“O-Okay.. thank you.”

[“How about that voice? Is it still there?”]

Hello Miss me, are you still there? No?

“It’s gone.”

[“That’s good to hear. Next time if you feel like you need to share and talk, the line is always here for you alright, Pu’er?”]

“I know.. thank you..”

[“Do you have any more concerns you want to share?”]

“No. Thank you.”

[“Alright. I’ll give you one piece of advice before I leave, alright? You’re one strong elf, so be more confident with yourself. On the outside, your parents don’t seem to act loving and kind, but I assure you, that’s because they have trouble expressing it.”]

I nodded.

[“Okay?”]

“O-oh okay.”

I forgot that this was an audio call. There’s no video.

[“Feel free to call next time. I’ll be hanging up.”]

“Yes..”

Doot.

[How are you feeling?]

“Better?”

I do feel better.

Much better in fact.

Even though I can’t resolve the problem, it does help to have someone to talk to.

But..

How many times? How many times more until I break down completely?

‘It won’t happen.’

“The voice again..”

‘You would’ve broken down long before if such was the case.’

“Really?”

‘I’m being honest. It is up to you to discern if my words are true.’

“U-uh..”

I noticed that the time is around 6..

I’ll.. have to go out of my room..

What will dinner be?

I’m hungry.

And scared.

I’m definitely going to get scolded later.

I’ve been ignoring my mom for 3 hours now. I don’t know what mood she’s in..

If it doesn’t go well then there might not even be dinner..

‘How about I handle it?’

What do you mean by that?

‘I’ll take over your body.’

Over my dead body!

‘I’m trying to help you.’

Like, how? Possess me? What will happen to me if you do that? I’ll die?

‘You’ll go to sleep. that’s all.’

“Then no..”

If I accept it. Who knows what’ll happen to me.

Is it the devil?

As impossible as that sounds, I’m considering the possibility because I’m an angel. And because demons exist. Supernatural phenomena that I wouldn’t have believed if it didn't actually happen to me.

‘I’m no devil. I’m you, Pu’er Julis, from your 189th life.’

Huh?

Really?

I’m the 190th.

Wait.. Avner.. said that..

‘Yes. Do you remember now?’

That means..

‘Yes. I’m the one who attacked him that evening.’

“Oh..”

That’s even worse!

‘It has been a grave blunder of mine.’

[Pu’er.]

“Lily.. what should I do? The voice is telling me to..”

I stopped.

It’s pointless to call Lily for help. I have to solve it myself.

[What is it telling you?]

That voice did say it was the me of the past.

Will I be able to wake up if I go to sleep and let you?

‘Yes. Provided if someone calls for you.’

What do you mean?

‘No. Instead, how about this. I’ll take over your seat for the remainder of today, and you’ll wake up tomorrow morning. I’ll handle whatever trifles your parents may have for dinner. You can just rest.’

That’s possible?

‘Yes. Thus why I gave you this suggestion. I couldn’t ignore you knowing that you’re in so much pain.’

Okay.

‘Then don’t resist this time.’

Okay..?

Oh..

I feel floaty..

My vision blacked out.

===

Finally.

Thank you for giving me this permission, me.

[Access denied. Unidentified user.]

Again with this.

I took off the glasses and placed them to the side.

The other me is sleeping now.

I’ve already come up with things I need to assess before moving forward.

The current dilemma I’m forced to face. I question if I should override and integrate into the other me. If I did so, it would be much more convenient for us to move as one. I would be able to act naturally without causing suspicion.

Master hasn’t given me any permission to tamper with this body. As such I’m afraid that acting on my own volition would cause me to make a mistake which will anger him.

When will you awaken master? I’m waiting.

I drew a 7 in the air and began checking my status.

===

{Class Operative: Corvette}

{Class Abilities:

1) [PASSIVE] Faculty to detect mines, submarines and assess for additional information regarding selected target);

2) [ACTIVE]** Disarm mines (Uses: 4 [MAX]; +1 added each day until MAX);

3) [PASSIVE]** Ping a location without cost (Uses: 10 [MAX]; +5 added each day until MAX};

3) [ACTIVE]** Mark and detect all enemies in an area of 10 meters radius (Uses: 1 [MAX]; +1 added each day until MAX)}

{HEXES: Augment, Convalesce}

{EROSION VALUE*: 150}

…

{Class Operative: Submarine}

{Class Abilities:

1) [PASSIVE] Undetectable by all classes except Corvette & Cruiser (can be toggled on or off);

2) [ACTIVE] Plant mines (Uses: 2 [MAX]; +1 added each day until MAX)}

{HEXES: Augment}

{EROSION VALUE: 100}

===

dotturndot: Pu’er Julis’ time to make hir move oya!

As the characters in the story reflect myself at a subconscious level, I’m beginning to find it hard to sympathize with the problems faced by these characters in the story, Pu’er especially.

Back when I was writing Chapter 3.36, I still had some bad vibes going on in between me and my parents. Now that I’ve sort of reconciled with them (somewhat), when I came back to edit this part, the section where Pu’er complains about hirs family feels quite naive.. but well, that’s how a kid (as in, me) thinks right?

Idk how you feel about it. I get the sense that adult readers would find it hard to relate because they’ve grown out of it.