Oh my god! I'm fucking pregnant, never thought I'll see the day. I don't even care what I'm having, as long he or she is healthy. After the nurse checked my vitals, she left the room and my family chewed me out. I passed out because of dehydration, so I had to tell them that I hadn't been eating. I don't know who got on my head the most between my parents or Cameron. I do kind of feel bad, but hey I didn't know I was expecting. With me passing out I never got to hear my sentencing. Everybody informed me that I am on probation for eighteen months and Im required to pay for all of Jayla's medical expenses. Baby I cried tears of joy! Because guess who don't gotta go to jail? This girl!

After being discharged from the hospital, We made our way over to my parents for a little celebratory meal. Mama said she called our family chef after court, everybody was just waiting on me to wake up. I was currently sitting crisscross between Cameron's legs on the couch in the family room. The couch was big enough for us to sit like this. I took a shower and now I was just lounging around in a pair of nike pro shorts and one of my daddy's old jerseys with a pair of fuzzy socks on my feet. Cameron had his hands on my stomach and he was rubbing them in circles. I shook my head. As if he could keep his hands off me before. This baby is about to have him glued to me. I leaned back into his chest.

"Thank you baby." He kissed the side of my face.

I looked up. "For what?"

He looked down grinning in my face. "For having my baby."

I smiled and shook my head. I wonder if the food is ready because I need to at least try to eat. Gotta build my appetite back up, I got a baby to feed. That feels so foreign to say. I'm really about to have a baby. Since I'm probation, I think I want to hold off on the wedding, because if I can't go no where for my honeymoon what's the point? I looked over the paperwork seen that I can't leave the state or country until my time is up. A bunch of bullshit. So for the time being I'm going to focus on my store and getting into medical school. I know I said I wasn't popping out any babies until I was married but hey, things happen. It was bound to happen anyway cause we don't use condoms and I don't swallow all the time so.

"Ughh, the food still not ready yet?"

I looked to my right and seen Nova waking up. Trey was on her stomach as they was laying on the right arm chaise. I love my friends, because they didn't have to drop everything and drive all the way to Houston just to see me.

"Girl stop moving."

I shook my head as Trey turned over and stuck his hand under her shirt. I guess Nova has been acting right since the damage she did to his car because they're looking real cozy.

"No, I don't know whats taking so long. I thought it was already ready but I'll go see." I uncrossed my legs and stood up from the couch. I pulled my shorts down and shuffled into the kitchen. I shook my head. My parents and in-laws were here laughing it up. I folded my arms across my chest and leaned against the threshold.

"Ahem." I cleared my throat and their heads whipped around. Mhm I thought so. In here having a ball and we're starving.

"Wassup gangsta!" My daddy pulled me into a hug and I busted out laughing. I'm never going to live this down.

"Hey daddy, the food ready?" He nodded his head.

"Just about. Go get your sisters and tell everybody to come on."

I nodded my head to the back stairs to head up. Since me and sisters rooms were on the left side of the house, that's the direct I headed into. Kai's room was first, so I twisted the knob and stepped in—shaking my head. Jabari was on his back with his arm across his face and she was laying on his stomach with her hand at waistband of his shorts. Y'all this is not my sister! I think this a clone because if you would've told Kailani years ago that she would be in a relationship right now, she would have laughed in yo face. She's a light sleeper, so I shook her gently and she groaned looking up. Blinking her eyes rapidly to regain focus.

"What Alaya?"

She questioned and I shook my head. "Get up, it's time to eat."

I shook my head as she rolled back over. I left out of her room and stopped by the nursery. Stepping in and saw that SoSo was wide awake staring at the ceiling. I stepped into her bathroom and washed my hands before I picked her up. I came back out and checked her diaper. She was dry. Throwing a Blanket over my shoulder, I picked her and her binky up before laying her on my shoulder. Oh my god, I laughed shaking my head as I walked out. These babies might as well be siblings. SoSo and Zai are months apart, then my baby will be a year younger. Damn shame. I went down the hall and knocked on Keria's door

"Come in!" I heard before going in. She was in the middle of changing Zai's diaper.

"Daddy said come on, the food is ready."

She nodded her head. "Okay, I'll be down in a minute."

I bounced SoSo in my arms as we took the back stairs down to the kitchen. It was empty so I knew everybody was in the dinning room. I walked over into the next room and saw everybody plating their food. I took a seat besides Cameron and adjusted Sorayá in my arms. She was laying in the crook sucking on her binky.

"Baby, you want me to fix your plate?"

I looked over at Camera and nodded my head. "Please."

"Muffin, I can take SoSo."

Shaking my head at my mama. "I got her but does she have a fresh bottle?"

"Dakari, can you go get Sorayá a bottle? I got your plate."

I sat back and played with my baby sister's hand as I watched everybody move around. I looked down in her face and smiled. A few months from now I'll be holding on my own baby. I think I want a gender reveal instead of a surprise baby shower. But I don't know, I'm bound to change my mind. I just pray my pregnancy is smooth and stress free.

"Here you go baby." I looked up and saw Cameron standing to the left of me holding to plates. I adjusted SoSo and grabbed my plate. Ooou! It was stuffed cajun chicken breast, yellow rice, honey butter roll, and french string beans. This look good. I looked at everybody else plates and shook my head. Lord release my family from the shackles of seafood! I cut into my chicken and forked a piece into my mouth. Mhm! I moaned into the bite.

"Girl you better stop."

I turned my head to see Cameron staring at me with a smirk on his face. I stifled my laughed and shook my head. Nasty ass. That's why we got a baby on the way now. I spooned some rice and string beans into my mouth before sitting back into the chair. I grabbed SoSo's bottle and removed her binky—pushing the bottle into her mouth causing her to latch onto the nipple.

"So Bri, can we know the story?"

I looked at Sasha and then looked at Cam who was stuffing his face. I pointed at him. "He didn't tell you?"

She shook her head and I laughed. "To my knowledge, Cameron arrived to the hotel and when he went to check in the clerk said his wife was waiting upstairs."

"Wife? Oh that bitch crazy." My mama shook her head and smacked on her food.

"Tell me about it, but Cam told the lady to call security before he headed upstairs. She was up there waiting on him in lingerie. What really got me was her hollering rape and said she'll see him tomorrow. So Cameron assumed that she was talking about showing up go the job site. I told Cam that I'll see him in the morning and hung up in his face. I pulled up to the Marriott around 9, we left and went to the job site."

"And what happened after?"

Before I could even answer Sasha, Jabari busted out laughing and screamed before saying. "Excuse my language but she shot that hoe in her kneecaps! And said crawl hoe!"

I shook my head. Jabari is so damn extra it's ridiculous. Everybody in the dinning room couldn't do nothing but laugh, including me. I waited until the laughter died down before speaking.

"She showed up, which was very bold of her. I wasn't even going to do anything to the girl until she touched Cameron and that's when all my common sense went out the window. She tired to be slick so I wrapped her ass with the gun and then shot her." I humped my shoulders and ate some more of my food. Folks probably think I'm crazy, which is true but I wasn't about to keep letting her disrespect me. I looked down at SoSo and she was pushing the bottle out her. I take it she has had enough. I placed the bottle on the table and picked her up placing her on my shoulder. I lightly patted her back until she burped.

About a hour later after everybody had finished eating, SoSo and I migrated downstairs to my room in the basement. I was tired and I knew I only felt like that cause I had finally ate a full course meal. Between all the bread I ate and rice? I was guaranteed to be bloated in the morning. I had Sorayá on my chest while I was watching The Christmas Chronicles two. Tyrese being the step daddy really just threw me for a loop, like what the hell.

"Baby!"

I heard causing me to look towards the front. I saw Cameron looking around and I laughed because he can't see me. "In the back Amari!"

SoSo started to whine and I looked down pushing her binky back into her mouth. I can't wait until she's able to talk and walk. I looked up at the threshold once I heard movement, Amari was leaning against the frame of the door with his arms folded across his chest.

"I can't wait to come home to this view everyday."

He smiled and shook his head before removing his shirt. He licked his slides off and climb in the bed on the side of me. I moved Sorayá to my right side cause I already knew he wanted to rub my stomach and he did just that. And before I knew it I was sleep.

It's been a couple days since court and the whole finding out I was pregnant, which I'm still in shock about. But Cameron and I left my parents house the next day and I've just been at home getting things in order for my grand opening. I can finally breathe again, like yall. I was about to go to jail. Once again I do not regret what I did, but I do admit that I could have went about it better. But hey hopefully she learned her lesson, because the next woman won't be as nice. I really spared Jayla because I know I could've did worse.

I was currently downstairs in the living room, sitting crisscross on the couch with my macbook in my lap. I was going over my inventory, things I needed to order and stuff I was discontinuing. I wanted to start fresh so I will definitely be having a little sale soon. And yes! I can finally start my custom engagement ring line. Mine will not be on display because it's a one of kind and I really don't want nobody to have the same ring as me.

"Alaya! You ready to eat?"

Cameron yelled from the kitchen and I shook my head cause he's loud asf. "Yes Amari!"

I nodded my head at the screen in satisfaction. People love the nameplate cuban link. Think one of the new pieces Im going to push out is going to be a cuban link bracelet. Might just test it for Cyber Monday. I have so much unreleased stuff in the garage and storage cause every time I come up with a piece in my head, I literally sketch it and send it off to my dealer.

As I was going through the website, my MacBook was closed and pulled from my lap. I looked up and Cameron was holding my plate in his while sliding the MacBook on the table. "That was rude."

"Oh well." He humped his shoulders and pulled a pillow in my lap before setting the plate on top. I licked my lips at the sight. It was a well down T-bone steak with caramelized onions and peppers, a baked potato and a salad. He walked away and returned a second later with his plate along with the salad dressing, steak sauce, and utensils. My potato was already dressed just how I like it with butter, sour cream, cheese, and black pepper. I grabbed the ranch and poured it over my salad.

"What we watching?"

I looked up and Cameron had his plate in his lap with the remote in his right hand flipping through our media. We looked at each other and smirked.

"Bad Boys." We said at the same time before laughing. I shook my head and poured a little steak sauce on my plate before cutting into it. I forked the piece into my mouth before chewing it. I know this shouldn't be on my mind while eating but I wanna try something new with Cameron. It's a little extreme, so I'm going to ease it in there.

"Baby." I called out before eating some my potato.

He looked at me causing me to sallow my food.

"Uh can we try something new?" I looked in his face.

He slowly stopped cutting his steak. "Something new as in?"

I bit my lip. "In the bedroom."

He dropped his fork and narrowed his eyes at me. "I'm not fucking you in your ass Brielle."

My eyes grew wide and I damn near dropped my plate. "Oh my god Amari! I am not even into that."

"Then what new are you talking about? Cause you're definitely not touching my ass."

At this point I just busted out laughing. "Okay don't make me smack you. I want you to fuck my throat."

"Hack! Hackkk!"

Oh my god. This nigga done started choking. I placed my plate on the table and reached over slapping his back. I grabbed the water bottle from the table and twisted the top off shoving it in his face. He took a big gulp but he was still coughing.

"Say my name Amari."

"Br-ri-elle." Okay he can talk but it's not as clear as I would like. He drunk some more water and sat the bottle done on the table. This man here! Bout to kill hisself cause I wanna eat a little dick. I shook my head and grabbed my plate getting back into my position.

I looked over at him. "You good? Say yo full name."

He looked at me and rolled his eyes. "Cameron Amari Hayes."

I laughed. "This should not be funny but it is. About to kill yourself cause I wanna eat the dick."

"Girl that ain't funny. You caught me off guard." He side eyed me before grabbing his plate from the arm of the couch.

I am screaming! But nah I'm about to be choking just like him, because sucking dick is one thing, but getting your throat fucked is another. I hope I don't punk out. Cause whew! That thang big. I humped my shoulders and forked some salad into my mouth. I don't know what he put on here but this shit good. I added some more steak sauce to my plate and continued eating. About twenty minutes later I had managed to eat majority of my food. That steak was a little too big, but I ate my potato and my salad. Cameron stood up and grabbed my plate before turning to look at me.

"What you want to drink baby?"

"A fruit punch mystic."

He nodded his head and walked away going into the kitchen.

I rubbed my stomach and smiled softly. I'm really about to have a baby. Honestly sometimes my life feels all too real, I'm engaged to a wonderful man, I graduated college a year early, I have a successful business and it's just like wow. The old me would look at you crazy if you would've said I will be pregnant and engaged at 21 years old. Me? Engaged? Let alone pregnant? Crazy how life works.

Sometimes what we think is not for us, is actually for us. We may write our stories but God leads us into the direction of what we need and not just what we want. It's only up to you to follow his directions. I am forever grateful for everything he has done for me, because only he knows how far I've come. If I would have succeed with my plan years ago, I wouldn't be here today.

If my mama didn't find me, I wouldn't be here today.

If my mama didn't find me, I wouldn't have graduated high school.

If my mama didn't find find me, I wouldn't have been a teenage millionaire.

If my mama didn't find me, I wouldn't have graduated from college.

If my mama didn't find me, I wouldn't be engaged or pregnant today.

If my mama didn't find me, I would not be here today.

I'm so glad that I was able to close that chapter of my life and keep pushing. I'm not a victim, I'm a survivor.

"Brielle! Brielle!"

Cameron clapped his hands in my face and I blinked my eyes regaining focus. I looked up and he had a soft facial expression starting at me.

"You okay? I've been calling your name for like five minutes." He sat on the couch and pulled me into his lap. I was sitting back up against the arm and he was rubbing my stomach. I smiled looking in his face.

"Yes, I was just reflecting on how far I've come."

He licked his lips. "Yea? Rap to me."

I bit my lip and contemplated because only my mama knows about my suicide attempt. I ran hands up and down my thighs. "Uh I tried to commit suicide a couple years and it's just made realize that I've came along way. I wouldn't be here today if my mama didn't find me. Like being pregnant and engaged just made me realize a lot. Do I wish that my mama didn't find me? No because I wouldn't be here today. I was just a lost, hurt teenager looking for a way out and I thought that was it, but my mama found me. It was not my time and I'm glad she found me. Only you and obviously her know about this."

He gripped my face in both hands turning it towards him and licked his lips before kissing me all over. From my forehead, cheeks, eyelids, nose, and lips. He placed our foreheads together and looked in my eyes.

"I thought I was strong but no, thats all you and I admire you more and more each day. Im thankful that you chose to share your story with me, cause lord knows it's not easy. I love you so much mama, you encourage me be stronger. Thank you for loving me, thank you for allowing me to love you, and most importantly thank you for being you."

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