"Josh, we know your lungs work, chill man." Cam said making me giggle.

I watched as he settled Josh into silence, and I smiled. They were so cute. Cam was doing everything all the time since he was about to start leaving and for the last month, he's been getting up early as hell to go to practice since training camp had ended last week. I was excited because he was starting again and would get his well-deserved playing time, but he would start traveling sooner than I wished.

The team had to start doing charity work for the NBA Cares affiliation which meant Cam would be traveling. A lot.

"Can we talk?" Cam asked. I nodded reaching for Joshua.

I grabbed him from Cam and laid him on the bed as he drifted off to sleep. He didn't cry a whole lot but when he did, he was stubborn. He turned a little and gently rocked him back. I grabbed a few pillows and border them around him in case he moved.

He wrapped his arms around me, kissing my cheek as we watched him. "He's still so small." I mumbled.

"At lease he's five pounds now." I nodded. "He's going to be fine; you just have to be a little more careful."

Cam grabbed my hand and pulled me downstairs into the kitchen.

"I'm leaving in the morning..." I ran my hands through my hair and nodded.

"Okay."

"You're not mad?" I bit my lip. "Me being upset isn't going to stop you from leaving here and hoping on a flight, so why sit here mad?"

"I can ask for more time."

"They already gave you two weeks more then you asked for." I said playing with the bottom of his shirt.

He sighed. "You don't want to leave either do you?" I asked with a smirk.

"Nah, I want to spend more time with you and my son." He said grabbing my waist and lifting me on top of the counter.

I bit my lip and watched his eyes as the traveled down my body. I gained a little weight and Cam appreciated it.

I hadn't had sex in a while, and we hadn't really had a chance to be alone with people always stopping by to see baby Josh or taking care of him period.

He pulled my body into his and pressed his soft, pink lips against mine. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I miss you..." He mumbled, dragging his lips down my neck deathly slow. I moaned and tilted my head slightly to the left, giving him better access as his hands slid my dress up slowly. His hands ran up and down my bare thighs, so close to where I wanted him, but not close enough.

"I miss you too."

He ran his hands down my arms, lifting them in the air against the cabinet and pinning them there with one hand as mouth stayed on mine. His kisses were a drug and I was intoxicated.

I felt like a Fein. I wanted to reexperience the feeling of him inside me. I wanted him to remind me why after I had him, I didn't want anyone else and he was taking way too long. I had waited damn near nine months I didn't want to wait any longer.

His hands found their way between my legs and my breath got hitched in my throat. The feeling was exasperating, and I didn't want him to stop for the life of me.

His hands found places that had been unattended for too long as I felt like it was my first time being touched.

Fingertips belonging to me pushed at his shirt, my hands finding his abs that always seemed too perfect. He let his arms hang loose, allowing me to lift it over his head.

He stared me straight in the face as he lifted my dress completely over my head and threw it on the ground. He bent down and scooted my body into his reach as he placed wet kisses all over my stomach and breast.

"Mmm.." I moaned as his tongue flicked around my nipple, he took his time playing attention to every part of my body individually as I sat in awe of the feeling he was giving me.

I sat up and pulled at his belt, in soon it and unbuttoning his pants. I pushed them down leaving him in those all too familiar Ralph Lauren boxer briefs and ran my hands over his package causing him to let out a grunt.

I laughed and he kissed his teeth. "It's been a minute aight?" I nodded threw my own giggles and inched them down using my toes till they reached his kneecaps.

He slowly started to push into me, and I threw my head back letting out a loud moan.

The speed of my heartbeat quickened as he smoothly pumped into me. I didn't even bother to mask my voice, his house was so big, Josh couldn't hear me, I was sure.

"Oh god..." I moaned out.

His paces quickened and slowed as if he was teasing to give me what I wanted and it was driving my body crazy. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling us closer. His hands held my hips tightly as he thrusted inside me.

I felt my self building up and I screamed out as my orgasm took forever to arrive.

"Aww, shit." He yelled pulling out and kissing his teeth.

"What Cam?" I asked confused as I watched him redress himself.

He started for the door and I quickly pulled my dress back on as I followed him out of the kitchen. He jogged upstairs and as we neared the room, Josh's cries became audible.

"How did you hear him?" I asked.

He shrugged, picking him up. "I just knew."

He handed him to me and walked in the bathroom. I rubbed my finger over Josh's lips causing his tongue to stick out. I thought that was the funniest thing. I heard grunts coming from the bathroom and I rolled my eyes and made my way downstairs.

I opened the fridge and got out a bottle.

I filled a pot with water and put it on the stove. I sat the bottle in the pot and turned my attention back to Joshua who was already falling back asleep.

I kissed all over his face and he scrunched up his face making me smile. "I'm so happy god gave me you.." I said kissing his little nose.

"You saved me Josh. After I lost your dad, I thought I'd be depressed and then I remembered that I had you to look forward too. You've given me life too." I said as tears fell from my eyes.

His tiny hands locked tightly around my finger and I wiped my tears. "I love you so much."

I got up to get the bottle and noticed Cam at the door. He looked at the floor and I sighed. "Cam..."

"I'm sorry..." He said with the sincerest look in his eyes, running his hands over his face before walking away.

I sighed and sat in the chair, bringing the bottle to Joshua's mouth. I ran my hands through my hair and shook my head.

I knew I had hurt his feelings, but I was being truthful, and I didn't know he was even there if that counts...

I slid his tiny arms into his hoodie and put his hat on. He was sleep as usual, so he didn't care that I was moving him around so much. I sat him in his car seat and strapped him in waiting for Kyra to come downstairs. She's was taking him to her house today since I was leaving.

"Hey, I left that humidifier upstairs since I have another one at home." I nodded and picked up the car seat, making my way out to the new truck I bought her. I strapped him into the middle seat and kissed his head.

"Be good for me son."

I closed the door and turned to see Kyra standing there. "Cam, are you mad at me?"

"Naw." I said nonchalantly.

I wasn't mad. I was tired of being judged, repeatedly for things we've moved on from, or so I thought since she can't seem to let anything go. Whenever I think we're good, she reminds me that were not, and I hate that shit.

She not my girlfriend though, she made that crystal clear.

"You're lying."

"Fuck I gotta lie for Kyra? I ain't mad. I'm done. This isn't what you want. I'm not what you want. Obviously, I'm not good enough for you because you throw my mistakes in my face. I paid for that shit Kyra! I worked my ass off proving to you that I was going to change and what did I get in the end?" I asked, rhetorically and if she answered me, I would really flip out.

Luckily, she didn't.

"I got you telling our son I put you in depression. Do you know how that makes me feel Kyra? I'm tired of this shit!"

"Cam, I didn't mean it like that.." She mumbled. I chuckled. "Yeah, you did."

"It's all good Ky. You want our relationship to be strictly about Josh? Man, you got it."

I walked to her side of the car and opened the door for her. She pushed the door closed and I folded my hands on top of my head.

She wrapped her arms around me, and I closed my eyes trying not to touch her back and it was taking everything. I was going to give her the space she's asking for. She leaned up and placed a soft kiss on my lips that I didn't return before mumbling a 'I'm sorry' and getting in the car. I shook my head and walked back in the house as she pulled out of the driveway.

I had a flight to catch in three hours, so I had to get back to Miami and head down to the arena to board the bus to the airport.

I grabbed my bag from in front of the door and turned the alarm on before leaving.