I Sold Myself to the Devil for Vinyls... Pitiful I Know

EXTRA

Tyler's POV of a part of chapter 66

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So for those of you who doubted Tyler's feeling or those that were curious as to how Vanessa and Tyler worked things out here's a tiny bit of Tyler's POV.

Sorry if he doesn't always make sense... the boy is in love! ;P

Oh and I think it's important to mention that I'm leaving on Sunday for one week to my lake house to get some rest so that means no Kay for a week. I won't have internet. Well I'll have internet but I won't use it because I want to rest and be outside.

So ya... I MIGHT upload one chapter while I'm there but I really don't promise anything... so sorry guys... more waiting! I'm a bad bad girl! ;P

Enjoy!

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Once, when we were younger and Lexi was watching The Little Mermaid, I told her mermaids were the pussiest thing ever.

Lexi's face had shined with that know it all smile of hers that makes you regret ever saying anything.

And then she had talked about how the mermaids in the mythology were feared by all the sailors. That they were beautiful creatures who sang to people and enchanted them with their voices and then drowned them and killed them.

I think she was trying to scare me because after that every time we would go in vacation and swim in the sea she would start singing and say "Careful, the mermaids might get you". But I was old enough to not take shit from my sister.

Though this morning, that's all I could think about. Those mermaids that enchanted you with their voice and then killed you. I knew it was mean and all to picture Vanessa as a mermaid but let's face it; that was a pretty good metaphor or whatever.

Am I fucking seriously doing metaphor in my head right now?

This has to stop. I'm becoming a big pussy like that red haired mermaid!

But this was all her fault, this was all her fucking fault. I didn't know what to think or what to believe. Did she like me or thought I was just some stupid kid with a crush on her? Was I just her best friend's little brother who could be fun to make out with when she was waiting for the said friend and was fighting with him to get the remote because he wouldn't change to look at Gobble Girl however hot she was?

Fuck, Tyler Grayson you are not a pussy! You kill zombies! You blow up drug dealers bunkers. You fucking shot that Alexander Pope dude! You are not going all weakidy weak for a girl!

Aww who was I fucking kidding? I was already weak. The mermaid wasn't even singing and I was swimming over to her like a helpless dumbass.

I needed to kill some hookers or something.

Though the real problem wasn't me getting weak, I knew that. I wouldn't have minded if I knew... if I knew if she really felt the same way about me. If she really liked me, if she was serious.

I was younger than her, and immature, I knew that, and probably less experience, I mean what could I say, she always had been the only one I liked... ever since she had come to our house for the first time to play with Lexi. I had thought she was an angel with her golden curly blond hair and her blue eyes and her porcelain skin with the freckles all over her face that I just wanted to stroke. She looked like Annabelle collection dolls that we had no right to as much as look too intently. She looked too good to be true.

Of course I was always just "Lexi's little brother". I had grown up knowing that fact. And so because I knew that I always would be only the little brother to her, I was being annoying and acted just like a "little brother" anytime she was around.

Though one day I had heard her say to Lexi "You know your little brother is hot right?". Still I had tried to just shove that away. She might just have been saying that to annoy Lexi.

But then I started to notice things, like the way she smiled at me when I would open the door to her, or how she would always find a way to tease me about something. That could have been nothing but the teasing became arguing at one point and then the arguing became us fighting and then the fighting ended up with me throwing the remote control under the TV and her, instead of going after it like I would have thought so I could pin her down or something, grabbing me by the back of the end and attacking my lips. When Lexi had walked in the living room few seconds later, she had been quite surprise to say the least.

And now it was on that that our "relation" was based. Us fighting and then us ending up making out.

Did that even mean anything? We had never said we were exclusive on the fight/make-out thing. For all I knew I was just the younger guy Vanessa made out with once in a while, while she waited to find THE guy for her.

Thinking about that made me want to hurl. Thinking about Vanessa with another guy made me mad as hell. Just that Facebook guy she had apparently gone out with... I wasn't going to say I had hacked his computer and put in it a nice little virus but ya... I had hacked that dumb bastard computer and put a virus into it.

Like I needed more signs to show I was immature.

But in a way it WAS my fault. Just because she was the oldest that didn't mean she had to be the one to say she actually wanted to be with me, that we did actually have something special, that I wasn't just Lexi's little brother. It was my fault that I was mopping like a whiny boy dipped in sissy sauce at birth, because I should have told Vanessa she meant something for ME, that I CARED about her...

I should have told her that...

But I was too proud to say it.

And she had left.

But today she was coming back.

And today there was no place for being proud.

While I was eating my cereal, Lexi walked down the stairs and into the kitchen yawning.

"Someone's in a hurry to get to school" she said with that smug little smile of hers and poured coffee for herself.

For one second I stop thinking about Vanessa. Lexi was way too tired these past few days. She had made herself sick... This whole thing with Blake really wasn't healthy. As much as I wanted to win my bet I wished they both would just tell they liked each other already.

Maybe I could call Blake again and tell him to say something or leave my sister alone because he was making her sick. I'm sure that would get his head out of his ass.

It amazed me that those two were so stupid as to not realized they were both crazy about each other.

And that made me think about Vanessa again...

Were we blind like those two?

I shrugged and said "There's not even a point in arguing on this"

That made my sister laugh "You're cute"

Yes cute is so the thing I'm aiming for today.

Cute was for ponies! Cute was for little Nintendo DS games with the princess you could dress up!

I didn't want to be a fucking princess to dress up!

Alright something was definitely going haywire with my brain...

I had to see Vanessa...

"Is... she... she's going to be there at school today right?" I mumbled to Lexi.

I hate looking and sounding pathetic like this but pride had no room today!

Hopefully Lexi didn't make an annoying comment because otherwise I would have gladly thrown one back at her

"Yes, but just in the afternoon and she's going to be with the people that will be in the show helping them and giving them advice. Oh and we're going to that show by the way. It's Saturday night. Anyway, she's going to eat at her grandparents and then she's coming over. Around seven thirty maybe." She told me while I listen carefully.

Alright so show on Saturday, no problem. And she would be at school... after class too?

I had practice tonight... Well practice or no practice I didn't care I was going to see her there.

Because I knew how things would go. When she would come here her and Lexi would talk. And that was completely okay and normal because they were best friends and they should want to talk together.

But I wanted to talk with her too. And I wanted to do it today, right now as soon as I could.

I wasn't losing more time.

"So she's going to be at the school in the afternoon?" I asked Lexi, to be sure again.

She nodded to me "Yes" but frowned "Are you going to go all stalker on her?"

I frowned at her too "That's my business"

"Just let her breath for two second alright? I know you missed her and you want to see her but don't smother her alright? You know how she is, if you do that you're doomed and then you guys will only argue and all of this will have been done for nothing"

This time I was scowling a little "I'm going to do whatever the beep I want!"

Alright yes I was being overdramatic but I didn't want to only fight with Vanessa. We could fight I didn't mind I was use to it, it was amusing actually, but not JUST fight.

That day at school felt pretty darn freaking long. School sucked. Major balls. Even more today. Today school was like a cheap fifty year old hoe with no teeth left. But she made more money because of that.

Anyway ya point being, school sucked.

I had no idea if Vanessa had arrived at the beginning of the day or if she arrived only at the end. I was thinking about what I would tell her and picturing how she would look and... I was thinking way too much for my own good, too much neuron using for something else than finding the way to save the kid in Heavy Rain. And in Heavy Rain all my thinking had made me realize that I had to hide the girl in the fridge to save her.

In this situation thinking was completely unnecessary.

When the bell rang, I all but ran to the art section of our school and then to the auditorium. I opened the door and there were people walking between seat sections, and other on stage. I grabbed one kid that walked by me by the arm "Where's Vanessa Evans? The blond girl that's here to help?"

"She's back stage" the kid answered looking between my face and my hand around his arm.

Ooops.

I let go of him and walked towards the front stage.

People seemed too busy to notice me. So I jumped up on the stage and then walked slowly, almost like a super spy, minus the cool gadget, towards where the curtains were.

Usually I could have been worried, to know where exactly she was but I didn't even have to look.

I could hear her speaking.

I could hear her voice.

My heart started to beat frantically.

I had always loved her voice. There was something so musical about it... it was almost like... maybe like a violin, almost as if it glided. There was comfort and joy and a nice feeling that came with the sound of her voice.

I walked to the group where she was talking. She was facing me; the people listening to her had their back to me.

She was explaining them something about their costumes I think.

My heart was doing back flips.

I was tall enough that when I was few feet behind her listening crowd I could see her.

I could SEE her...

There she was, in her golden glory with her sparkling eyes and her warm smile and her pink lips and her perfect figure. She was just the same has when she had left, the same perfect Vanessa that made ever guy drool around and every girl want to tear her hair off.

How could she have hair so blond? How could she have so many pretty freckles? How could she be so beautiful?

I was staring intently at her, rejoicing by that fact, happy to just SEE her, to be able to lay my eyes on her, when she frowned just a little and then her eyes rested on me.

Could eyes make your heart stop? Because I swear mine did for a second.

My breath caught and then she was smiling at me, the warmest smile I had even seen on her face and it took me a whole flucking lot of control to not just push everyone out of the freaking way and grab her by the waist and then drive away with her to Liberty City where I ruled everything. I HAD unlocked everything there was to unlock in that game...

Focus Tyler!

Vanessa kept talking to her little group, her gaze still fixed on me while I had my gaze still fixed on her.

I would pick her up over Nariko in Heavenly Sword anytime and that was saying something...

And then she told her crowd "Well I think that's it for now you can go back to practicing" and while they all slowly left she stayed there, looking at me while I stayed in my spot looking at her.

"You got even taller since I left..." Vanessa finally whispered.

"You're still just the same..." I answered.

And before I had to say anything her smile became even warmer and she said "I missed you..."

And I told her "You have NO idea how much I missed YOU..."

She took a step closer as I took a deep breath "Really?" she asked

How could she even doubt that?

I just nodded, my eyes unable to stay fix on one spot, roaming all over her, trying to register everything about her, trying to be able to remember everything about her, every detail, everything...

"Well I guess we have some catching up to do then?" she said and she was now standing right in front of me barely a few feet separated us.

I had grown up. Her forehead was at the level of my lips now.

And just like that, without me having to say anything, she rested her hand on my cheek, lifting herself up on her toes a little and I bended my head and I kissed her.

Without having to fight with her, without having to argue.

I just kissed Vanessa, because I loved her and because apparently she too...