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Taking Up For

C O L E

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I feel so angry?

I was mad at her at first. I wasn't expecting her to stay with me but... I felt somewhat betrayed waking up finding out she wasn't there. Admitting that to myself is something I would've never done in the past. I mean...Me? Feel anything for someone?

It was really grand of me to tell her to accept herself but at the same time, I can't accept this. I can't. How soft she's making me.

I still wanted to hurt her, but it was different than before. Something about anyone but me affecting her in any way, I couldn't stand thinking about that. Especially seeing her run to Theo as if he's done more for her than I have.

What the hell does he have that I don't? I didn't like her so why do I feel so jealous.

"Why do you even care so much?" She yelled at me, "Why do you want me to be so attached to you? I don't mean shit and I can't do shit right? Apparently, I do to you, otherwise, why are you so fucking adamant about making me stay with you?"

I know, but at the same time, I don't get it either. Of course, it's because I want her to myself. I want her to depend on me only, for everything. I could throw her away when I finish and not give a fuck but, something makes me want to keep her close.

I wasn't going to let her know that though. I had to make her submit first. no matter how low I had to go, if I broke her down enough, she wouldn't try leaving me.

So I needed to hurt her.

It wasn't hard for me at all, the words rolled off my tongue so easily. Her miserable expressions made me want to say even more, even if I was partially lying.

I pulled her closer to me and looked deep into her eyes. She was pissed at me, but she couldn't do anything. I don't know how she had so much confidence right now, but she was so powerless. Then again she had so much power, I couldn't figure out if I wanted to destroy it or trigger it.

I'm not even sure what I'm trying to accomplish right now at this moment. I just keep trying to hurt her but she wasn't crying like I wanted.

"The only reason you're even alive right now is because you're a succubus. But you can't even use your powers, you don't even want to. So I will, and if and when I need you, I'll use you. I'm not your damn boyfriend, don't say disgusting shit like I care about you. You're my property."

"I don't belong to you." Stop resisting.

"Keep telling yourself that, but look at yourself right now, on your knees... You can't do anything but sit there, can you? You're weak... mentally and physically. At end of the day, you're always begging me for something like you're my fucking dog. You have no right to complain about it if I decide to treat you like one...I'm sure your mother is rolling in her grave right about now."

It didn't take long for her to transform into her other form. Her voice changed completely from before, and I know for sure I struck a big nerve. She was definitely hurt but now I just felt guilty.

"What the hell did you just say?"

I knew I shouldn't have said it, my brain told me not to but I got mad at myself. I couldn't take it back because she already heard me say it. She reached up and slapped me, dragging her nails across my face.

"You're fucking sick you know that?" She said with tears in her eyes, "Are you seriously going to stoop that low? Whatever happened to being sorry?"

"Arent you the one who didn't want to accept it? Isn't it true? You're so ashamed of this side of yourself, what do you think your mother would feel like?"

I know I was being manipulative, but I know she was close to breaking down.

"You don't think I know that?! Do you think it was my idea to erase all of my memories? To kill all those people? Do you think it was ever my choice to live like someone else, not even remembering who my real mother is? I wasn't given an option! So how could you say something like that? "

This was her other side reacting to me. Of course, she would be in more pain than the usual Isabella, she still remembers somewhat of everything, if not all of it now.

She shoved me off of her and stood up. "I was going to confront the woman who's been pretending to be my mother today. That's why I talked to Theo. I'm not your damn dog Cole. You can either accept that right now or stay the fuck away from me."

My eyes widened, was she giving me an ultimatum... In her situation? She gets one boost of confidence and all of a sudden she doesn't need me?

"I'll admit that I'll probably get further in understanding everything about my life if I stuck up with you. But I'm not going to just sit here and just take your abuse, I'm not going to be a repeat of my mother. I'm fucking pathetic as hell in my human form and I can't do anything really but cry and beg, you're right about that, but I don't need you. I never did."

"The hell are you trying to say? "

"I'm saying, I know I won't survive long by myself...with everyone out there trying to use me. It was way hard but, I've gone through worse." She said looking up into the sky, "I don't want to go through it alone again but, I'll be damned if I let you make me think I have to depend on you."

"He really did start putting shit on your head-" She cut me off and yelled at me, "It hasn't got anything to do with him!"

She looked at me then looked down to the ground, "The other side of me hates you and it isn't hard to see why. Even though I don't mind being yours, don't think for one fucking second that you can say shit like that to me."

She came close to me and traced her nail across my throat. She smiled at me as blood dripped down and she leaned into me, "You think I can't hurt you but say it again, I dare you... You'll end up just like your little brother."

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