bidding farewells is never an easy task but for hyun dal it was something which tore him from insides he wanted to drift away from everything he wasn't able to focus he began to submerge himself in his thoughts filling his void like heart yelling what's the point of doing all this when he didn't had his granny cheering for him what will he do with all those winning streaks medals love if he didn't had his granny to share these happiness he felt happiness is worthless without the precious existence of his granny although he promised her that he would live a graceful life he didn't knew what to do where to start and where to be he was lost in the endless roundabouts of thoughts like what if he did that or what if he didn't, he founded himself questioning him was he a good grandson ? Was he good enough for his granny? Did he provided her with the happiness she deserved? The ans was yes but his aching heart unable to accept unable to move on unable to forgive himself for letting his granny drift away from him answered with no a straight no he believed he was the worse one to exist he came to the conclusion that he was the one who should have died but again he didn't had any control on anyone or anything

This turmoil of thoughts and that endless void in his heart were eating him from inside he began to fall apart he was losing himself he was losing his sanity his Grief was becoming a part of him his shimmering performances became dull his behaviour took a 180° he was someone who cared for others he wasn't as good as a saint was a little of narcissistic and sometimes rude when necessary but now he was just plain rude with no excuses he believed what's the point of others existence in his life what's the point of cherishing them when they are just going to let him be alone at a point he was already a loner but now he was worse at his lowest the people close to him his coach his mates they knew he was grieving but it was going over the top it was already 6 month's since that unfortunate event they knew it was Insensitive to ask him to forget what happened and move on but they knew he was ruining himself they knew it wasn't good for him

1 week later an another opportunity which was like nothing for him to capture slipped through his hands like sand he was disqualified for his aggression and rude behaviour with staff after a small conflict he didn't gave any excuses just accepted it and back at camp acted as if nothing happened which infuriated his coach and other mates they respected him and his feelings but his grief can not be a reasonable excuse for his behaviour or his unreasonable judgment his coach decided to confront him

Lee dae jun was a great man with good regards for hyun dal he believed in him and had a huge part of credit in his success he was like a father figure for Hyun dal he was there for him in every rocky path and for advices but he was helpless he knew hyun dal wasn't in a good state but as a coach he couldn't let hyun dal ruin matches and opportunities for the country if hyun can't perform then he would give the chance to another player but who is capable enough to replace him unless he steps back so he went to discuss this with him he said hyun,"i know the time isn't good with you and there is nothing i can do there is so much i would like to say i want to confront you but i don't know how " to which hyun replied ,"yes you're correct there is nothing you can do for me and if you want to confront me so bad them just tell me the reason you are here " dae jun didn't knew how to say that he wants him to step back from the tournament but he knew that Hyun wasn't a great fan of roundabouts so he directly stated that hyun i know you have a great calibre and you are the best option but not right now i value you i support you but as a coach bringing the honour home is first priority so it would be great if you take some break for time being dae jun was afraid to look in hyun's direction he was afraid of his heartbroken expression he was afraid of his reaction cause he knew the importance figure skating possessed for him but to his surprise hyun simply said "ok" which was heavy then any other reply as he started packing his things