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MAGNUS

I took a sip from my fifth martini glass. I guess you could say it was a way to numb the pain of loosing Alexander. "I had no choice." I kept telling myself. I knew he would have helped me if I asked but I couldnt do it. Besides it was better he be alive not dead.

I finished the last of the drink and I threw the glass onto the ground. It shattered like the other four glasses. It felt nice to just let off some steam, but it didn't completely take the pain away. It never would. I don't think anything will.

I got up to grab another glass when I heard a buzzing from the front door. I set the glass down and walked over to the monitor on the door. I spoke. "Who dare disturb the High Warlock of Brooklyn?" I asked. I waited a few moments for a reply.

"Al..Alec." I heard a small voice say. I could feel my heart beat quicken. I pressed a small button and unlocked the door downstairs to let him up. I took a deep breath.

I opened the door up a few minutes later and he miraculously was standing there. I always knew when he was here. I opened it a little wider for him to enter. I kept my expression blank but my heart was aching. It was all I could do not to reach out and hug the hurting shadowhunter.

"What do you need Alec?" I asked him like I was annoyed. He looked at me with anger. "I needed a way to get in." He replied. I looked at him confused. "What do you mean?" I asked him. He rolled his eyes at me and grabbed his stele from his pant pocket. I watched as he used it on himself. Suddenly the Alec that was once standing there turned into Jace. Now I really was annoyed.

"What are you doing here, shadowhunter?" I asked him while going over to pour the drink I was going to have before the interruption. "What am I doing here?" He asked me angrily. "I'm here because you broke my brother to pieces. He was in his office yesterday breaking everything he could. I spent the entire night with him crying into my shoulder. He blames himself for you leaving him, and you are absolutely CRAZY if you broke up just because of one mistake he made. One! Why?" He said to me.

My heart ached even more at the thought of Alec crying and feeling miserable. "Why Magnus?!" He yelled at me. The sudden anger startled me and I dropped the glass in my hand. It shattered on the floor. I took a deep breath and used my magic to bring the trash can over to where we were standing. I then waved my hand and all the glass was gone. There were a few moments of silence.

"You still love him dont you." Jace said. It came as a statement but I could tell he was slightly unsure of what answer I would give him. I waited a few moments before answering.

"Of course I do." I told him. I walked over to the couch and sat down. "Then why. Why would you break his heart? Why would you leave him? Why–"

"BECAUSE THEN HE WOULD BE GONE!" I yelled at him. I took another deep breath and Jace took a step back. "I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I let anything happen to Alexander." I said to him. "Especially if I could have avoided it. And I did." I looked up at him defeated. "I didn't care that he lied about the Soul Sword. I forgave him in my heart immediately. I know how hard it is to make decisions." I stopped speaking so that I wouldn't spill any tears.

Jace walked slowly towards the couch and sat down next to me. "What happened?" He asked. "Why did you leave my brother? Why would he be gone?"

I realized there was no going around this so I began explaining. "A few days ago I was walking home. I figured it would be nice to be able to clear my head for a bit. It also reminded me of Alexander when he wasn't with me. All of the sudden Seelie guards cornered me. There was about seven of them. I could have easily taken them out, but that's when Johnathan stepped out in between all of them. He told me that if I didn't unite the Warlocks with the Seelie queen and her army, he would kill Alexander right in front of me. He also said that if I told anyone he would kill him." I looked up at him.

"The Seelie queen has been deceiving us. She is in line with Valentine and Johnathan. She believes they are the ones who will win against us." I sighed and looked at my hands. "If I didnt leave Alexander, he would have died." I looked back up at Jace. "One day after I left Alexander, I was cornered again by Johnathan. I told him that the Warlocks would not join him, but we would no longer have any ties to the Clave or the shadowhunters. I told him that I had left Alec and asked him to leave him alone and he agreed."

"We have Johnathan and Valentine in cells in Idris." Jace asked me. My eyes widened. "What do you mean you have them in Idris?" I asked him in disbelief.

"We captured them this morning and the Seelie queen just reached out to us. She said that she would side with us." He replied to me. "So that means that..... Alexander is not being hunted?" I asked him in hope. He smiled at me and nodded. "Alec is fine." I sighed in relief, but worry suddenly came over me.

I got up off the couch. "Alec doesn't know. He still thinks that I left him because of the Soul Sword." I put my head down and poured myself another drink. It was a little stronger than the others. I felt a hand on my shoulder. "He'll come around." Jace said. I felt his presence leave and I heard the door close shut suddenly. He knew I needed some time to process.

I sighed loudly and walked over to the couch once more. I put the glass to my lips and basically chugged it down. With a snap of my fingers the empty glass was replaced with a full one. I knew this was going to be a long night.