Shit!

Shit!

Shit!

What have I done? These days I am really losing my mind.

Why can't I control myself in front of her? And this jealousy... Fuck!

I was in a meeting in some restaurant, when Maria called me and said that Bella, will be coming to give me the file. After finishing the meeting, I made my way to the company, but when I reached I saw Bella with some guy. She was talking to him, then he pulled her close to him. Seeing them, anger rose in me. I just wanted to kill that man.

But when I went closer to them, I saw Bella fidgeting, like she was trying to move away from him. When I heard his name from her, I remembered that he was that guy who once tried to rape her, and also who she called her best friend.

I know that she hates him, but then again seeing him holding her so close got me jealous. That was the reason why I kissed her like that, in the elevator.

I couldn't control myself and I kissed her. She was shocked by my actions, she didn't expect that. But when she bites her lips, I just lose my control. That day too and today also.

But there is just one thing that is scaring me, what if after knowing the truth she leaves. Maybe she'll not leave, she'll stay for Ryan. But what if, after knowing the truth she doesn't talk to me, what if she hates me.

I took a deep breath and rubbed my face with my hands "I don't even want to think about it."

More than Ryan needs her, I need Bella.

I need her in my life.

So, the only thing I could do is not tell her anything. I have to keep it a secret, and I will. I can't let her know anything about it.

I came out of my thoughts by a knock on the door. I went and sat back on my chair and muttered 'come in'.

Asher came in. Asher is the one whom I have set up near Bella's house. He is one of my most trusted men. Seeing him I got a little tensed up.

"What is it?" I asked him.

"Sir I got to know about something." He said.

"What?"

"Sir you asked me to look into the matter of Mrs. Adams and her son."

I nodded.

"Sir, this time he lost a huge amount on gambling and he had no place to hide, so he came back to Mrs. Adams."

"But why did she allow him?"

"That's because he blackmailed her."

"Blackmailed her? How?" I asked in confusion.

"He knows the truth Sir." My eyes widened.

"No." I shook my head.

"Yes Sir he does and she didn't want Mrs. Parker to know about the truth. So she let him stay with her and also gave him the money he wanted."

"Fuck. I messed up everything." I said running my hands through my hair.

Then suddenly Asher's phone rang. He picked up the call and I could tell it wasn't anything good.

He then looked at me still with the phone in his hand and said "Sir we have a problem."

"What problem?"

"Mrs. Adams."

I rose up from my seat. "What happened to her?"

He then gave me his phone, to talk to the guy on the other side.

"Sir, Mrs. Adams is in the hospital."

"Hospital?" I asked in confusion.

"Yes sir, the neighbour found her unconscious in their house. The doctor said that she took overdose of her sleeping pills."

No.

Shit.

"How is she now?"

"Sir, according to the doctors, she doesn't have much time."

"What do you mean by she doesn't have much time? Where were you all? I asked you all not to fucking leave that place."

"Sir, it was she who send us away to get her son."

"Get her son?"

"Yes sir. He ran away with all her money."

I took a deep breath.

"What about him? In the end did you all got him?"

"S-Sir we were chasing him. But now, we can't find him."

"What do you mean you can't find him?" I asked in a loud voice.

"Sir we are trying, but we are not able to track him."

I rubbed my temple with one hand, I was still talking to him on the phone.

This all is going out of my hands.

Then suddenly a thought crossed my mind "Bella."

Shit!

I asked the guy "Does Bella know about this?"

"No Sir, not yet. But their neighbour is going to call her."

"Do one thing, ask her not to tell Bella that Mrs. Adams doesn't have much time."

"Okay Sir." I hung up.

I have to go to her. Picking up my coat from the chair I wore it and told Asher "Keep searching Seth, I am sure he has something to do with all this."

Asher nodded.

I stopped and looked at Asher "Don't mess things up more Asher. I want Seth."

"Y-Yes Sir."

I went out of my office.

I have to reach Bella, before she gets to know about this.

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When I came back from Liam's office I saw Ryan dancing in the living room. I just stared at him, with a smile. He has changed so much in these few days and I am glad. Finally, he is out from that boring life.

"Mommy!" he shouted when he saw me. "Mommy come on dance with me this is so much fun." He said still dancing.

I was about to go when my phone rang. I saw the caller id. It was Nanny. My face instantly lit up.

I knew she wouldn't be able to stay without talking to me.

I picked up the call. "Nanny I knew you would call. I-"

"Bella, this is me Lily." Lily is one of our neighbour in the apartment where Nanny is.

"Lily? Why are you calling? And where's Nanny?" I asked in confusion.

"Bella, Mrs. Adams is.." she stopped, she didn't say anything and started crying.

"What? Where is she?" I asked again.

Something is not right. I can feel it.

"S-She is in the hospital."

"H-Hospital? Why? Did someone get hurt? She is there for someone, right?"

"No Bella, I don't know what happened, but when I came to see her, s-she was lying on the ground, unconscious."

I felt my heart shattered.

No.

No.

No.

"W-What did the doctor s-say?" I asked.

"They took her to the emergency room, they are treating her. Please come quickly."

"Y-Yes."

I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks.

No. She is brave, nothing can happen to her. She will fight whatever it is.

I know.

She will definitely make it. She has to make it for me.

"Mommy?" I looked down to see Ryan standing in front of me.

I kneeled down, he touched my cheek and said "You are crying?"

I wiped my tears and shook my head, I tried but I couldn't stop them they kept flowing.

"B-Baby, Mommy have to go. Stay in the h-house, I'll come soon. Stay with Maria, okay?" I said in a broken voice.

"But why are you crying?"

"It's nothing. You don't have to worry about it." I said with a forced smile on my face.

"Bella?" I looked up to see Maria standing in front. I got up and went to her.

"I have to go Maria, I don't know what happened, but Nanny is in the hospital. I have to go. Please take care of him."

She looked shock. "Is she okay?"

"I-I don't know." I said, now with more tears rolling down my cheeks.

She hugged me and said "It's okay Bella. She'll be fine."

I nodded.

I looked down at Ryan, who was looking at me with a sad look. Picking him up in my arms I said "Baby, take care."

He kissed my cheek "You take care."

I nodded. "Bye."

Putting him down, I ran out of the house.

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