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ryujinshin

yow can we talk?

you mean chat?

that's the same —,—

no it's not :P

nevermind :)

i'm just sorry that's all.

i wasn't in the mood awhile

ago at school

i'm not dumb. i know

good to know, but

you're numb tho :3

bitch whut?

nothing bitch

goodnight. sleepwell

since when did you

wish me to sleep well

you used to tell me to

have nightmares instead

so that you won't deal

with me any longer

whatever. bye

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Two hours later...

I can't sleep. Fvck.

I sat up, and took my guitar with me. I stood in front of my window, and decided to pull it up. Ryujin's probably awake, so I threw a small stone on her window. Half hoping that it won't break, or that'll be a huge problem for me and my family.

She lazily walked up to her window, and pulled it up to see me clearly.

"It's like 3 in the morning as*hole!" She shouts in a whisper. Good thing the neighborhood's quiet at this time of the day.

"Yet you're still here. Wide awake, and ready to face your greatest best friend." The last two words I said gave me a minor ache, to be honest.

I strummed the guitar with all my heart, and sang Colde's "I fxxing Love You." like I actually meant it. The first part of the song I've been feeling when I'm around her. Even though she's a few meters away from me, I can still tell that she's the girl that I like.

I stopped playing, and placed my lovely guitar beside my window. She nodded, and clasped her hands together like a detective in a movie.

"So tell me. Who's the girl you're so obsessed with these days?" She asked. My whole body froze, and I suddenly felt the coldness of the morning breeze.

I let out an awkward laugh, and shook my hand side to side, signing her to not think about it. Of course, that shit wouldn't work because she's Ryujin.

"If I told you it's someone you know, would you believe me?" I asked.

"Of course! It's probably Minju anyway," She rolls her eyes, and I sighed after hearing the name she's been mentioning everytime we talk about this girl. Her, in short.

I hopped into my room, and untied the curtains to get it ready to close. "Who is it?" She asked once more.

"It's you." I shut the curtains closed, and turned off my lampshade so that she won't shout out my name anymore.

I dove onto my bed, and screamed at the top of my lungs on my pillow. I did it. I finally did it. I confessed. It's just up to her if she's going to believe it or not. And... that's the hardest thing to put up with.

Wow. That was really funny.

Not.

I wasted a minute for asking him, and he's just going to answer with my stupid name like it's a joke. But what if it's the truth though?

No. It can't be. I should sleep. All these thoughts are useless. Beomgyu is my friend, and will always be. Even if my heart won't stop beating fast whenever he's around. Even if I can't stop thinking about him at night, or during my free time. Even if all these feelings that I'm having when he's around means that I like him. I still can't.

He's my best friend, and I don't want to ruin that just because of my petty feelings. It'll fade anyway. It's just a stupid crush. I'll get over it.

☆☆☆

i want to ruin our friendship~

we should be lovers instead~

jk hahahaha lol