So.. I hope you guys will cool down now! ;P

I said about one hour! No one hour exactly!

LOL

Anyway this is long so no complaining! ;P

Alright it's 3h30 in the morning here, I have to finish reading Brave New World for my test on it at 8h30! LOL

Alright I had all sort of things to say but you guys are getting impatient and I need to sleep at one point right? ;P

Read, enjoy, vote and comment! :DD

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I was still staring intently at my cellphone, almost waiting for it to tell me what was wrong, what had just happened, but then Alex yelled again "Lexi what's up?"

For one second I was a little pissed.

Couldn't he have waited before screaming and interrupting Blake! He was actually going to tell me something! I mean I was finally slowly beginning to understand him and this time Alex had screw it up!

And for a second I also thought about the fact that maybe... maybe Blake was... unhappy about the fact that I was with Alex, maybe thinking I was alone with him... I didn't want get into dangerous territory but could that be true?

Maybe...

"Kitty!!?" Alex yelled again, and I sighed heavily and walked back to the living room.

"What?" I asked, my voice a little sharper than I had intended.

I mean this wasn't his fault, it was mine. I shouldn't be mad at him.

"What happened? What's wrong?" he asked me concerned deep in his features.

"It's..." I was going to say nothing, because it always felt kinda wrong to share what happened between Blake and me, as insignificant as it was, but this time, it just felt like I had to say it, because I had to do something... "It's Blake; he's the one who called. He sounded... off..." I frowned.

I had to call him back, or something. I couldn't let things like that!

But I felt guilty for thinking like that; I mean I basically spent almost all my time with Blake lately. The least I could do was spend ONE night with my friends, one entire night without worrying about him, right?

"Off, I'm going to jump off a cliff, or off, I need to take off my clothes and bang you right now?" Daph asked, smirking just a little.

I glared at her and mumbled "Shut up Daph, not even funny..."

She looked like she was going to say something but Alex stopped her and looked at me "Call him back"

I wanted to answer that that was exactly what I had been telling myself ever since I had hung up but let him finish what he had to say.

"Call him, and tell him to come over here or something... or you can always leave..." he told me frowning a bit, like he was thinking about this deeply.

I felt guilty for actually wanting to just grab my things and run out of the house, speeding over to Blake's ...

Like I actually had a huge impact one Blake Eaton's life...

But a tiny tiny voice in my head, said that... maybe I did... not a huge impact, but still a little one.

I mean, after all, the guy had kinda shared his life story with me! And as much as he was probably still not telling me, he had trusted me with a whole lot! And that meant something. And I shouldn't take it for granted! And I should definitely do something right now.

"Just... just please everyone shush this time alright?" I said and without waiting for the answer walked towards the kitchen again and called him back.

It seemed like the seconds between each rings were endless.

I was really making everything into such a big deal! When had I become such a drama sucker?

And then he finally picked up his first words were "I thought I had just hung up hadn't I?"

That was the exact kind of remark that made me want to call him a little bitch.

But I restrained myself.

I was actually getting quite good at that...

"Well someone sounds like he's in a fantastic mood!"

"I thought this conversation was over? We'll see each other tomorrow for the play, go have fun, I need my sleep now. I'm actually going to sleep; you know what you've been telling me to do?"

"You sound piss..." I couldn't help myself from saying this time.

"I sound tired" he reply automatically

In a small voice, I asked "Come over..."

"What?"

"Well it's me Daphnee, Alex and two of his friends. We could always use more company..."

Blake was silent on the other line of the phone for a few seconds and then he sighed "You don't need to do this you know that right?"

"Do what?"

"Try to fix things that don't need fixing..."

I frowned again "What do you mean?"

"Just because you think you did something wrong doesn't mean you have to make everything alright Pumpkin"

"What are you implying" I said this time my eyes narrowing.

Why did it felt like he was slowly beginning to have a smirk in his face? That arrogant bastard!

"Thanks for the invite Pumpkin, next time maybe, but you know what? I'm actually going to sleep tonight and be all fresh and radiating for our play tomorrow"

"Ya you do that..."

Little bitch.

"Bye Pumpkin, and remember to put the right amount of emotion when you say how big I am alright?" Blake said and this time the smirk was completely evident.

How in hell could he go from feeling like he was going to shoot himself and then back to being an annoying smirking jerk?

"Get lost Blake!" I sighed.

"Anytime with you Pumpkin" he laughed and then hung up.

Again, I found myself staring at my cellphone in amazement.

Okay, what had just happened?

Was Blake bi-polar? That could be a good answer for his weird behavior sometimes.

"Is the sexy running-back coming? Will I have the right to dissect him?!" Daphnee yelled from the living room.

I rolled my eyes and walked back to it.

"He's not coming over" I simply answered.

"So you're leaving?" Alex asked.

"No, I' staying right here!" I said with a fake full grin and then let myself fall back on the white couch beside Ashley, careful not to sit on Nana's tail since she had kinda followed Ashley on it. For some reason the dog at found a particular liking to Travis best friend and was now following her everywhere.

She was lucky, Nana didn't like everyone.

"So..." I trailed, wanting to have a conversation back on track "You guys are coming to the game on Friday or not?"

And then the talking started again.

The rest of the night went pretty much uneventfully, if you called Daph crazy outburst uneventful. It seemed that Ashley did a pretty good job at containing the outburst.

Alex and Travis were cute together and I was pretty grateful for the fact that they didn't do some heavy make-out sessions in our faces. I mean it was kind of a one step at the time deal...

"So, not that I would love to develop more on the atrocity that is Cassie's half shaved hair right now but I have to get home before Kevin does so I don't need to see that piece of garbage we call his face!" Daph said, at one point, getting up from her chair.

I smirked "Still not found of your half-brother?"

"After ten years it's a done deal." she scowled.

Kevin was the demon in Daphnee's life.

Daph had never known her father. He mother had never even told her what is name was. No one knew.

That was something Daph had wondered during all her life. There was a period she actually thought her father must have been someone famous, and that was why her mother wouldn't tell her. Let's just say she had prayed real hard it wasn't Paul McCartney.

And then after a few years, her mom had met Kevin's father, and they had gotten married and moved in together. Daphnee had never liked her new older sibling, but in her defense the thing was kinda obnoxious and stupid most of the time, but not fun stupid, annoying stupid.

"Didn't he have his apartment now?" Alex asked, getting up too.

We all followed their lead.

"His roommate kicked him out... he's THAT annoying... and guess what? Kevin, the guy with the LEAST compassion is going to go back to school to study to be... drum roll... a freaking nurse!" she scowled.

I could be teasing her right now, but I restrained myself.

"How awful is this, trying to help people..." Alex said, in a nagging voice, smiling mischievously.

Guess he didn't restrain himself.

"I'll make you endure him, you'll see!" she scowled.

I couldn't help but laugh at that one.

"What's so funny?" she asked raising a perfect arched eyebrow.

"You're not enduring him, you're complaining about him all the time!" I kept laughing.

"I'll let this pass because I'm always annoying you, but ya... beware..." she trailed, pointing her finger at me.

I quickly controlled the laugh but kept the grin.

"We should go too... we have a biology exam tomorrow" Ashley said, frowning, patting absentmindedly Nana on the head, keeping her on her feet and not jumping in her hands.

Travis didn't look like he enjoyed that either.

"Go on, school's the priority" Alex said with a little smirk.

"I'll go as long as I get to see you with those spandex pants before the game I'll survive" Travis said with a smirk of his own and that was my cue to run to the girls.

Alright!! Too much!! Had enough, thank you!!

"Alright, bye bye my Day Trippers! See ya later!" Daph yelled, waving at us and then she walked out.

We all said bye in unison.

"So I guess we'll see you again on Friday" I smiled at Ashley.

"Looks like it" she smiled too.

"Good luck on that biology exam"

"Good luck with that running back hottie" she grinned at me.

I rolled my eyes "Ya, thanks!"

"And for what it's worth I'm sure he cares a lot about you too" she told me and then Travis was yelling bye and dragging her outside, holding her by the waist and pushing her, smiling, and kissing the top of her hair.

I wanted to say something like "When did I imply I cared about him" but there was really no point right?

So I just yelled bye like they did and then the door closed behind them and I turned around to face a grinning from ear to ear Alex.

"You're happy?" I laughed.

"I'm happy" he nodded enthusiastically.

It was when we walked back into the kitchen that we realized they had leave us the dishes duty.

Good thing Alex had a dishwasher, though that thing couldn't have any pieces of food stuck on the plates left, like nothing, so we had to rinse the plates on by one, and then of course the pans.

If it hadn't been for the fact that I was a little scared to go back home, all alone in the big house I probably would have abandoned him too...

"You like the fact that's he so open about it right?" I smiled at Alex at one point giving him a plate.

"Yes, I'd like to be able to be honest like him..." Alex answered and put the plate in the dishwasher.

We were done with the big pans already.

"Well then do it!" I told him, rinsing the plate in my hands.

"I can't..." Alex trailed shaking his head.

"Of course you can! Okay the guys might freak but I'm sure they'll survive! You'll still be Alex, you'll still be their quarterback, their leader! They can't deny that!"

"And what about you?" he asked, while I gave him the plate.

"What about me?" I frowned and turned around, facing the sink.

"How are people going to... act with you? Do you really want people to start saying that the only guy you dated was gay? Isn't it going to... to be... humiliating for you? I don't want to put you in a weird spot Kitty..."

He kinda had a point here... that could definitely be humiliating...

"You know, one of the first thing my mom said when I told her I was gay wasn't something about what my grandparents were going to think or any blah blah like that, she asked "And what about Lexi, did you know when you were going out with her?" She was freaking out for you actually, saying how wrong I had been with you... and you know, she was so right... I've... I've done all wrong... and if I could I'd change things... but I can't..." Alex said his voice almost a whisper at the end, not seeing the plate I was handing him.

I put it in the dishwasher for him, and then closed it, since it was the last one, before taking a step to stand right in front of him.

"Alright, listen because I'm saying this for the last time alright?" I told him and he nodded "Yes, you hurt me when you told me the truth, it was sort of a given; but now, now I'm fine with it, completely fine! I don't mind, and I want you to stop thinking about me and then impact on ME, and think about you and the impact on YOU, and think about your boyfriend in this too alright? You don't want to lose him for something stupid! You two are too cute together; I don't want to be the reason for anything bad between you two alright?"

Alex just started into my eyes and then gave me a real Papa Bear hug "I love you Kitty"

I laughed "Love you too Papa Bear!"

I drove home slowly in the dark streets. I had a weird feeling in my stomach and felt overly exhausted. I just wanted to get home, take a shower and go to bed.

When I finally reached my parking spot in the driveway I all but ran to the door, not wanting to get caught by killers or rapist or something, and unlocked the door quickly before running up my stairs, right to my room.

I pondered for a while about the pros and cons of calling Blake, or something, just to feel less alone, maybe ask him for a late night visit at my window, but actually laughed at my idiocy before slapping my palm to my forehead.

And I had to let him sleep, and I HAD to stop obsessing!

I mean... maybe he was just making me think he cared, or something, maybe I was getting mixed signals or whatever... I had it all wrong. He didn't care about me like that.

He just found amusement in teasing me... but at the same time he trusted me...

Arrg!

All that over thinking was giving me headaches and stomachaches!

I restrained myself from calling Blake, but did call dad to see if everything was going well, but talked quickly with him, because him and Ty were busy.

I finally crawled under my sheets and repeated over and over again "Stop thinking about Blake Eaton" and feel asleep to that thought.

"Stop thinking about Blake Eaton..."

When I woke up the morning I knew I was going to be in big trouble. And it had nothing to do with our presentation...

Because it was my lucky time of the month, and I was going to be sick as hell!!

Mother Nature thought it would be funnier to make me suffer more. I had lazy ovaries to say the least and every time I was sick, but half the time was worst than the other, and now I had gotten "the worst time"

I had a hard time get out of my bed and into the bathroom.

I was down to my last tampon and when I opened my cabinet, just my luck there wasn't any painkiller left.

I wanted to cry.

And now dad and Ty weren't home, there was no way in hell I could drive myself... For a millisecond I wished for my mother...

I crawled back to my bed and curled into a ball, holding my legs tightly. But the pain wasn't going anywhere. I wanted to rip my freaking uterus out!! It felt like there was no position where I could feel just comfortable.

I just wished I could fall asleep, and the pain would be gone when I woke up but it was so uncomfortable and painful that there was no way I could sleep.

I wanted to go take a warm bath but I knew I could never ever reach it, at the end of the hall, without crawling on the ground.

Tears of pain slid on my face.

God sometimes being a girl was such a bitch...

I held my tummy as tightly as I could and cried in my bed. My jaws were tight and I held my breath, thinking that maybe it could help... and sometimes it did... for like one second.

I was rocking in my bed, biting my sheets to take the pain away but nothing seemed to work.

Perfect just freaking perfect!

About one hour later, still rocking in my bed crying, that's when I heard the door downstairs open and someone scream.

"LEXI!! I swear to god if you just decided to sleep in I'm going to strangle you!!!"

God dammit!

Like I needed this right now? Like a needed a guy to show up here? Like I needed BLAKE to show up here!!

This was going to be SO embarrassing! He was the LAST person I wanted to see right now!

Please please god make him leave!!

And how in hell had he gotten in?

"LEAVE!!" I screamed and held my belly tighter.

God it hurt.

"Lexi?!" Blake screamed back and then I heard him run up the stairs, two by two.

I snuggled my sheets to my face, trying to hide when the door opened.

This was the perfect time for my invisibility skills to just pop out!

"What's wrong Pumpkin?" Blake pressed and he was walking towards my bed, standing right beside me, and then bended to my level.

I didn't answer and bit my lips.

This was SOOOO embarrassing!!

"Are you alright? You've been crying??" Blake kept on going, and then pressed his palm to my forehead, to check temperature probably.

I groaned and covered my face.

"Lexi!!"

The tears came back and I curled tighter.

Go away, please please go away, I begged mentally.

Maybe if I ignored him he would leave...

Oh god... this was like, the worst scenario possible!

And then Blake looked at my position and frowned. And then something seemed to click in his head.

"You need painkiller or something"

Crap! Okay I was officially humiliated at a level that was... well HIGH!

"I don't have any!!" I groaned, mad.

Leave leave leave leave, I chanted in my head.

"Wait two seconds!!" Blake said and then he ran out.

Okay, what was going on now?

Prayer answered? He was leaving?

But Blake came back in less than a minute later and then walked in my bathroom, took a glass of water, came back to my side and gave me the glass and a pills from a little plastic bottle of medicine, hospital kind of things.

"Are these really painkillers or some drug to rape me afterwards" I frowned.

"Pumpkin, please just take the damn pills!" Blake said rolling his eyes, frowning.

Well either way I didn't care, I wouldn't feel anything anymore both ways.

So I gulped down without more questioning.

This was me being REALLY stupid...

Blame the damn lazy ovaries!

Why did I even trust him?

Because I was obsess with the guy...

And then Blake got up and took the sheets off of me, his hands sliding under my body.

Oh crap!

Rape drug! RAPE DRUG!!!

"What the hell??" I shrieked, but not that loud cause well, I was still in freaking PAIN!

"I'm not stupid Pumpkin; I know what's going on. I have four cousins. I practically grew up with girls! You'll feel better in a warm bath"

This was weird, extremely weird... But the pain was too much to bear for me to argue with him.

And of course I was extremely aware of my SpongeBob SquarePants green tank top and black short/boxers that was the only thing covering me.

When I was going to dress up again I would put sweat pants and a huge shirt or something... Oh god this was so embarrassing!