Hurt . That was all I felt .

Whyy it was just now i started believing him , believing love . But dejection is all I get .

" sorry Nandini I can't " his words echoed in my mind .

Right now I knew I wasn't in the right state , I need a nice warm bath to relax myself .

Every shower was like a movie scene to me and I was the actress. I undo my robe and take it off.

I turn the tap on the water starts pouring down like a waterfall from the shower head.

I always have to wait for it to get warm and before anything I dip my toe to check the temperature.

On good days I turn my phone on for music and sing along as if I'm on a stage.

On bad days I crouch down in the shower and shed tears until the water starts turning from hot to lukewarm and from lukewarm to ice cold.

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No Manik you can't . Have you forgot what you did to her , how she begged that night . " No Manik please . I beg you , leave me . Don't do this to me Manik . You're hurting me Manik please leave me . "

Her words are something which make me hate myself . These are her words while I was having sex or rather while I was fucking her , raping her .

I . WONT . FORCE . HER .

I didn't realize when tears started dampening my eyes and then my cheeks were cupped with soft hands of Nandini...

She bent down to my level on her knees and kissed my tears one by one ..

"Pushpa I hate tears " she smiled and I gave out a chuckle and I was pulled into a hug I sunk into the warmth of her side, appreciative of the simple gesture. His touch made the room warmer somehow, a lot safer and glad tooo much .

" You actors surely love Bollywood , isn't it "

" Does that question even makes sense " asked Nandu rolling her eyes .

Manik's POV

" Anyways Nandini listen I need to talk to you about ........ "

" Manik I really need to go Yaar . Navu is calling me . I guess it's urgent ya byeee "

Fuck .

I was gonna talk to her about our physical intimacy I really don't want her to have any stupid thoughts in her mind .

Geez I hope she isn't insecure or anything . Sometimes I'm such an ass.

Nandini's POV

Urghhhh thank god I left . I need to get a hold on myself . I really don't want him to be upset because of me.

I just can't seem to accept it . Why didn't he do anything . Does he really not want me .

C'mon I am Nandini Murthy . Who doesn't want me .

( But little did she know that she can fool others by showing them her sass buy not her heart . )

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It's 11 oh gawwd where are you Nandini .

He has tried her number for more than a hundred times but still getting no response he was worried as hell .

Wait a minute , is she upset about my behaviour . FUCKKKKK . Why did I have to screw everything . Helllllllll .

He went to grab his car keys and zoomed the car out of her house .

Its been almost an hour of searching

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She came home all drunk and kept her bag on the couch and slumped at the bed . Why was she thinking about it . It shouldn't matter much to her right . Like why . Just because one guy refused her doesn't mean her worth is lessened right . But still the fact that the guy was Manik did hurt . Why wouldn't he want her . With those thoughts running in her mind she closed her eyes and let sleep take over her .

The next morning she opened her eyes as sunlight hit her and found herself to be caged and cuddled against someone . She didn't need to confirm the touch after all it was her guy . Without any thoughts she snuggled more to have and rubbed her nose against his chest making Manik wake up .

Manik opened his eyes and found Nandini he pulled her in a strong hug as his eyes turned glassy . She didn't say anything but hugged him back . He rubbed her back and kissed her hair .

Her lips found thier way to his neck making him close his eyes . Unknown to him he uttered Natasha and he jerked her away as he himself went outside leaving Nandini in her thoughts .

She was hurt , yet again , but this time the question which poked her was is it Natasha for whom he left her 😞