Thud I closed the book which tells us about the past..'huh this book is just fillled with nonsense this history they don't even know it was all decided and it was destined the end of the age of vice and misery was just a part of cycle which occurs..... The real story the real world the new age begins after the old yuga is vanished . This era or yuga is the most chaotic and unpredictable one , if you ask how do I know HE THE GOD told me this ' wait whom did I just refered to as you @ß5é4 damn what in the worl-

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The whole room is covered with darkness everywhere, everything is dark, 'maybe I'm dying , yes I should die I'm such an idiot I left them in the hope of fixing everything but now I'm the only one left and I can't fix a godamn thing if only I was not a coward and fixated on the future and going back to normal I know we all could have survived I'm sorry. ' I said to myself and shut my thoughts and started waiting for the end of my existence .

"Hahaha" A chilly laughter filled the room and gave me goosebumps , "wh-who is there? " I asked in a weak voice "I am the GOD" He said 'damnit why? ' I questioned in my mind "why are YOU here ...you.. No even I spoke in my mind you listened it right? "

"Huh" I heard his laugh but it contains sadness why? Are YOU upset because I was just a step away from finding all the answers? Hey YOU are listening right.... Huh! YOU don't want to speak okay no problem but -" I was stopped even in my mind wow "I am here to deliver a piece of news... THE PROBABILITY has favoured you .... So from now live happily and do what you really want to do protect everyone or end up alone it's upon you because you will be the center of everything now " He said something simple but still I can't understand it's meaning probability favouring me huh why and what is this about? He then said 'I hope you live good and everything which is happening I also don't know but guess what change is the law of universe! " Then I felt his presence decreasing ' I am dying right ? Haha it's the end..... but I'm afraid to close my eyes ' "there's nothing to be afraid now face your fears embrace yourself accept yourself and then only you'll be strong enough to handle what to come " He left me with this words ''um.... Thank you Thank you for all the help you provided to humanity and also me.... I never thanked you but I'm really grateful to you! " I said with my last ounce of energy and then closed my eyes ready to face my nightmare!

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Closing my eyes accepting my death but woah this nightmare makes me feel alive again all this feelings feel real now

I stared at the reflection of mine there was happiness, joy, surrounded by people ,a Captative sight in short it was the place filled with joy(fuck it up I'm seeing this once again this monologue I'm bored looking at this view now because no matter how omnipresent or closer to God I became I can never return to that place or to those people)..... But back to reality (But back to reality what reality it's just a nightmare in reality I'm dying)its not what it seems to be i said to myself that it was all in past now this kind of life is not possible. (huh in past you say... Even in the past it was not possible these sweet moments were nothing but just illusions)

I washed my face with cold Water and reminded my self of who I am and what responsibilities I have to bear. (Wish I could wake myself just by this cold water)

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I was holding onto a sword very tightly this was my companion ,my only companion who made it alive with me through all the hardships and trials. (Huh YOU gave me this sword.... Woah! I'm missing YOU GOD you are the only one whom I considered a true God worthy of that title and you also calls yourself a God .....no other God or godlike power does this huh)

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Every thing was blank and black nothing, pure nothingness this was my sweet nightmare which I have been seeing from many years and the pain and feelings have grown intense and intense as time passes by....

Blood kept flowing through my heart , 'it' was pierced through my heart 'my companion' was pierced through my heart by my companions!!... I didn't asked for forgiveness cause I know if one more chance was given I would still have chosen this path of being abandoned and to abandon people , I have no regrets of what I have done or what I wasn't able to do... (Speak the truth speak you true self your true feelings)

Then I saw the face of the person holding the other end of the sword which was pierced through my heart (she is as beautiful as I saw her last time and yeah it aches me that I abandoned you for my silly selfishness)seeing that face something started shattering inside my body it wasn't physical injury but something else and it hurts so much more than any physical injury I could receive,(yes you no I deserve this pain my selfishness lead to tragedies I'm sorry)something started rolling down my cheeks , ''was it sweat? Was it blood?'' No it wasn't. It was something which I never wanted to show, they were, tears , rolling down my cheeks (huh reminiscing about you and those days I tried to cry but I became numb to emotions after attaining the power I desired but also realised that it was all in vain). Neither I know when they started rolling down nor do I know when I started feeling so vulnerable and weak feeble.. That face which came in my front and all faces around (ohh guys I miss you all)started becoming more clear and i started feeling more vulnerable and i started crying and spoke to that person "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I-I wanted to -I wanted to solve everything I wanted to end everything!! I regret every decision!!-I .. I regret every choice which led to this end!!(yes I regret it)I godamn love you so much(yes I love you) !! I miss you all so damn much!!(yes I miss you all so damn nuch)!! I never ever want to walk on this path of cruelty anymore! (yes I don't want to walk any more I am tired I want to meet you and throw the biggest and most dramatic tantrum and then sleep in your embrace even then I sleep for all eternity)-wish I was strong enough back then(huh foolish even if I was strong only more and more blood would have shed) I wish I could keep you all safe(yes I wish I could kept you all safe)I didn't know when and how my decision led to your ends(you!! accept your mistake dumbass you know when and how your or I should say my decision led to this freakin end ) I only wished that I could keep you all safe I wish I never make you sacrifice yourself for my good!! I wish in another life you all will be happy and meet better ends with me Or without me.."(I really wish you will find your true happiness) My sound of sobbing started growing loud and loud and then I once again looked at every one now every face there seemed to blur I said one last thing in a very weak voice before finally shutting my eyes "I'm - l -I'm........sorry" Then I closed my eyes and a warm feeling wrapped me then everything started cooling down everything started feeling distant everything thing started feeling cold "Is this the end? Is this really the godamnit end I waited for?? I....am really sorry"( I mumbled these words in weak voice the voice was very low but I could feel deep regrets, a feeling of broken soul, a shattering pain and a never ending sorrow from my own voice)

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Huh! This is the end of my nightmare I guess seeing her and other's faces before death was some kind of a blessing woah! Iam crying wow feeling these emotions after so many times

"Alieth" Damn! "it- it's not possible is it you ? Answer me this sweet voice this affection this anger are you there? Sob sob sob answer meee!!!!?"

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