In the middle of the night, everything was silent.

The deserted Xinfeng Street is immersed in this peaceful atmosphere, but instead brings out the cordiality and warmth.

In the autumn of October this year, the weather broadcast was about the phenomenon of high temperature and weak El Nino. So if you stop and listen carefully, you can hear the "click" sound of the air conditioner running in the air.

Everyone is sleeping. They let the body comfortably enjoy the cool wind. The traffic lights at the distant intersection are quietly changing colors, and a high-speed rotating scarlet warning light hits the windows of each house, indicating ominous and death.

The world didn't aware of anything, and the sleeping one was still sleeping. It makes the family's actions more and more flustered.

The whole Yu family was scrambling to clean up the mess on the bed and on the floor, with pools of vomit after pools of vomit, which along with the slightest blood.

Li Qiao and Yu Xiaoyang were still hurriedly dealing with the chaotic situation that was like a battlefield, and the rag was handed over - clean became dirty, washed again when it dirty - Yu Hong Axiu and her daughter Yu Xiaoyu's hands hadn't dried off thirty minutes ago.

Yu Ruohao's consciousness has fallen into a coma. His mouth is slightly open, and another stream of brewed milk overflows from it.

Yu Ruoling, who is temporarily acting as a caregiver, quickly picks up a small handkerchief and wipes it off.

This is the third time. This happened three times in the middle of the night.

She put down her little handkerchief and quietly looked at her only biological brother, thinking that since she entered elementary school, her brother was forced to insert a Nasogastric Tube because he had no ability to eat by himself. With a small body, it hides a thin hose that is almost as long as his height. He has been force-fed, replaced, force-fed, and replaced again and again. The bridge of his nose, which has been attached to the tape for a long time, is short and flat, unlike ordinary children.

Yu Ruoling habitually reached out and touched the bridge of her nose with her fingers. This is a habit she developed when she discovered this, probably because she wanted to share his physical pain and torture with her actions.

Her brother, who is three years old, has been in and out of the Intensive Care Unit more than four times, with twice stomach bleeds, twice severe body convulsions, and now, maybe again, for unknown reasons.

Quietly watching, watching, not saying anything, just watching silently and not letting go. Not wanting to let go of any inch of skin, facial features, hands and feet, especially the face, which is somewhat similar to herself.

When Yu Ruoling was in kindergarten, through the explanation of her aunt, she understood the meaning of death very much. It is no longer open one's eyes, and can't breathe, see, hear, or feel anything, and can not feel the happiness of being touched. Also, he or she can't feel the warmth of the sun....

'Don't you have an answer in your heart？'She thought again, maybe it was the last time, she had better to look carefully and remember clearly.

Yu Xiaoyang noticed the increasingly harsh beeping sound. He hurriedly opened the window to see where the ambulance was. Downstairs, Yu Xiaoyu put on her shoes and stood at the door waiting for the ambulance staff. A stretcher was hurriedly moved into the living room on the first floor by two pairs of white-gloved hands.

Li Qiao rushed down with her shocked son in her arms. An ambulance took over immediately. Later, the five adults jumped into the ambulance and drove away. Only Yu Hong Axiu, whose face was covered in tears, and Yu Ruoling, who was still indifferent stayed.

The chaos in which no one dared to speak for an hour was finally over. Yu Hong Axiu wiped her tears with her sleeve, "Go to sleep, you have to study tomorrow, so you can't oversleep."

She turned her head to look at her loving grandmother, and said goodbye obediently.

Back in the room, Yu Ruoling locked the door, turned off the light, and retreated into the bed.

She closed her eyes and uncontrollably began to recall her life since she had memories to the present moment.

What a chaotic mess.

She remembered that there was such a word in her favorite novel - Journey to the West - and she used it without thinking.

Mmmm, chaos, right？

When she first entered the kindergarten, she missed her parents very much. Yu Ruoling was so upset that she could not eat at noon, so she secretly dumped her lunch into the kitchen waste bucket. The teacher found out, and filled a full bowl of rice, picking up the spoon, rudely stuffing into her mouth one by one.

That day, she felt her stomach was very uncomfortable all day long. Yu Ruoling only felt that every teacher would always glance up and down with a strange look at her.

In the second grade of kindergarten, Zhang Chenyu and Zheng Dexin, who are very popular, always work together to bully her.

At that time, she didn't talk too much and didn't play with dolls like other female classmates, so one of the boys in the class liked to play with her to build block toys. But this boy was the boy that the two liked.

Later..., no later, that male classmate began to hate her for some reason.

Without friends, when she leave home, she is alone.

What about the third grade of kindergarten？Ah, the teacher found that her Mandarin ability was relatively good, and often praising her in class, so she was excluded even more seriously.

And once, a female classmate took scissors and cut off a whole bunch of her hair when she was not paying attention. Fortunately, the pair of scissors was very small, and there was no difference in appearance. The teacher told her to forgive the female classmate, and even spoke for the female classmate.

'It wasn't intentional.'

She couldn't hear it actually, only that person looked at her with smug eyes afterwards and said, "The teacher didn't scold me, so you can't complain to others！"

Indeed, in order to avoid trouble and be more hated, Yu Ruoling did not do that.

As for the first grade of elementary school, some of the classmates' families are very wealthy. They bring a lot of snacks and the latest toys to school every day. Most of classmates like them, and she also thinks it is good.

Until two months later, a wealthy classmate said that she was always fierce, often talking to herself, like an idiot.

No, she's not.

This was because no one wanted to be her friend before, so she had to be with herself. And she's not fierce, because there's nothing funny to laugh. Why she has to smile all the time？That is really tired.

Yu Ruoling once thought that the teacher here would not be like the kindergarten, at least not rudely stuffing rice into her mouth. But when she saw the teacher smiled and said, "Don't speak so loudly next time, or else somebody will be angry."… forget it, even here is the same.

She is not disappointed or sad, just feels a little pity. It seems..., it will be another two years of living alone without friends.

...

Opening her eyes suddenly, she sat up from the bed, "Nightmare...."

Her delicate voice echoed in the room. She was alone in the darkness. After taking a few deep breaths, she hugged the quilt and fell back into the bed.

Yes.... just reminiscing about her previous life, and accidentally dreamed about it. Yu Ruo Ling buried her head in the pillow, turned over and continued to sleep.