Standing up, I move toward the bathroom, gripping to the wall and finally the sink. It's becoming harder to stop without wanting to pass out. The cool tiles send shivers through my body, goose bumps showing up to let me know it's too early and too cold to be up and out of bed.

I glance in the mirror, quickly looking away. My body is aching so I sigh and turn on the hot water tap. I start to take my pyjamas off as I wait for the shower to warm up and wake up.

My days are spent either at work or in bed. My depression has been pretty bad the last few months. If I had it my way I would stay home everyday in my bed but I have bills to pay and it helps but also hinders that I am falling for my boss.

I get out of the shower. Putting on my uniform and tying my light brown hair into a bun. Light make up is necessary to hide the bags under my green eyes.

I glance once more at my reflexion. Trying to flatten out my stomach more and pinching at my skin wishing I had a different form.

I sigh and head out to the front door. The walk to my work is a fifteen minute walk so I don't have to walk a long distance.

I can hear my heart beating too fast as I walk toward work. I walk in an hour early like I usually do. Sitting down feeling dizzy and sipping on my water bottle.

I almost choked on my water as I see her walk past the common kitchen area while walking to her office. She glances my way, her blue eyes connecting with mine I smile as she stops and walks to me.

"Good morning Addy." I give a faint smile as she says good morning to me.

"Good morning Jen." I reply back.

I take this time to look over her outfit. A light blue button up too, black dress pants and her black heeled shoes. She looks absolutely beautiful with her blond hair pulled back into a bun

"Are you okay? You seem a bit Pale." She asks with worry, walking to me.

I go to say I'm fine when she places her hand over my forehead. She frowns as I try to stop myself from melting under her touch. She moves her hands to my cheeks, cupping them.

"You're burning up." I say and put my hand over hers on my cheek.

"I'm find. I can't still work." She frowns but let's me stand up to walk out. As I get up my head starts spinning and I grab onto the desk to help myself.

"Got up a bit too fast I think." I say glancing at Jennifer. She purses her lips. I slowly wan our before her and to the clock on machine as I walk I start to see lol black as I pass out.

I come to laying with my head on Jennifer's lap on the floor of the store. I look around and see the worried look on Jen's face.

"I'm okay." I say softly. She sighs

"No, you're not." I purse my lips.

"I'm taking you to the doctors and then home. Come on." She helps me up, without letting me protest and walks me to her car. Her arm wrapped around my Mosser torso and her other hand holding mine as it slings over her shoulders.

We get into her car and she starts it up toward the nearest doctors. I can feel my nerves rise as I see it being my usual doctor.

"I can wait out here if you'd like or I can come in. It's up to you." I sigh.

"Come in." She nods and unbuckles herself coming inside with me.

There weren't too many people. As soon as the receptionist sees me he calls out my doctor. He walks out immediately with a worried look on his place.

"I didn't think I'd see you again. When you didn't show up yesterday I assumed the worst. I lower my head bad follow him to his work space.

"Jackson this is Jen. Jen this is my older cousin Jackson." She nods and looks between the two of us.

"I don't want to admit you do you need to listen to me please." Jackson says. I sigh.

"It's not like I mean to. I either am sleeping or working. I don't make time for it." I say softly.

"The sleeping so much is from the depression. And your working so much is because you're wanting to distract yourself. It's unhealthy and you've already gone a week without eating. You're close to becoming an extreme case of anorexia." I glance slightly toward Jen. She's sitting with me taking it all in and trying not to show her emotions on her face.

"What can I do to help?" Jen asks. I look shocked that she had asked.

"Make sure she takes her meal breaks. Make sure you see that she's taken her medication when she eats. That's the most you can do." She nods her head.

Once we are done we walk slowly back to Jen's car. She's gone quiet. She hasn't spoken a wordsmith expect for half way trough the doctors appointment.

"Tell me where you live and I'll drop you off." I sigh but tell her where abouts I live and she starts driving that direction.

She parks the car in front of my house and by my surprise I hear her unbuckle herself.

"You don't have to help me out of the car I'm okay. I know you'd much rather be running your work." She gives me a soft smile.

"There is nothing else I'd rather be doing than helping you. Now come on. I'm making you lunch." I sigh and let her into my home and into my kitchen.

"You really have very little in your fridge." I shrug.

"How about take out. Pizza?" I nod my head. I'm not really fussy. If I do eat any it'll only be one piece. I watch as she orders while I walk around tidying up and letting Bruno out of my room.

I hear a frightened squeal and walk out of my room to find Bruno had made Jen jump pout of her skin.

He's an Irish wolf hound. A larger dog by far and must have been a fright to see. I laugh softly as she blushes and starts to pat him.

"I didn't realise you had. A god." She says. I smile.

"He's my big baby." I say softly

I walk to the back door and open it for Bruno to go out. He glances my way and trots past me out to the backyard.

"The pizza is on its way." I smile and nod.

"Would you like a drink at all?" She shakes her head.

"Would you like to sit?" She nods and we both sit on the couch.

There is an uncomfortable silence around us. I know she has questions she wants to ask but is stopping herself from doing so. I hear her sigh and face me so I turn to her.

"I want to ask. Why are you doing this?" She asks me.

"Doing what?" She sighs.

"Not eating." I lower my head and shrug.

"Well I have depression. And I don't get hungry so I don't eat all I ever want to do is sleep when I'm depressed." She nods.

"There must be something that lightens your mood up because you never seem too down at work." I give a soft smile.

"There is. But I also start over thinking that small joy because it's unrealistic." She places her hand on top of mine.

"What is it?" She asks. I sigh, my heart beating out of control. I may as well tell her. This way if it's an unhealthy attachment it can stop now.

"You." She looks at me shocked.

"Me?" I nod.

"You lighten my nods by just walking into work. You make me want to smile when you smile. I feel worth something around you. And when you talk to me I have to try and get over my star struck brain." She looks at me wide eyed and shocked.

"So, you like me in a romantic sense?" She asks more cautiously.

"I don't just like you. I'm falling in love with you." I say. She sighs and puts her head in her hands. I sigh and rub her back softly.

"You know I'm 40 and you're 23 right?" I smile and nod.

"Highly aware of the age gap." I say.

"And it doesn't bother you?" I shrug.

"Sometimes it does but then I remind myself that it's no ones business but ours." She gives a small hesitant smile.

"I knew there'd be a possibility of an employee falling for me since so many people do crush on people higher in the ranks. I just never imagined this." I look at her confused.

"What's different about this?" I ask.

"Because I never expected myself to fall for the woman who is falling for me." I smile softly as I realise she's just admitted she has feelings for me.

"You have feelings for me." I say more in a statement. She blushes.

"Why do you think I worry so much about you?" I smile.

"But this also doesn't change that I'm your boss." I nod.

"That's something we can deal with later. For now, you're a lady who's falling for me and I'm falling for you. Generally speaking, how would you handle this." She smiles.

"That's simple. Like this." She leans over and presses her lips to mine, cupping my cheeks. I smile into the kiss slightly.

She grips my hair and deep pens the kiss. Her free hand and wraps it round my waist. She tugs at me slightly so I end up straddling her lap as she leans back, continuing to kiss me. She moves her hands to cup my arse and I can't help the gasp in pleasure as she squeezes my arse cheeks. Involuntarily it jerks my body in a grinding pattern for a couple seconds. She moans and kisses down my neck. Sucking and nibbling and the crook of my neck. Before I can get my revenge the doorbell rings. I huff and she gives a small chuckle moving me off her lap and answering the door. I smile as she comes back with a pizza in her hand and garlic bread.

"You better eat." I give a soft smile.

"Okay." She smiles and opens the pizza. It's a meat lovers which is probably the best pizza you can buy. I smile and look over at her, I can't help but think about how for the first time in in weeks, I'm actually getting a bit of my appetite back. I surprise myself by having a piece of pizza and two pieces of garlic bread.

"Thank you for helping me today." I say softly. She smiles and leans over, lightly pressing her lips to mine.

"I've loved spending the day with you. But we need to get back to reality. You're my employee. You're almost half my age." I sigh.

"I know. But if I have to get a different job I will. And as for the age. I already stated I don't care about the age difference. You're the only person that actually has me smiling. You're the only reason I still have motivation to go to work. I want to try this with you. I'll do anything it takes." I say determined. She smiles and caresses my cheek, leaning in and kissing me deeply.

"Alright. You don't have to quit. I don't want you to. And the only condition I have is that you go to dinner with me each night for the next two weeks. That way I know you're at least eating one meal a day and we can get to know each other on more of a personal level." I smile at her conditions and nod my head.

"Okay. Sounds good." She smiles and kisses me once more.