I stared at the reflection of mine there was happiness, joy, surrounded by people ,a Capatative sight in short it was the place filled with joy ...... But back to reality its not what it seems to be I said to myself that it was all in past now this kind of life is not possible.

I washed my face with cold Water and reminded my self of who I am and what responsibilities I have to bear.

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I was holding onto a sword very tightly this was my companion ,my only companion who made it alive with me through all the hardships and trials.

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Every thing was blank and black nothing, pure nothingness this was my sweet nightmare which I have been seeing from many years and the pain and feelings have grown intense and intense as time passes by....

Blood kept flowing through my heart , 'it' was pierced through my heart 'my companion' was pierced through my heart by my companions!!... I didn't asked for forgiveness cause I know if one more chance was given I would still have chosen this path of being abandoned and to abandon people , I have no regrets of what I have done or what I wasn't able to do...

Then I saw the face of the person holding the other end of the sword which was pierced through my heart seeing that face something started shattering inside my body it wasn't physical injury but something else and it hurts so much more than any physical injury I could receive, something started rolling down my cheeks , ''was it sweat? Was it blood?'' No it wasn't. It was something which I never wanted to show, they were, tears , rolling down my cheeks . Neither I know when they started rolling down nor do I know when I started feeling so vulnerable and weak feeble.. That face which came in my front and all faces around started becoming more clear and i started feeling more vulnerable and i started crying and spoke to that person "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry I-I wanted to -I wanted to solve everything I wanted to end everything!! I regret every decision!!-I .. I regret every choice which led to this end!! I godamn love you so much!! I miss you all so damn much !! I never ever want to walk on this path of cruelty anymore I -wish I was strong enough back then I wish I could keep you all safe I didn't know when and how my decision led to your ends I only wished that I could keep you all safe I wish I never make you sacrifice yourself for my good!! I wish in another life you all will be happy and meet better ends with me Or without me.." My sound of sobbing started growing loud and loud and then I once again looked at every one now every face there seemed to blur I said one last thing in a very weak voice before finally shutting my eyes "I'm - l -I'm........sorry" Then I closed my eyes and a warm feeling wrapped me then everything started cooling down everything started feeling distant everything thing started feeling cold "Is this the end? Is this really the godamnit end I waited for?? I....am really sorry" I mumbled these words in weak voice the voice was very low but I could feel deep regrets, a feeling of broken soul, a shattering pain and a never ending sorrow from my own voice.

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