Chapter 58: Love Accepted (Part 1)

After Rivia's death, I have never confessed my love to Sir Rigen, I felt so guilty, Rivia died because of me, I cannot forgive my guilt!

If I didn't go out to collect the plants, she wouldn't have to die, but anyway, both of us have to move on, cannot feel guilt forever, cannot stop forever, we have to live for Rivia's sake.

Only two of us mourned for Rivia, we dug her a grave and buried her next to her relative, Rivia, please rest in peace.

After Rivia's death, Sir Rigen had forbidden me to go out alone, every time I go out, I must have him beside me. I felt so useless, I just wanted to help Sir Rigen, to be useful to him but now he had to help me.

About sleeping, Sir Rigen always let me sleep in bed, we discussed this problem together and we concluded that every seven days.

There will be one day that Sir Rigen will be able to sleep in bed, the other one has to sleep on the floor or inside the food stock room.

When Rivia died, Sir Rigen was always away from home, he did the patrol around the border till the night as Rivia did when she was alive.

Sometimes he would get back to me with the plants he collected, he didn't want me to go out, he was scared that I would die.

About living inside the house, the food stocks were still very much, maybe enough for the two of us to eat in one to two years.

About the water that we took from the sinks to clean and the water we took from the bathroom to bath ourselves, the water didn't run out.

Sir Rigen explained to me that the water may be taken from underground so they cannot run out.

About defecating and urinating, the restroom which had the toilet, the toilet papers we have had ran out a lot when we used them to bandage Rivia.

Sir Rigen said that we would use the alternative rolls so he went on hunting animals to collect their furs and collect the leaves to replace the toiler rolls.

Sir Rigen had learned to hunt, to use the weapons like the bows and crossbows that were stocked in the weapons stocks room by himself.

In the first days, the results were not so positive but now the progress had been better, he had succeeded to hunt the animals.

Seven days, a week has passed from the day that Rivia died, I have to stay inside the house most all day. I have to cook the meals and wait for Sir Rigen to go home after he has done the patrol around the border.

We are now living like a husband and a wife but Sir Rigen seemed didn't want to stay close to me. It would be right to say that he didn't want to sleep with me, maybe he felt that thing annoyed me.

I missed my homeland, I wanted to go back, maybe I should try, if I and Sir Rigen passed the Snow border to go back home while riding Fafa.

Even if we failed, we would die together, that's what I wanted, to die with my loved one.

I was now waiting for Sir Rigen to go home, the dinner has already been prepared, I wanted to give him a surprise, I wanted Sir Rigen to praise me.

I have gone out of the house alone today to the forest to collect the plants. I have brought with me a sword and dagger for defense, I have tried a lot to cook better, I hope Sir Rigen.

No! I mean! John, my loved one will be home soon.

Ah! I have heard noises as if the horse's footsteps, John has come home with Fafa, I was so glad!

I peeked the window and saw John was riding Fafa to the backyard, I must follow him.

Before I go to the backyard, I have grabbed the bowls of meals that I made for Fafa. That poor horse, just has lost its master a week ago, must be very hungry right now, must comfort it.

I went behind the backyard and saw Fafa was now strapped and standing inside its housekeep, John, he was...standing near a tree.

I was standing behind him so I didn't know what was his expression right now but I felt that John was very mad.

"Hey, Fafa. Can you tell me what happened to Sir Rigen?" - I asked Fafa while putting the meals down to it, I also patted its head, trying to cuddle it

"Ah, you're a bad boy...or a bad girl, I'm just kidding, you can't be able to talk, enjoy the meal, I will go out to talk with Sir Rigen."

After putting the meal to Fafa, I slowly went to see John, I could hear his grunt while sneaking behind him, John was smashing his hand on the tree he was standing.

I hope that I have mislook because I saw some blood coming out of his hand, he must have smashed the tree a lot, why did he have to do that?

"Oh, that's you, Princess! What do you want?" - John said to me with a hateful voice, maybe he has gone through something that bad while patrolling

Then I looked around John's clothes and saw that his right shoulder had been covered by a white cloth as if he has bandaged himself.

"You are wounded...Sir Rigen?" - I called John with a low voice, I didn't want to mad him

"Yeah! A monster that I encountered made this shit! What's wrong? Want to see me battered like that, huh?" - Another hateful voice, maybe I should do something to calm John

"Don't worry, that wound has been bandaged." - John calmed his voice down

"I'm very mad at you, Princess! You know? Why do I have to protect you! Why did I have to get into this world to be like this? Cannot go home but have to protect a piece of shit like you!" - What did John say to me? I didn't understand

"Don't understand? Listen carefully, Princess! I'm not coming from this world! I was doing a mission with Hatano and Sarah and we suddenly got here! I cannot go back home anymore but have to protect you! A useless piece of shit!"

John didn't come from this world? Did he come from another world? But that's not important now, I'm very worried about him, I must do something.

"Do you understand!"

"Nod! Nod!"

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Princess? Why do you always care about me! Are you a retard!"

"Why did you follow me all the time! Why did you have to care about me when you don't know shit about where I'm from! Get the fuck out of here, Princess!"

"Did you understand what I said?"

"Nod! Nod!"

"Stop nodding! You don't have a mouth to talk to! Talk something! Your mom didn't teach you to talk!" - What should I talk to John? I must calm him down

"Sir, I mean Sir Rigen, I'm very worried about you, I want you to be happy like before. Dinner is ready so, I hope you will have a good taste."

"Did I ever happy! Fuck that, you retard! Get out of here! Get out! Get the fuck out!" - Sir Rigen shouted to me very loud, maybe I should obey him

"Don't you understand, Princess! You are more retard than Forrest Gump! Get the fuck out! Now!"

Then I slowly stepped away from John, maybe I should give him some space to calm down now. I will go inside to prepare his dinner, I should make him happy.

Rigen's perspective

Poor Princess, what the fuck is wrong with me? She didn't do anything bad, she is also cute, she just wanted to comfort me but what is wrong with me?

What have I become? Why did I have to scold Shera as useless? She is very useful, she tried to change herself a lot, she is in love with me, she cares about me.

The meals that she made within a week have changed a lot, tastier, maybe I should apologize to her, no! I must apologize to her!

Dammit! My hand was now bruising with blood, it wouldn't be infected, maybe I should bandage my hand.

I was now wondering if that Princess had gotten inside the house or not, I hope she wouldn't hate me, I must apologize to her.

I haven't apologized to Shera since a week ago and now I haven't apologized to her when I have scolded her a lot.

I should go inside, I must apologize to Princess, I must do it.

Then I went back to the house, inside the house had now very bright by the crystal light I peek at the window and saw Shera was now preparing the meals for the dinner table. Her face looked so sad, I must apologize to her quickly.

Then I went inside, I saw Shera had done putting the meal down on the dinner table. She looked at me when I got in and opened a smile, Shera later stepped toward me, her face seemed a bit red.

"I'm home, Princess!"

"Welcome home, Sir Rigen! Let me, let me bandage your hand." - Shera said to me with a happy voice, she just has faked that, she didn't happy at all but she tried to make me happy

Shera later went into the bedroom to take some handmade bandages. She bandaged my bruised hand carefully, I could feel the love that she showed to me through that.

"It's already late, why don't we eat something, the dinner is still hot." - Shera, I'm sorry! I don't have enough confidence to apologize to you but I will do my best to protect you

Then both of us sat down at the dinner table, Shera sat opposite me. I could see the meals she made were very much, I also hungry a lot so I went on eating right away.

Shera, she cooked very well if I have to say according to her effort. But honestly, her meal was just normal to me but she tried to cook well.

Shera loved me but about me, I cannot say that I didn't love her, I have felt with her but she is just a kid, a kid that is still 15 or 16, how can I love her?

Did she love me or that was just the pounding of her emotion? Shera is now at the age of the teens, the people that loved by emotions.

Maybe she would stop loving me when she grew up more, that's what I wanted for her.

When I was thinking about Shera, suddenly a spoon with a piece of meal got toward my mouth. That was Shera who did this, she was smiling as if to invite me to eat.

"Open your mouth, Sir Rigen!" - Shera tried to be a mom or what?

Ah!" - I opened my mouth to let Shera put the spoon with the meal inside

Shera looked to be very happy when I have fun, what a kid! You should have cared more about yourself than me, you are still young, still have a long future-forward.

The way Shera acted made me so relaxed, I know love has no limit with age but Shera is still a kid according to my homeland's law. Even the FBI or the police cannot get here to arrest me for touching this child but I cannot let myself too relax with her.

I knew the way I did to Rivia, when she let me do anything with her.

I have become another person, a beast that deeps myself in sex so I cannot let that form go out anymore, must have been strict with myself.

"Sounds of eating." - Shera was also eating, she ate her meal while showing her face to make me happy

"What's with that look? You should have stayed focused to eat, Princess."

We are now living like a husband and a wife, though Shera cares about me a lot but I didn't do anything as I care about her.

Is this what I always wanted? To have a wife, to live a peaceful life with her till the end of my life, to have kids to raise them until they're all grown up and to live with my loved one until our lifespans part us.

"Sir Rigen, please eat! Why did you just keep staring at me?" - Shera made a happy smile and then put me another spoon with a meal that had full of her love

Maybe I should have loved this Princess sooner, I should have made her happy sooner. It's not too late to apologize to her, I must take this chance to apologize now, it's now or never.

"Sir Rigen..." - Shera suddenly made a frustrated face

"Your meal is cooling down, please eat..." - Okay! Okay!

Then I grabbed the bowl and ate well, the taste was so good, Shera! Shera!

I have done eating the first bowl, maybe I should eat more, my belly was still gulping, I grabbed the second bowl and started eating.

"Princess, you are very missed your home, right?"

Shera suddenly sad, maybe that was not a good time to say about this while having dinner.

"Don't worry, you are luckier than me, I cannot go back to my world anymore, even if we can't go back to our home, I will protect you till the end

Shera was finally happy again, the way she was happy made her look so cute, just looking at her made me want to.

No! No! No! She is still a kid! What the fuck did you just think in your head! I will love her when she is fully grown up, this is not the time.

"Sir Rigen, what's wrong? Your face looks serious." - Because I'm trying to hold myself back while looking at you and your body, it's still growing

Shera's body, especially her thighs and her breasts, gulp! Dammit! Her breasts looked to be half medium size, they will grow more when she is fully grown up.

I wanted to squeeze her breasts, to suck them, I want my boy to be covered with her soft boobs and spurt the semen on them! Wait! Fuck! Stop! Stop!

Dammit! I must my eyes on Shera's face all the time, eyes to eyes only, not looking anywhere else.

Maybe I should masturbate before sleeping, I haven't spurt it out for a week.

Suddenly I noticed that the dinner today was quite different from the other ones, there were fruits, nuts and plants which looked to be collected from the forest.

With very much of plants like this, did Shera store these plants in the house during the previous patrols when I went out with her?

"Hey, Princess? These meals didn't come from the food stocks?"

"Nod! Nod!" - What's wrong?

"Then where did you take these, Princess? You stored the plants inside the house to replace the food from the food stocks or what?

"Shake head!"

"Then where did you take these plants, Princess?"

Shera pointed at herself and then pointed out of the window while smiling as if to show me that she has done something very useful.

Shera pointed herself while pointing out of the window, the direction she pointed to was the direction of Diva forest, don't tell me! Did she go out alone to collect the plants?

"You got out here alone to collect the plants, Princess?

"Yes! I'm very useful to you, right Sir Rigen?" - Shera even opened a smile, you didn't know how dangerous it was!

"Tell me, Princess! When did you do this? When!"

"Don't talk so harsh like that Sir Rigen, I just have gone out this noon to collect the plants." - This noon! I woke up in the dawn to patrol but she went out from that time!

"You fucking stupid! I told you many times, Princess! Do not go out without me!"

Shera after hearing me said that, she slowly lowered her face, some of her tears had now been exposed on her face.

She was holding a spoon that had the meal, was about to give my mouth that spoon but had now gone.

"You still remember what happened to Rivia, Princess? She died because of you! That was all your fault!"

"You killed her, Princess! If you didn't go out alone then Rivia wouldn't have to die! You killed her! You killed her! You killed her!"

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Princess? Idiot also has its limit! But your idiocy makes me mad! Are you a retard! Only a retard doesn't know what I mean!"

"Why did you just keep your face low down, Princess! Say something! Say fucking something!"

"Crying! Crying!" - Haah! Haah! Wait! What the fuck have I done?

Shera was now crying, dammit! What have I become? I looked at my hands and looked back at Princess, she was now crying while lowering her face.

I must do something! Must do something to make her happy!

"Ah! Your meal is very good, Princess! Can you share your meal with me?" - I grabbed Shera's meal and ate a bit! Eating your lover's saliva is the best!

Shera stopped dropping her tears, she slowly looked at me while trying to open a smile, she cannot smile, her face was still heavy with guilt.

"Be careful next time, Princess! Maybe I have spent my time on the patrol too much so I don't have time to care about you, I'm very sorry."

"Tomorrow I will stay with you all day, Princess! Please stop crying, don't cry, you must keep smiling."

"Smile!" - Finally, Princess had smiled, I'm so happy to know

But when I made Shera smile, I noticed that I have eaten all of her meal, it was so tasty so, especially it had your lover's saliva.

Suddenly Shera grabbed my bowl and ate all of the food inside, after eating Princess's meal, I have already full but I tried to eat more.

Finally, we have done eating, I helped Shera to clean the dishes. We were now sitting on the bed, didn't say anything but the atmosphere was so happy.

I was a bit sleepy after eating, because this world didn't have many things for me to entertain except fighting in bed with women.

Also, my libido had gone up while sitting beside Shera so maybe I should get a sleep...or masturbate first, today I will be allowed to sleep in the bed.

"Sir Rigen!" - Shera called me, what's wrong?

"Can I...sleep with you today, Sir Rigen? I feel lonely, I want to have someone beside me."

Maybe I should accept Shera's demand to make her happy, sleeping with her is not a problem but I must masturbate first.

"If you say so, Princess! But I must get to the restroom first, I will come back later."

"No! Please, this time is very late, please sleep with me." - Okay!

Then we slept together, I have to stop my dick from getting hard because Princess was lying next to me. I hope she won't have a problem while sleeping with me.

"Can I hug you, Sir Rigen?" - What a cute voice

"As you wish, Princess." - Princess suddenly hugged me tight, which made my boy get harder

"Ah, I feel something hard down my thighs, what's it, Sir Rigen?" - Damn!

"Nothing, Princess! Just sleep."

Shera later slept while hugging me, well! Maybe I should sleep with her until 30 minutes later or so, to make sure that Princess has fully asleep for me to masturbate.

...

30 minutes have passed, I saw that Shera was now sleeping very well so I slowly removed her hands from my body and started sneaking out of the bed.

Oh, my dick! You're up? It wants to spurt out right now, load and loaded!

I sneaked toward the restroom, pulled out my pants and started twitching my dick, it had already been hard at the time Shera hugged me.

I was now twitching my hard dick while thinking about Shera's breasts and thighs, dammit! Somedays I will spurt my semen into them!

...

Okay! I have tried a lot not to call Shera while masturbating, the first round, dammit! I just have spurted my semen out on the floor instead of spurting on the toilet.

This is called "Play dumb and have a reward", I should have done this wisely.

A few minutes later after I have done cleaning my mess inside the restroom and was sneaking back to the bed to Shera, my boy got hard again so I sneaked back to the restroom.

Shera's perspective

I have tried to sleep while hugging John but I can't, that was so hard for me even to sleep with my loved one, because I always sleep alone or with Reimi.

I pretended to sleep with John, I noticed that after 30 minutes of sleeping, John suddenly stood up and sneaked to the restroom.

I didn't know why so I stalked him but I didn't peek inside the restroom, I just doing eavesdropping and heard John call my name in a low voice.

I also heard twitching sounds, I wondered what was those sounds came from.

But then I eavesdropped that John has done his problem so I returned to the bedroom. When he was sneaking back to me, he suddenly sneaked inside the restroom again.

...

So I have seen John do that 4 times, this is the fifth time, I cannot sleep because I was still figuring out what was he doing in the restroom so I stalked him again.

When John returned to me, after 5, 15 or 30 minutes, he would sneak inside the restroom again so I felt that was so suspicious for some reason.

"Ah, Princess! Just get back to sleep, I'm sorry if I have disturbed your sleep." - Ah! John has noticed me, must ask him

"What are you doing, Sir Rigen?"

"Sigh! Princess, you know? Have Reimi ever taught you the word relieve yourself?" - Ah!

Reimi taught me my downside body is called the vagina, it has been very wet from the first day I saw John so I was very curious, I have touched it and I have spurted out a lot of water.

Reimi told me that was called relieving myself, she said that while loving Hermann, she had done that very much.

So John was...relieving himself...all the time when he was sleeping with me?

I was so ashamed so I immediately got on the bed, closed my eyes and tried to sleep.

Even when John has done relieving himself completely and returned to sleep with me, I cannot sleep so I stayed up that night.

...

It was now morning, I was very sleepy but I have successfully made breakfast, the breakfast was very funny.

John promised me that he would stay with me today so I'm very happy right now.

After breakfast, I have taken all of my confidence, I have made up my mind, it's now or never.

"Sir Rigen, can you hear me talk about this important thing?"

"Say, Princess!"

"I have made up my mind, why don't we try to go back to my home by the Snow border today? Both of us will go back there while riding Fafa."

I have made up my mind, this is for my homeland, for John and also for myself.

If we die during that journey, we will die together, we will be staying with each other forever, nothing can do us part.