So.......

Not my best piece of work BUT if you don't like it I'm gonna internaly decapitate you (I have no clue how to, but Papa Bear is supposed to show me.. lol.. but like honestly.. he'll show me..)

So anyway.. I just wanted to be done with this part.. want to get to the good stuff already ;P

So again, feel free to point out my mistakes.. my hands are like slower than usual and I'm about to space out in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.......

[wakes up] Read, enjoy, vote and comment!! [passes out again]

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"I mean I could always rip this part... and then maybe this one too..." Daphnee pondered.

We were in the middle of a 'sorta' fancy clothes shop, and Daph, who never liked to wait for a dress room had put a shirt from the racks over herself and was looking at it in the mirror, wondering how to improve it, loudly, so the sell lady could hear and freak, especially since she was holding the shirt in a way that made it clear she was about to put her plan into action.

"And I mean if we rip the fluffy thing from this ugly blouse, and sew it up right there... could make something presentable..." she smirked.

"Oh and you know what? I think I saw glue in Lexi's purse! We could try something right away!" Alex joined in, and I heard the selling lady gasp.

"I'm sorry, but I'm going to have to ask you to remove the shirt..." she said to Daphnee and then I was mentally begging her to not take ALL the shirts off and walk around a shop without a top... again...

"If we can't even try to improve fashion these days..." Daph mumbled and threw the shirt in the selling lady's shocked face, dragging me and Alex by the arms, out of the shop, before bursting laughing.

"Aww it's sad how seriously this poor lady takes her job..." she trailed shaking her head.

"But this was a high price shop Dada, she had to protect her precious merchandise from bums like you" Alex laughed.

"Oh please... high price? If I had a million I wouldn't buy one piece of clothes there... actually if I had a million dollars, I'd buy everything there is in the Beatle shop... s'just a shame I can't order anything from the U.K. one... we need a friend in U.K. or at least a freaking mail address!!" Daph said and then I thought about Blake and about how he could have a U.K. address for us... and I really should stop this new constant thinking of Blake... it was really getting into a problem!!

"Alright, let's go to this shop!" Daph pointed happily, smirking, and I recognized the shop with the gay guy...

What was she supposed to do if the guy wasn't there? I hadn't thought about that...

"You sure...? Because we could always go to the other shop over there... looks more like your type of clothes..." Alex said looking a little odd.

Oh ya... Daph was sooo right about this!

"My type of clothes? Because you think I have a type of clothes?" she snorted and walked right in it.

Alex didn't look so eager to join.

"MY PIMP!!! If you don't come help me pick clothes I will drag you by your own!!" she threatened in the shop and Alex reluctantly followed.

The last big pop song was trashing the stereo and a guy, that I recognized as the gay seller from last time was folding shirts.

When he turned around, to greet us probably, I saw his pretty face again... last time it was before Daphnee had left for her vacations in Morocco, another shopping day like this one. She had obviously found him attractive, I mean it just hit you in the face automatically, it was in his brown hairs, shoved back, his smiling features, and nice body built.

His eyes were glued on Alex, almost shinning.

"A-" he started to say smiling but the letter caught in his throat, his eyes darting between me and Daph and Alex and I think Alex was making "cut your neck" moves with his hand "Halalalalalala..." he kinda sang trying to hide obviously "How can I help you?"

"Cut the crap sexy boy and let's just get to the point!" Daph said, walking to him.

"I'm sorry I don't..." he trailed but Daph cut him

"Does my ass look fat in those jeans?" she asked, turning a little on the side, showing it to him.

I rolled my eyes at her...

"No, it looks really great!" he answered, smiling.

"What about hers?" she asked pointing at me, motioning me to turn around on myself with her index, which I did, still rolling my eyes.

"Perfect too!"

"Alright and what do you think about HIS ass?" she said, her voice evil, pointing Alex whose eyes threatened to fall out of their sockets.

Oh god no...

No, no, no, no, no, no... she hadn't just gone there? Please tell me she hadn't...

"Great too... but could always look better in spandex football pants" he answered after a few seconds of hesitation.

"Travis!!" Alex almost squealed, his eyes bulging.

"Oh please Alex this is just ridiculous!"

"Ah HA!! In your face Alex!!! I KNEW it!! Just knew it!! You should have seen your face the other time we came here, all red and blushing when you looked at him" Daph beamed.

"Daph, shut up!" Alex mumbled, and the guy, Travis smiled "It's not, we're not, why are you..." he kept on going looking worryingly at me.

"No you shut up Alex... Now..." she said and turned to the guy "Travis, he said right? Travis... what's going on between you and our best friend?"

"Well... I guess he's the one who should be telling you..." Travis trailed, looking a little worried now.

Stupid Alex, making his 'probably' boyfriend worrying by not wanting us to meet him and freaking out...

"Travis don't... look it's just..." Alex said looking at him and then turned towards Daphnee "Couldn't you just ask... Just..." he stopped, shaking his head, and then stared straight at me "Lexi I'm so sorry... I wanted to tell you sooner... I'm so sorry..." he whispered.

Ya... I guess it could have been nice of him to mention it to me sooner... I mean didn't I kinda deserved that?

"You're Lexi?" Travis asked, looking at me, smiling again.

It was really a shame the guy was gay... he was really hot!

"Ya..."

"I heard a lot about you..." he still smiled.

"And I've seen him text you a lot of times" I laughed shortly.

And just like that, I didn't care if Alex hadn't found the guts to tell me sooner... I mean I understood that it was hard for him...

I wasn't the center of this universe... people had their own problems... everyone did... and Alex too... just like me... and it was hard to deal with... just as me...

"Ya... he gets kind of stalkery..." Travis laughed.

"Okay so wait up... like really you and him, is it a thing? Are you a package deal now?" Daphnee asked.

"Well... Alex? Are we?" Travis asked.

"I guess we kinda are..." Alex half smiled and I was happy to see him, kinda happy...

But I mean, the concept of Alex being with a guy was kinda hard to grasp... it just felt weird...

But I wasn't going to mention that... I was happy for him, happy he had found happiness, and someone he might really love this time...

"Oh goodies!" Daph smiled hugely "Oh and you'll see, you'll like us!" she told Travis "I mean we might be weird but not like bad weird! Us we're weird but good weird not freaky weird "let's kill everyone and have sex with their dead bodies" you know?"

I rolled my eyes again, and Travis smiled, Alex a little more too...

And strangely, when she had mentioned the let's kill everyone thing, I had thought about Blake and the necrophilia comments...

And I wanted to see Blake right now... I don't know... things would fell less weird if he was there... It was such an odd way to think but it was honest.

There was a nice feeling with Blake, confusion a lot maybe, but still... I was always laughing with him... and having fun...

Alright Lexi, just DROP IT!!!

Stop thinking about him, this is SO not the moment...

"Alright let's give the love birds a few minutes!" Daph interrupt my thinking and then dragged me out of the shop.

"And you were the one who so desperately wanted to come here!" I snorted.

"I'm sorry... I hadn't thought about the whole you and him deal. I just thought about the fact that our friend wasn't being completely honest with us. I didn't want him to have to hide anything. I thought I'd make things easier but it was stupid cause I didn't think about you..."

"Don't worry about it girl..." I half smiled and sat at a bench, her beside me.

"No! I was stupid. Well I'm stupid... but really really sorry about it!"

"I know don't worry"

Few minutes later Alex joined us, and we kept walking around the mall.

We stopped at a food court, and ordered pizza for the three of us, and then sat at a table.

Daphnee was babbling about some fact, that was probably pretty interesting, but just the way Alex looked guiltily at me made me unable to concentrate on anything else.

"Alright, if you guys don't care about it, I'll go find Jeff, I'M sure he'll like my lists!" Daph said dramatically and got up and away.

"I'm sorry Kitty..." Alex automatically said.

"Don't, really you don't need to do this, it's fine, I'm fine... I'm happy for you actually! You deserve to be with someone you can love, someone you do love..."

"Aw, don't say that Kitty... I love you, I just... I'm so sorry... sorry for hurting you, sorry for replacing you, if it's what it feels like, basically sorry for everything, the last thing I want is to hurt you again..."

"Don't worry, you aren't hurting me Alex... I'm happy for you..." I smiled at him and I was.

I really was.

Alex wasn't my boyfriend anymore, and truthfully, now that I really thought about it, he never really had been that for me...

Alex was my friend. That was the place he was meant to take in my life...

Daphnee came back a few minutes later, and then we shopped a little more, and finally drove back to Alex place.

"You'll come watch a game at my place tomorrow right?" Alex asked, as I walked towards Daph's car.

"Ya" I smiled and then got in the car and drove back home.

"I'm home!" I announced when I walked through the threshold but didn't hear any answer.

I walked up the stairs and could hear Ty's video games.

"Hey there" I said as I opened his door.

"Hey..."

"Where's dad?"

"Out with Anthony again... I think they were going to go see a game of something... don't remember what..." Ty trailed, his eyes always glued to the screen.

I was glad to think that dad was out with a friend.

This only could be good for him.

But Ty was still sad.

"I talked with Vanessa yesterday" I said, sitting beside him, crossed legged on his bed and felt him stiffen "And we're going to find a way to have her come visit for a few days... That would be nice right?"

I hoped that could cheer him up... because otherwise I had nothing...

"And then what? She comes but then she leaves?"

No, not helping...

"Ty... look..." I started to say but he cut me, handing me a joystick.

"Less talking more killing" he told me and then I started to play Call of Duty with him, shooting everything in sight and not thinking...

Not thinking about the fact that Ty was still sad, or the fact that my best friend had a boy friend, or that I hadn't had news from Blake still...

At the end of the evening, Ty looked a little happier.

I didn't know if it was because of all the zombie killing or because he had thought more about Vanessa coming here and seen good in it, and wasn't about to ask, but I was happier too...

But Blake still hadn't called...

And that didn't make me happier...

I went to sleep again, still waiting for a call or a text, anything to prove me he was still alive or something...

Maybe I was just crazy and he was an invention of my imagination... maybe I had all made him up and he wasn't real... that would explain a lot of things... all the confusing things about him...

God. Why did I care so much?

I didn't freak when Van didn't call me for a day!!

I didn't sleep well again, always checking the cellphone lying on my bedside table and was pissed at myself when I finally fell asleep...

I woke up and wasn't surprise to see I had over slept and it was way past noon.

I got out of bed, looking for everyone and found a note on the fridge.

Ty was gone to play soccer with his friends, and dad had a meeting to attempt to... I was all alone...

Alone with my mind.

My damn mind that couldn't get over Blake!!

I wanted to distract myself until I'd drive to Alex's place to watch the football game and settled on drawing but nothing I did made sense, and I got worked up against everything so I just abandoned the project and picked a book from my library and read, without really seeing the words.

Don't think about him, don't think about him, don't think about him, why hasn't he called, don't think about him...

Around four I got dressed and tried to do something with the mess I called my hair and then drove to Alex's place.

He opened the door for me, explained his parents had gone out to dinner together and I could hear the twins shouting at the screen in the living room.

"As the game even started yet?" I asked Alex.

"It's curling right now I think..." he frowned and laugh, but his eyes still had the worried look from yesterday.

If only he knew how little that incident worried me, compare to someone else...

"Curling... lame" I trailed and walked to the TV and found the twins engrossed with the game.

"Hey Lexi!!" they both said at the same time and then pushed each other, laughing.

I smiled at them.

Hanging with the guys should make me forget about everything.

"You sitting between the two last small piece of heaven on earth?" Cameron asked, smiling mischievously.

I rolled my eyes but let myself fall ion the tiny space they left me to sit on, making me lean my back against Cameron and my legs a little on Trevor.

I knew a dozen of girls who probably would have kill to be in my position... but right now... I didn't even care...

Connor arrived few minutes later and sat on a recliner like Alex and we all watched the game, making jokes, screaming at the screen, but I couldn't find it in me to concentrated on anything, to 'set my mind in the game' if you will... and all because of damn Blake and my stupid phone in my back pocket that wasn't ringing...

During half time, Alex gestured for me to come in the kitchen with him, saying he needed help to bring the chips and pop corn and pop.

"I'm sorry about yesterday again Lexi... I'm so sorry... I just hope... I mean I know it's hard for you but I just hope that one day things can get back to the way they were, and you can forgive me again, even if I still don't deserve it..." he told me the second we were out of hearing range.

"What? You think my sulking as to do with yesterday?" I chuckled.

"Doesn't it?"

"Look, Alex, don't worry about me alright? I don't mind about you and Travis, honestly you could even have invited him here today! I mean Dada and I need an official meeting with him... I don't mind, not at all... my moodiness has nothing to do with you..."

"Then what?"

"Not important and we're not pushing it alright? I'm tired and I just don't want to think about it alright?"

"Alright..." he agreed and then we went back to the living room.

When the game was over, I told the guys I needed to go back home right away, so I said goodbye and left.

Tonight, I didn't want to not sleep because of Blake.

Tonight, I was pissed!!

What was he trying to do? To prove? Was it because we almost made out in his room? To show me he didn't care? That it was a mistake and I shouldn't be making up scenarios in my head?

Or did he just genuinely like to torture me?

Urggg!!!

I went to bed early, Ty and dad not even home yet and was able to fall asleep early this time but then woke up around one in the morning and couldn't find sleep again...

I waited until two and then had enough.

He might think I was a stalker, or obsess with him but I needed to sleep, and if I could just hear his voice I was sure it could make the trick...

The phone rang quite a few time, and I was getting pissier and pissier by the second. Right when I was about to hang up though, I heard a groggy voice on the other side of the line.

"Ya?" Blake voice asked.

He sounded tired.

Like super-duper tired...

"Blake, are you alright?" I asked suddenly worried and not angry one bit anymore.

"Lexi?"

"Ya...Blake are you okay? You sound like hell?"

"What time is it?" he asked, sounding utterly confused.

"Two in the morning"

"Really? Just two? Hmm... Felt like way longer..." he said and then yawned "So still doing the streets tomorrow, don't want to come see me?" Blake asked.

"What are you talking about? We have school tomorrow!" I frowned.

"WHAT?"

"Eh ya! It's two in the morning, like Monday morning!"

"Are you shitting me??" Blake asked, his voice raising.

"Nope!"

"Damn... I thought... I thought we were like Saturday morning..."

"What'd you do? Pass out in a gutter? Sex marathon? High on drugs?"

"No I was p... reading actually..."

I almost wanted to clap my hands at that... I didn't want him to be with some bimbo... some so expertise one he hadn't seen time pass...

"And what you space out?" I snorted.

"I guess I just... got way too into it..."

"That's the understatement of the year!" I laughed a little and the yawned.

"You tired Pumpkin?" Blake asked his voice... caring?

Maybe I was just hearing what I wanted to hear...

"You too Blakey-Boy!" I snorted.

"True... we should go sleep..." he trailed.

"Ya that sounds pretty nice..." I agreed, nodding my head, resting it back on my pillow.

"Alright... go sleep Pumpkin!" Blake said his voice soft.

"You too idiot!" I laughed.

"Night..." Blake laughed a little too, and yawned again.

"Good night" I whispered and closed my phone.