~When life doesn't go the way you want, don't blame God. He is just busy preparing the best gift of your life~

Siddharth's POV

I am really nervous about what is going to happen next. I mean, yes she said she loves me. But, will that be enough for her to marry me? Is she even ready for the commitment. What am I going to do if she rejects me?

Yes, I am going to propose her.

I mean, I wanted to propose her next week. I've already bought the ring and already made all the arrangements. I wanted to bring her to my special place and then propose her. I am just doing it a week earlier that I planned. She was really sad talking about Priya and I thought I could cheer her up with this.

But, what I didn't think about is that if she doesn't want to marry me, then this going to be even more depressing to her. I am not ready to make her feel sad or depressed anymore. I already thought of backing up, but then Abhi convinced me to do this. When she was in the bathroom, I called Sandhya and asked her to pick up the ring I ordered for her on her way back. When I was in the restaurant, I called Abhi and told him that I am backing up.

He scolded me for being such a coward and asked me to continue with it, not so politely, for your information. So, here I am driving with her to the place I am going to propose her. I felt really nervous about what she is going to tell.

"Are you okay?" she asked me for the 7th time already. Do I really seem that nervous?

"Y-Yeah. I mean I am good. I just don't know whether you will like it there or not," I lied.

"Don't worry. You've already done so much for me. And, I am definitely going to like it because you said it's your special place," she smiled and seeing her smile made me smile also.

I just hope the smile will stay on her face even after I propose her.

I am not that desperate to marry her. Okay, yeah maybe I am desperate because I want our relationship to have a name. I want her to be completely mine in every sense. I want to proudly tell everyone that she is my wife. I want her to introduce me as her husband to everyone without thinking twice. Now, that I love her and I know she loves me back, I don't want to wait any longer.

My hands on the steering tightened to the point my knuckles turned white. I am sure she noticed it because she took hold of one of my hand and squeezed it.

"Siddharth, I don't know whether you are having any problems that you are not telling me or something. But, I just want to tell I will be with you to go through that. I can tell something is bothering you. At first, I didn't wanted to talk about it and ruin our date, but I can't stop myself. Don't be so nervous. We will talk about it later okay?" she said, still holding my hand.

She thinks I am nervous because I have something bothering me? I mean, she is not completely wrong. The thought of her saying no is really bothering me. But, I am sure she is thinking about something else.

I smiled at her reassuring that I am okay. We were near already. We only have like 2 minutes before we reached.

"Do you mind if I blindfold you?" I asked after I parked the car and her eyes widens. She was shocked because one it is a forest area and two she was scared of falling.

"Don't worry I won't let you fall down," I said again.

"Okay, if you promise so then fine. But, if I fall down, I am going to kill you," she said and I laughed. I took the blindfold from the dashboard and hand it to her. She tied it around her eyes and waited for me. I got off the car and went to her side. I hold her hand and carefully got her our of the car.

What? I don't want to die early?

"This place is like my secret spot. Whenever I feel confused, happy, sad, angry, depressed, stressed I will come here. Basically, the only place I spend more time than my house is here. Only Abhi and I knew this place. Well, now its you also," I said and she smiled. "I thought I want to make this place more special for both of us," I said and made her walk through the path that leads to the place.

"Are we going up?" she questioned me.

"Yeah, it is like a high place. Don't worry, not so high. I am sure you won't feel dizzy," I assured her and she nodded.

I made her stand in the center of the blanket, that was set up like a picnic place.

The place we were standing was the highest point of the forest and from here we can see the whole city. At night, the view will be beautiful because of the lights from the city. No matter how noisy or crowded in the city down there, this place will always give me a peace of mind. It's like we are in the world but not here at the same time. It's like I am watching the world from the third person point of view. It is truly amazing.

(This is the closest I could find to what I imagined)

The reason I chose this place was because I had a lot of memories here. This place hold many of my emotions. I've shared all my emotions with this place and I want to make this place special to both of us. I used to think here, I used to cry here. Sometimes I will even come here to be alone.

I let go of her hand and stand on one knees. I took the ring out of my pocket and hold it out in her direction.

That is it, I can do this.

"Open the blindfold," I said after taking a deep breath. She took off her blindfold and squeezed her eyes shut adjusting to the lights. Yes, I had Abhi decorated this place with some lights and asked him to buy some snacks for her to eat. When she opened her eyes again, it widens seeing me on knees.

"Siddharth, you..." she trailed off.

"Yes Ananya. What you think is correct," I smiled despite the storm going inside me. "Ananya, I know our life is not the same as everyone else. Everyone else will meet first, then fall in love and then get marry and have children. But, we? We already had our baby even before we fell in love. I know sometimes it confuses you on where we stand according to our relationships. Believe me, I have the same confusion. That is why I decided to give our relationship a name," I stopped to see her reaction. She was smiling, it's a good sign right?

"At first I didn't take it good. I mean, it was all new to me. But, one thing I was sure about was that I've never met a girl like you before. You are sweet, polite, innocent and more than that you are strong. Even after all the challenges life threw you, you are still standing strong and that was what made you different from other girls. I love you Ananya, with all my life. I love you and more than that I love our unborn baby. I can't wait to meet the baby. The last three months have been the best in this 27 years of me being in this world, and I want the rest of my life to be the best also. For that to happen, I want you to stay with me," I said and she had tears in eyes by now.

"I promise to make you happy for the rest of your life. I promise not to break your heart if you believe me with it. You can definitely believe me and hand me your heart. I am not experienced in relationships, but that doesn't mean I can't learn. Believe me I am fast learner. So, Ananya Varma, will you do the honor to make me the luckiest man alive by agreeing to marry me? Will you be my precious wife?" I asked, finally!!!

"Yes, yes, yes," she squealed and my smile just got widened. I stood back on my feet and slid the ring in her finger. Her eyes moved from her finger to me. I wasted no time in kissing her. I kissed her as if my life depended on it. The kiss deepened and she kissed me back with the same passion. Neither of us wanted to pull back, but guess who did?

Our lungs.

We pulled back, panting for air.

"Thank you so much for this Siddharth. I love you so so much," she said and jumped into my arms and buried her head deeper into my neck.

"I love you too," I said and we stayed hugging for so long. After a while, Ananya started shaking. I thought she was cold, but it doesn't seem like that.

"Ananya, are you cold? Why are you shaking?" I asked her. I can feel her shaking her head in the crook of my neck.

"Baby, what is it?" I said and pulled back from the hug. I was shocked to see her face, she was crying.

"Why are you crying? Ananya, are you okay?" worry took over me seeing her crying uncontrollably like this.

"Baby, listen to me. Why are you crying? Are you hurting somewhere?" I asked her in the softest voice possible. I cupped her face in my hand and forced her to look at me.

"I-I am not h-hurting. I am j-just too h-happy," she said while sobbing.

Okay???

"Why are you crying if you are too happy?" I asked and her face expression changed from crying to anger in a split second.

"I just want to cry," she snapped.

Why her emotions changes this quickly?

Her face crumbled after she realized she just snapped at me. "I am sorry. I don't know why I am acting like this? I just feel so many emotions right now," she cried again. I think her emotions are not stable right now.

"Do you want to sit down maybe?" I asked her, unsure of what she wants. Damn, it is really difficult to take care of a pregnant lady. I am scared when she will lash out on me if I said something wrong.

"Yeah..." she trailed off. I pointed to the blanket below us and she sat down on it. I took of my shoes and sat down beside her. I took the basket from the corner of the blanket and passed it to her.

"What is it?" she asked and even before I answer her question, she opened it. I chuckle at her impatience. She is definitely not the one for surprises. Her face lit up after seeing the content. It had some chocolate bar, cupcakes, brownies and some more snacks for her to eat.

"You bought this all?" she asked me.

"Urmm, actually Abhi helped me buy this all," I said and she nodded.

"Can I eat?" she asked with puppy eyes.

"Yeah sure baby. It is all for you," I chuckled and she started digging in. In between, she will ask me whether I want to eat, but then will continue eating before I answer. She looked adorable like that. This is not the normal Ananya, this is the pregnant Ananya. The normal Ananya will act all strong and mature, but this Ananya is carefree and adorable.

This side of her did come up once in a while in the past 3 months, but after a while she will be back to normal. It will look like a child did possessed her for a while. I sat there on silence watching her eating without any care about her life. I want her to be stress free like this. I don't want her to think about Sanjeev or her sister or her brother and be sad. I want her to be happy like this always.

"Why are you staring at me?" her voice brought me out of my thoughts.

"Nothing, you just look so beautiful," I said and she blushed.

"You know Siddharth, I never thought a man could bring me this much of happiness. I mean, I know many people have their life harder than me. But, all my life I yearned for my father's love even though he clearly hated me. It was like I was a mistake. Even before I could accept the fact that, it is only me and my mother in this life, my mom died. Then, my brothers came into my life. They made me happy, they cared for me, they will always check on me whether I was okay. They knew I was sad thinking about mom, so they will try to cheer me up. When I became pregnant, I was dying inside knowing that Vikram bhai will never see me the same again. I thought that was the end because the one who truly loved me was disappointed in me. Riddhant was not angry at me but I know he was disappointed in me," she had tears running down her cheeks.

"But, you proved me that not everything will go wrong in my life. You was sweet and caring, still are. Sometimes, you can be a jerk, but I know the reason you acted like that. I never realized I could love a man as much as I love you until I met you. I feel complete with you and our baby. Please don't leave m-me," her voice cracked at the end.

"Never!!!" I said and hugged her from the side. She rested her head on my shoulder.

"Oh my god, I don't know why I am being so emotional," she laughed in between her tears. I kissed the top of her head to make her feel safe and loved.

I know what I have to do.