Why did I do it? Why did I need to catch the critters? Why did I release my impulse on my kin? Why did I continue to hit with the sword till it broke? why why why

I tried to control myself from panicking. I stopped running when I realized that something was missing. The sword. where is it? I did not have it. I started looking everywhere, but I could not see much because of the darkness. Did I lose my only possession? I tried to think clearly with the horrid feeling about it. I had it when I was hitting my fellow. I did not have it now. Where could it be? Ha, when I ran away from my kin as fast as I could. It did not feel like I was dragging the sword with me so I must have left it there. I now knew where the sword was.

What do I do now? I do not know where I was running. All my kin and my sword are behind me.

I should return If I wanted to resolve this. I should return to my group. I was the one who attacked them in the first place for no reason. If they used the sword to break me?. I deserved it, but did I want to be broken? No, I should be able to run away from them again, as they did not chase me previously. After some more thinking. I decided that I will return and try to resolve this. If I could not, I should be able to run away.

Now how do I return? I started looking everywhere to see a way to return, and when I looked at the dirt beneath. I saw light marks on it. I recognized that the Marks were made by me. I made the connection that if I followed the Marks, I should return to the place where they started. I began following the Marks.

After some time of following the marks, I felt the weakness inside me increasing. Later I sensed that I was closer to the group and that what little of the surroundings I could see felt familiar. I saw something at the edge of my vision. As I got closer, I saw that it was my sword in the ground. I ran the remaining distance and picked up my sword. I held it tightly in my arms. It felt good to have my only possession to be again in my arms. I felt something enter my vision. So, I looked at it. It was one of my fellows walking towards me. The other three were also walking towards me. I realized that they were going to surround me.

I held the blade in between me and the others with the tip pointing towards them.No! What am I doing? I am going to break them all. Is this why I returned? I tried to drop or lower the sword, but I did not. They were coming closer to me. This is not how I wanted this to go. I looked at them. When they were about to surround me, I did it again. I ran away from my group.

I ran straight past them. I did not want to return here. I should not return until I could control myself. With that, I tried to run faster. Later I saw some light for the first time. I moved towards the light and tried to run even fast as if I would lose the light. Suddenly I felt something spread inside me, mainly in my legs. I was now able to run even faster because of that. I could see the light now, and I ran into it. Suddenly I fell. When I hit the ground, I tried to move forward. I could see my surroundings clearly for the first time.

There was color everywhere. My surroundings were a lot denser than where I came. I stopped moving and tried to take in everything. Immediately I felt the weakness come to me. I fell, and I started losing my vision.

I saw four pale bright figures coming to surround me. One of them had a long sword pointed at me. They came closer and attacked me. I moved my blade, But the figure’s sword moved through my midsection, and I heard my blade fall. I could not see anything, even the Figures. I looked at the center of my body, and I saw red liquid flowing everywhere. As I fell, I could sense someone was coming closer to me.