 150." Jules nodded taking a sip of the gatorade.

"Honestly, I never thought I'd make it this far." Rue said.

"What do you mean?" Cassie asked.

Rue responded how she just thought everything would have turned out like shit because of her addiction.

"In all fairness, last summer there was like three weeks where I thought you were dead." Maddy said.

"I told you she wasn't." Mia giggled at when Maddy had this whole conspiracy theory on Rue.

"Okay but she's been sober for like three months." Jules backed up Rue.

"Weren't you in rehab, like six months ago?" Maddy questioned making everyone look at each other funny.

Cassie went on about high school and dreaming but Mia had tuned out. She wish she was having fun but she wasn't. She felt stupid, like a little girl who couldn't get over a simple break up. She was only 17 and had so much of her life to live but she was stuck.

The girls sat in silence for a while as Jules left and Nate entered, his hand on his dates ass that was out to show for the whole school.

That's just nasty. Mia thought.

"First of all,ew." Maddy started, "Second of all, ew."

Nate was repulsive and Mia couldn't sit at that table and look at him and Maddy's weird ass dance battle. Luckily Brandon walked over ready to save her from the situation she was in.

"Baby let's dance." He smiled grabbing her hand.

Mia nodded and waved goodbye to the girls that were left at the table and as she made her way to the makeshift dance floor she pushed the idea of Fez out of her head.

They were playing pretty good music which made her happy and Brandon's dancing was the cherry on top. He knew that she needed something to smile at so his horrible dancing was his go to.

Mia laughed at his dance that he did to Lil Mama's lipgloss song. She followed along cross crossing her legs and moving her body just like he was doing. Everything was good and she felt the littlest bit of happiness in that moment.

The music slowed down and the beat of Jhene Aiko's while we're young started to play. Mia's moment of ease was washed away with the one of Mia's favorite moments with Fez.

"You can't hate something you've never tried." Mia giggled at Fez who refused to try the sushi that she had made.

Fez made a face at the sushi that Mia had in front of his face.

"Okay, okay. Sit down on the couch and close your eyes." Mia pointed at the living room.

Fez looked back and forth suspiciously, "You looking mighty mischievous girl."

"Baby, please." Mia pouted.

Fez groaned waking over to the couch and closing his eyes.

Mia set the sushi on a small plate walking over to the couch. She set the plate next to Fez on the couch and climbed on his lap.

She leaned and pecked his lips which made his eyes flutter open. "Ah! Eyes closed."

Fez shook his head closing his eyes moving his hands to Mia's butt which was only covered by a shirt. "My eyes closed but my hands...staying here."

Mia gave Fez another small kiss. "I'm not complaining."

Mia placed another kiss on his lips moving down his neck and back up to his lips. Fez let out a moan as Mia pushed her hips into him. He was enjoying it and Mia was about to most likely fuck it up with what she was about to do.

As she kissed all over him she grabbed the sushi and bit it so that she was holding it with her mouth. She moved into him indicating that she was going to kiss him and moved the sushi into his mouth instead of her lips.

His eyes shot open and his hands immediately moved to his mouth to take out the sushi. "Mia!" he gagged putting the sushi back on to the plate.

Mia let out the loudest laugh not only because his gag was funniest thing ever, but because the sushi she made tasted like shit. She couldn't stop laughing.

"Oh you think this is funny little girl?" Fez picked her up throwing her over his shoulder.

"Fez!" She laughed, "Put me down!"

He placed her on the couch pinning her hands down, "That sushi tasted like shit."

Mia laughed, "Yeah I know."

"I think you got a little some on your shirt." Fez picked at the hem of her oversized t shirt.

"Oh yeah." Mia raised her eyebrows knowing what Fez was already thinking.

Fez nodded, "Yeah I think you should take it off, you know wouldn't want it to get even more dirty."

"Boy, the only thing that's dirty is your mind." Mia laughed.

"Okay let me get straight to the point, let me suck your titties."

Mia gasped, "Really? In front of Jhené." She pointed to the music that was playing from Youtube on the TV.

"I'll eat your ass in front of her too. Stop playing." Fez smacked his teeth before picking Mia up and throwing her over his shoulder again.

"Fez." Mia laughed, "Where the hell are we going."

"To the room duh. You said you didn't want her to watch us." Fez responded.

Mia stood on the dance floor her eyes in a blank stare, she knew that she had to let go of Fezco because if he wanted to be with her still and if he actually loved her he would have called or texted her. It was over and she had to accept it. She had to accept it for herself.

"You okay Mia?" Brandon looked down at her, concern washing over him.

"No." Mia took a deep breath, "But I will be."

THIS WAS THE LAST CHAPTER!! WHAT THE FUCKXKDKKD.. well sorta we got the epilogue next but this was basically it. this isn't edited at all and was written very late at night so i'm sorry if it has any mistakes! i just wanted to thank you all for reading this book, it warms my heart! i hope you all enjoyed this and i can't wait for y'all to read the epilogue.