I'm effing tired, this is all you're getting, yes it' s full of mistakes, deal with it.

Enjoy guys because the writer is DOWN!!

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I spent the next morning sleeping.

I wasn't feeling so much like crap anymore. I mean I was usually really sick, but just the first day, and then I was better. But I was still worn out.

Dad told me I could have stayed all day but because I was a good student, well at least that's what I was telling myself, I didn't want to miss too much in a row and went to school in the afternoon.

Missing the morning and going to school in the afternoon is a weird feeling. It's like you missed a bunch of jokes and you're in an outside crowd or something. It was weird to explain, but it was a strange feeling.

Daph and Alex quickly spotted me, since I had texted them to tell them I would be coming to school in the afternoon.

For some reason, the way Daphnee was looking at me, I was worried for a second. Did she know about Blake? I hadn't told her, but I mean... she was much more observant than me. She had probably notice the fact that Blake wasn't at school for the rest of the day yesterday... I'm sure she guessed!!

And why the hell was I freaking over this? Because I mean who care if she knew I had spent all afternoon yesterday sleeping on Blake's lap?

Okay that sounded... not good? Well that actually sounded pretty nice... but not in the "everyone knows about it" type of thing.

The truth was, Daph was bound to make more little comments. I mean the girl basically had no censure what so ever when it came to those things! And I loved her and hated her for that...

"You feeling better?" she asked me.

"Ya sure..." I shrugged.

I mean I was feeling okay, still kinda woozy, but okay.

"When you'll finally finish that time machine, I hope you'll go in the future and bring that "Joy of being a girl" antidote! And then I want you to go in the past and tell Old-Me to just abandon the idea of working at the library cause Miss Pumpinjizzem is really becoming a huge pain in the ass!"

I burst laughing at that one, but then my eyes caught sight of Blake, at his locker speaking with Mark and Catherine... and that track team girl again! The one who had been laughing and touching his arm and all the other day!

Blake turned his head and saw me looking at him, and smiled the nice dimple smile, that made strange things to my stomach but I couldn't brush the thought away of the girl beside. Why the hell were they speaking together!?

"Emily and Blake make such a nice couple together, don't they?" Daph grinned beside me.

"Hmm?" I asked, confused a little.

Does she really mean that? Are they... are they really a couple?

No, no, of course they're not! I would have known right? He would have told me!!

"My god Lex, just breathe, I was just joking! You look like you're going to faint" Daph said mischievously.

"Just leave Kitty alone!" Alex interfered, looking up from his cellphone, texting as always "She's still feeling sick alright, give her a break" he sighed.

"I was just joking..." Daph mumbled and then the bell rang and we all headed towards our class.

Alex was walking in front, heading to Mrs. Muffin's class when a hand caught my arm.

"Hey, no hello? I'm hurt!" Blake said, and I turned around to look into his grey eyes who where playful. He had his gym bag beside him, strap on his shoulder, obviously heading to P.E. which was the complete other direction.

"You were having a conversation" I simply answered.

Don't ask question, don't ask question, I kept repeating in my head. The last thing I needed right now was to sound jealous or something! I was already obsessing enough, he didn't need to know the extends...

"You feeling alright?" he then ask, looking straight into my eyes, almost too intently, so much that I wanted to turn my gaze away.

Awkward all over again.

"Ya I'm fine!" I nodded for his benefit. "And we're going to be late now, and the last thing we need is to get more into trouble" I added.

Blake smirked a little, chuckling, but nodded too. "Fine. Bye" he said and turned around, heading to his class just as I did. But I heard his voice a second later "Hey, are you going to come to the game tonight?"

I shouted back "Ya!"

"Alright see you tonight!" Blake answered and then I walked straight to my class, a smile I couldn't control playing on the edge of my lips.

This was getting completely ridiculous!

The rest of the afternoon went down pretty smoothly and then school was over, we were Friday and the weekend was starting.

Tyler was staying over at Landon's so I didn't have to worry about him.

The game started at seven so I had the rest of the afternoon free to do as I pleased. For some reason my drawing table felt pretty inviting.

I got some of Blake's vinyls out and then started to draw. For no reason really, the landscape I was drawing oddly looked like a cemetery.

Aww, there was no point in arguing with my brain. As the music played around I kept drawing it, kept drawing the cemetery and then there was a figure in the darkness lying on the grass.

I was obsessed, I was dealing with it... I agreed with myself.

After a while, I went downstairs to fix myself something to eat. Spaghetti with left over sauce was the grand prize winner.

Dad was working late and I was still alone. I contemplated calling Daph to come over earlier but then decided against it. That was plans to have her try to make me spill things that needed no spilling.

I rather have my relation with Blake in the dark, as in, me being confused just like everyone instead of not having it at all.

And then it was six thirty and Daph yellow New Beetle was honking in my driveway.

I checked myself one last time. Jeans on. Baggy green shirt on. High tops shoes on. Grey hoodie in my hands. I was all good.

I didn't forget about locking the door this time, wanting to punch myself in the face for the previews incident and then rushed over to my favourite hippie's car.

"Sooo... you didn't bring a big "Marry Me Blake" poster? Or did you draw "Blake's number one fan" on your chest and are planning on flashing whenever he'll do a touchdown?" Daph asked the second I stepped in.

I rolled my eyes.

Great just great.

"Flashing is your department Daph..." I simply answered shaking my head slightly, smirking a little.

There was no point in denying or arguing with her, I knew I'd lose!

"Aww, no fun anymore" Daph simply said shaking her head and turned up the volume.

I frowned "Bohemian Rhapsody? Really?"

"Freddie, rest in peace!" Daph just said, making a double tap on her heart and raising her hand up.

I shook my head, chuckling.

"Travis and Ashley will be waiting for us in the parking lot..." she suddenly while we were waiting at a red light.

"Good!" I smiled "I like Travis, him and Alex are so cute together..."

"Ya... but that stupid Bear just needs to get through his head that he has to admit to everyone he's not attracted to vagina already! Otherwise he's going to scare that pretty boy away!"

I laughed "That's a nice way to put things!"

"That's me, Miss Putting-Things-Nicely!"

When we reached school and parked, Daph immediately spotted Alex's boyfriend so we walked over to them.

"So, ready for three hours of masculine men tackling each others to the ground in a real manly way?" Daph asked smirking.

"Three hours?" Ashley asked, shocked a little.

Daph simply nodded "Yope!"

"Thought football in High school was shorter!" Ashley freaked a little.

"The quarters are twelve minutes but I mean they stop the clock between plays and penalties and you have half time and such! So well it could be three hours, but it's most likely to be around two hour and a half..." I started to explain but I had obviously lost them.

I shrugged. Oh well.

We walked inside the stadium, and then spotted a good empty place to sit.

"So are you ready to see Alex getting tackled on the ground?" Daphnee asked Travis smirking a little.

"Isn't he supposed NOT to?"

"Well that's what we want but it usually happens" I laughed.

When it was finally time for the players to run out, Daph had succeeded in freaking out Travis completely.

But I stopped paying attention to her.

Because usually I didn't really take notice of our school players, because well... I wanted to spot hot guys on the other team, but this time... I knew exactly who I wanted to stare at.

And I wanted to punch myself in the face for that.

I quickly spotted Blake's Jersey with the eleven on it.

Alright... a guy in uniform, hot. Blake in his football uniform... oh god... wow, just wow. All coherent thoughts were pretty much impossible for a good minute.

How the hell had I stayed oblivious to him all these years? This was really starting to nag me! How the hell could I have NOT been obsess with him sooner?

The blue uniform with white strip on the side looked good on him... heck good was the understatement of the year. And there was just something about him running on there, with the big shoulders and the tight spandex pants... oh god I was ashamed of myself and I wasn't even sharing the thoughts out loud...

This look so natural for him, I couldn't NOT find him hot on that field!

I wasn't even paying attention to the other team, and didn't even notice to toss of the coin to know who had the kickoff. But then the red and yellow uniforms were the ones running in line after the ball, the ones kicking it.

Our team was good in both offense and defense and as the guys had mentioned the other day, we hadn't lost a game against them for a long time now, so I wasn't that worried about the outcome of it. Alex could show off to his boyfriend on his manly qualities, and I could enjoy staring at Blake.

Again, I was ashamed! I mean I had always been the kind of girl that would watch the game more for the game than the players. Blake was making me into some pathetic girl... and for some reason, I didn't even mind...

And then it was time for the first play. The guys took their spots and then Alex called the play and Clark threw him the ball.

He was going to give it to Blake, he wasn't looking at Peter enough, I could see it, but when Blake ran in front of him to get the ball, the other guys doing a good job in their blocking, for some reason, and I don't know whose fault it was, the ball dropped.

What the hell!!

Was it Blake who hadn't caught the ball or Alex who hadn't gave it to him right?

"What just happened?" Travis frowned.

"A bad move, that's what just happened!" Daph laughed "You won't be flashing soon Lexi if they play that way!"

I scowled a little.

And then I could see that Alex and Blake looked like they were arguing a little on the field, but settled it or something because then they were taking positions again and the ref was placing the ball.

And then Alex called the play.

After that little incident, everything seemed to get bad into motion and they seemed to catch their usual pace though there was something obviously wrong with Alex. He seemed stiff or something.

And Travis seemed to wince everytime someone so much as touched Alex. And I think he didn't enjoy the slap on the butt either. I repressed a chuckled when that happened. His face was hilarious.

Daphnee proceeded to give a full report on every guy in the team to Ashley, sure to give every detail she had about all of them, asking me to pitch in now and then, even though I was pretty focused on Blake cute ass when he ran. Whatever he was hot. I could admit that much to myself. I liked to stare at him when he was waiting by the sidelines while the defense was playing, without his helmet on. Really hot too!

The game ended 24-14 which wasn't that bad, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't what the guys had wanted. But they won.

After the game, we walked over to Travis car, waiting for Alex to come meet us.

I saw Peter and Justin get out first, laughing, but like a lot and they headed our way.

I wondered what was funny, but they spoke before I could ask.

"Hey, you coming to eat at with us?" Peter asked. "We all agreed for Casa di Mama"

"Ya" I answered smiling.

And then the boys were looking at the two strangers to them.

"Peter, Justin, this is Travis and Ashley" I introduced them.

There was shaking of the hands and then Alex was running outside towards us.

"And here's our quarterback!" Justin laughed. There seemed to be something funny there. I mean I probably wasn't the only one to have noticed there was something wrong about Alex's way of playing today. But it was like... there was something else funny here.

"Hey guys!" Alex smiled, but he looked a little nervous.

Idiot!

"Hey!" Travis smiled at him too.

The parking lot was slowly being emptied of all the cars, people from the winning team cheering, from the losing one scowling.

I saw Simon walking out. He was in the team and used to hang with us before starting to date Patricia, one of the cheerleaders and now, they both didn't spend times with anyone anymore, just themselves. It was kinda sad and pathetic in a way. He used to be nice.

"So I guess we'll see you there, we're going to drive right away to be sure to have a table for everyone alright?" Peter told Alex.

"Perfect, see you in a few!" Alex nodded and then when they were both out of hearing range he looked at Travis "So... okay, ya usually I'm better alright..." he trailed looking worrier than ever.

I repressed my laugh.

"Well look at the bright side, the pants looked good on you" Travis shrugged and then laughed at him.

And then I heard Stacey's piercing voice shout Blake's name over the door where they walked out.

I turned to look and wasn't sure if I should settle on swooning out loud at his sexiness or scowling at Stacey's presence.

Why the hell was she coming to charge again? Hadn't the message been clear enough yet?

God she was dumb...

I don't know what Blake told her, but he really didn't seem to give a crap about her, which made me happier than I should, and walked over us too. Though he looked... kinda pissed?

"Hey so what's going on now? Are we going to eat first?" Blake asked Alex.

"Ya, Peter and Justin are already heading. Italian won. And Tiffany's party afterwards."

"Good." Blake nodded and then looked at Travis and Ashley "I don't think I've ever seen you guys before..." he frowned.

"We don't come to school here" Ashley explained and then presented herself.

"Well as long as you guys weren't cheering for the other team, we don't mind supporters" Blake smiled and then looked at Travis and there was something weird about the way he was looking at him.

What the hell was he thinking right now? I mean the guy was observant. Was he already guessing about Alex? Knowing him he probably was...

"Alright well, I'm starving I'm leaving!" Blake explained and swung his bag over his shoulder, walking over his car.

Little bitch.

He didn't even say hello!

Why was he always doing little stunts like that!?

Infuriating prick!

Urrgg!!

Daphnee had a smug little grin on her face when Blake's car drove away "Don't want to hear about it! Let's just go eat!"

"Fine with me!" she laughed and then we headed to her car, leaving Alex and Travis to talk with each other, Ashley deciding to stay with them.

We drove over to the Italian restaurant, and we weren't surprise to see there wasn't that much car in the parking. I mean it was nine thirty after all.

But there was no way in hell that we'd go to the party at Tiffany's house, who was one of the cheerleaders, because well, who the hell goes to a party at nine thirty? No epic party starts at nine thirty. Nine thirty is way too freaking early. Ten was even pushing your luck. But then you didn't want to get there too late. And you didn't want to arrive at a perfect time either, like you know eleven, or eleven thirty or twelve. Daphnee's rule was that you needed to get to a party at eleven thirty seven. Earlier you'd get bored and leave the party before he became good and later you'd miss too much of the beginning of the fun.

So that's why we always ate after the game.

Daph and I waited for Travis and Alex's car to arrive before walking in. Peter, Justin, Davis, Jimmy, Mark, Catherine, Dwayne, Janna and Blake were already there.

"Shot gun Lexi!!" Blake yelled when we headed towards the huge table, well actually the many tables joined together.

"What the hell?" I frowned at Blake, while Daph was snickering beside me.

"I called dibbs on you. Now you sit on my lap!" he smirked.

He's being weird right now...

"I'm not sitting on your lap!" I told him, rolling my eyes.

"You are!"

"Are not!"

"Are too!"

"Okay right now, you're annoying the schnitzel out of me Blake"

Blake just gave me a big huge grin.

What the hell was he trying to do? He takes care of me when I'm feeling like crap, but then he ignores me, and then he's annoying!

It was time like these I'd like to have some "Blake for dummies" manual or something...

"Just sit beside the guy so he can finally shut up! He's had a moody day!" Davis laughed and all the guys joined.

I rolled my eyes for their benefit and sat beside Blake.

"Why are you acting like an idiot?" I asked Blake while looking through the menu, but not really seeing the words.

"I'm not acting, why would you say that?" Blake asked, eating more garlic bread.

"I don't know you're like... putting the "Blake's a jerk" mask..." I trailed, frowning to myself but realizing it was exactly how this felt.

"I'm just normally annoying, haven't you figured that out by now?" Blake smirked.

I scowled a little "It's hard to keep up with you, I hope you know that!"

"Well, good thing you got that new boyfriend of yours in order to not have to spend time with me. Tell me where was he yesterday when you were crying-" Blake started to say but I stopped him by hitting the top of his head with the menu.

"What the hell?" Was that the problem? Was he assuming that I was going out with Travis? Was he... jealous? "You little bitch! I'm practically stalking you so don't you go on and imply I don't like spending time with you, and trust me, there's NOTHING going on between me and Travis"

Good thing everyone was having loud conversation around...

Blake looked at me, and then started to laugh "Did you just call me little bitch?!"

"Hell ya I did!"

Blake just laughed more. "Sorry..." he finally trailed.

"For what?"

"For... jumping to conclusion... I don't know, being a little bitch?"

I shook my head, laughing a little and then everyone started to cheer around the table, the waitress finally coming to take our orders.