Chapter 25, Notes App Confessions

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What if I took a screenshot and send it to Miguel?

So a week has passed since the message has been sent and I've been nervous like crazy, I didn't know if I should text him and pretend that the message didn't send but I didn't want him to think I saw the message, which I did, and ghost him, which I'm not trying to do.

I've been keeping in touch with all of his friends and asking them for their help but also pleading that they didn't tell Miguel about the message and that I had seen it, it saves him the embarrassment and it saves me from embarrassment as well.

Everyday I've had a different friend come over to help me practice what I was going to say and what I was going to do on the carnival, the carnival was in August but I didn't know the date.

It's nice to have a bunch of people supporting you, even if you are doing the dumbest things imaginable.

"Don't, don't say that. You sound like an idiot, take it from the top and reword it."

Val told me as she pretended to be Miguel, I looked at her and laughed before taking a deep breath and thinking of new words to use to tell Miguel that I saw the text and that I would be confessing to him.

How does Disney channel make it look so easy, it's like the guy gets the girl or the girl gets the guy and it's filled with sunshines and rainbows, why can't this life be like that? I've been good.

"Miguel, I saw the text that you sent me.."

I began, Val looked at me and cleared her throat, trying to make her voice deeper as she was trying to pretend as if she were Miguel.

Miguel always had his hair down or in some type of man bun or ponytail, sometimes wearing a cute black snapback which I always loved on him since it made him look cute.

"Oh, you did?"

Val asked, I looked at her and bit my lip to stop myself from laughing because in all seriousness, she looked dumb and sounded even dumber.

"Yeah, and listen before you get all embarrassed on me, I wanted you to know that I like you back."

I told my best friend who was acting as if she were my crush, she looked at me and groaned before shaking her head at me.

So far she's been telling me that all of my words and confessions weren't that good and that I needed to try something different, but it's not as easy to confess when the one you're trying to confess to is your best friend and she looks hilarious.

"Look, try something out without me. I'm gonna dip and go grab us some take out, I'll be back."

Val told me as she walked out of my room, you could hear her footsteps receding so I decided to grab my phone and go to my notes app and decided to try out the confessions on there.

When there's nobody around you, you can be as passionate and nobody could make fun of you.

"What to say, what to say.."

I mumbled to myself as I walked to my bed and sat down on it, my legs were aching a bit from standing up all day.

Confessing is so easy to say it because some people don't even have to try to make it seem genuine, they just stutter a few times, twirl their hair and then spill their guts.

But when you're actually nervous to even look at the person, it's way too difficult to even try to make it through a sentence without seeming like a stuttering idiot.

I closed my eyes and tried to imagine this blissful feeling that someone has when they remember something or have someone to love, but when that didn't work, I resorted to grabbing my earphones and going on my Spotify playlist.

As the music began to play in my ears quite loudly, I began to envision the words that I wanted to say to Miguel which meant that I had some type of inspiration for the notes app.

So I began to write down the feelings, I was always better with writing down my feelings than speaking them out loud.

I saw the message you sent me, and I couldn't help but feel so happy because I also have those same feelings for you Miguel, a little more longer than you have probably.

But, I was a little afraid you wouldn't reciprocate those feelings back so I just tried to push them down until I saw you as a friend again, but now when you sent me that message..

Miguel, I don't think I could keep my feeling in any longer and you deserve to know that.

I stared at the notes app confession, I didn't think that what I wrote was good enough but then again, nobody would see this.

"Here's your food darling!"

Val greeted me with a smile as she handed me a box of noodles, I smiled at my best friend and thanked her for the food as she handed my chopsticks to use for the noodles.

We had to learn how to use the chopsticks when we go to different restaurants because sometimes it's all they give us for utensils, so we had to have one of the staff members teach us.

I should Val my notes app confession and she looked at me, she grabbed my phone and began to read the small paragraph, waiting for Val to tell me if it's good or not is very much nerve wracking.

What if I took a screenshot and send it to Miguel?

Val asked me jokingly before giving me my phone back, I looked at her and smiled before turning my phone off and leaving it to the side of my night stand.

We ate our food happily before going on Netflix to watch Fear Street, it's a good Trilogy that was on Netflix.

Now I just need to take a deep breath and gather up some courage, because July's coming to an end and August is coming up which meant that I only have a limited time to get my words right before the carnival opens.

That'll be easy, right?