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CLARY

I knew Jace was alright. I knew he was going to be fine. I knew he was going to live. I sat in my room with tears streaming down my face. If we had been one second later, he could have died. My brother could have killed him. He could be gone right now. More tears fell from my eyes as I thought of him being gone.

It had been a few hours since we all got back from the bridge. I knew Jace had already been bandaged up. He was just resting now in the infirmary. I took a deep breath and wiped the tears away from my eyes. I knew he wanted to see me. He had asked Izzy to get me so that he could see me. I had asked her to lie and say I was in the middle of something. Anything. I knew I couldn't ignore him, so I made sure that I was calmed down before I made my way down the hallway to the infirmary.

I took another deep breath before walking into the room. I saw his face light up the moment he saw me. "Clary." He said almost in relief. I forced a smile. "How are you feeling?" I asked him. He tilted his head slightly completely ignoring my question. "You've been crying." He said it as a statement but his voice made it sound like a question. It was almost as if he was looking for confirmation. I shook my head. "No." I said and forced another smile. By the time I responded I had made my way over to him. I was standing right next to him, while he was laying down on the bed.

He reached his hand out and cupped my face. It was still slightly wet. He shook his head at me. "You've been crying." He said again now knowing. I sighed quietly, but obviously Jace still heard me. "What's on your mind?" He asked me. "If we were one second later." I mumbled mostly to myself. Apparently he still heard me. "People die in war, Clary." He said to me. The tears threatened to come out, but I pushed them back.

"My mom, Dot," I started. I looked away from his stare. "I–." I began again and stopped. A few stubborn tears slipped through and fell down my face. "I cant lose you too." I whispered in a shaky voice. I felt him move his thumb to wipe away the tears.

I began to turn away from him and walk out the door, but he caught my arm and pulled me back. He waited a moment before speaking. "You're not the only one who's afraid of losing someone." He said in an understanding voice. I still wouldn't look at him. He tilted his head waiting for me. I still wouldn't. The thought of losing him was something I couldnt deal with.

"Look at me." He whispered. I didnt want to, but his voice was so reassuring and convincing that I chanced a look. My eyes finally met his and he smiled. "You're not going to lose me." He said. His eyes looked so convincing. Another tear fell from my eye.

We were silent for a few moments. Without warning he slowly started to get closer to me. I was staring so deeply into his eyes I didnt realize. "I'll never leave you Clary." He whispered when we were inches apart. I stopped breathing. He had moved his hand from my face to my neck. He stayed where he was but was pulling me closer to him.

I felt his lips slowly go onto mine. For a moment I was startled, but then I leaned closer to him. It was the first real kiss we had since we found out we weren't siblings. Of course there was the Seelie Court, but that didnt count.

I heard the clanking of heels against the floor coming in our direction. I could tell it was Izzy, but I didn't care. We didnt separate from each other's lips.

I heard the sound stop abruptly. Jace sighed slightly and parted centimeters away from me. "Go away Izzy." He said with a smile. She chuckled at us. "Finally!" She exclaimed while shutting the door behind her. We chuckled and he put his lips on mine again. "No more interruptions.... I've waited long enough." Jace said against me. I smiled against his lips. "No more interruptions." I agree.

Suddenly the door flew open. We pulled away once more and looked at who interrupted us again. "So much for 'no interruptions'!" I said. Alec looked at us for a moment before smiling. He put his hands up in defense. "Sorry." He began while backing out slowly. "Sorry." He said again while smiling and laughing. He closed the door behind him. I walked over to the door and locked it.

When I returned back to Jace I sighed. "Let's hope Magnus doesn't use magic to open the door next." I said with a chuckle. He laughed too before pulling me closer to him once more. "Just shut up and kiss me." He said with a smile. I smiled back and did exactly what he asked.