Staying in the convenience store and being speechless I looked at the 2 ramen cups . I kept this position for hours until the sky turned dark outside not moving an inch until the customer approached me.

"Miss, are you okay?" She asked worriedly making me come back from my trance. ''Did you argue with your boyfriend?''

''He's not my boyfriend.'' I answered, surprised at her sudden assumption and stood up.

''Oh well it looked like it. You've been here for hours already so I was just a bit worried.'' She gave me a soft and warm smile.

''I'm sorry. Either way, I need to go now.'' I quickly left the convenience store and kept walking a few meters until I stopped and heaved a big sigh. I didn't know what I was doing. Everytime I see Jungkook I am determined to not ask for trouble but there were so many things that happened between us that it's nearly impossible for me to avoid it. There were too many questions left and I felt like my head would explode any second. It wasn't a good day anyway and being interrupted not only once but twice I assume god hates me as well.

I didn't feel like going home right now so I walked around the streets noticing the lights on the trees that were absolutely beautiful.

''I'm home dad.'' I said as soon as I opened the door and suddenly heard many laughs in the living room.

''Granny!'' I shouted running towards her to give her a hug. I missed her so much and it bothered me that I wasn't able to visit her since moving to Seoul. "I missed you."

"Is granny the only one you miss?" Grandpa said raising a brow and I gazed at him and smiled.

"Of course I missed you too." I turned and hugged grandpa as tight as I could. "But you're still super healthy." I added.

"Granny, you sure feel better right?" I asked and their smile immediately faded.

"You didn't tell her yet?" Granny looked at dad who still wore this uneasy expression on his face.

"What didn't he tell me?" I asked again and without really noticing my body tensed up.

"My Yeonseul,-" Granny paused and sighed heavily, "there's not much time left."

''Not much time left for what?'' An idea already came up to my mind however, this just couldn't be reality. I wasn't prepared for that.

"Granny is-" Dad got interrupted.

"I have cancer." Granny looked at me and her expression saddened. I then noticed her wheelchair which let me start to tear up.

"That's a joke right? You know I don't like it if you joke around granny." I laughed a little. A few tears rolled slowly down my face but I quickly wiped them away with the sleeves of my still worn uniform. It got more painful as I waited for someone to tell me everything here was a joke. I refused to believe it.

"I'm sorry." Dad looked at me with a helpless expression.

"Why didn't you tell me about this?" My cheeks felt hot and I was angry and sad at the same time. To be exact, it was indescribable how I was feeling.

"She was already in the hospital as we moved to seoul. I forgot and didn't want to make you more upset and you were so busy lately." He looked down, feeling ashamed.

"Yeonseul," Granny said and this literally destroyed me. My tears streamed down my face and this caused granny to tear up as well. This tiring and squeezing feeling in my heart when I tried my best not to cry swept away as soon as I started to realize that everything was real, although that was hard to believe.

"I", I paused my crying drowning my words, "I couldn't even get the chance to visit you properly."

Granny slowly raised her right hand up, telling me to come closer to her. I kneeled down in front of her and was able to see her rather sad smile as well.

"Don't be angry at your father." She slightly brushed my cheeks and wiped off my tears. ''I don't like seeing you cry.'' She added. Looking granny in the eyes I felt the endless pain and regret that I've had no idea about her condition.

-

I was sitting on my bed, hands around my knees and did practically nothing. My mind was blank, a great mess and I was wondering whether I could handle this situation. My eyes turned to the door as I saw someone pushing down the door handle. I suspected it was dad since he probably felt very guilty, judging by his previous facial expression downstairs in the living room. But instead, it was granny who slowly looked into my room and walked towards me. She struggled to keep her balance however, she leaned on the wall which prevented her from falling.

I rushed to granny to help her. She smiled and sat on the edge of my bed, looking at me with a soft smile. I smiled back, still feeling hurt but either way I couldn't change anything about this.

''You know, you could've just called me instead of going upstairs.'' I commented, feeling guilty because I made her struggle so much.

''Just because I'm ill doesn't mean I can't do anything.'' She scoffed.

''I'm sorry.'' I said, looking down since I kind of felt embarrassed. I hated myself for getting distracted by so many things that I didn't realize what's really important. I was busy with dealing with that bastard and I felt like I spent to much with things that had to do with him.

''Don't be sorry. It's not even your fault.'' Granny answered and she was probably right, but I couldn't think like this. Thinking about how little time I might have with granny made me want to throw up. I looked out of the window and observed the snow that was falling down and just seeing it let me shiver all over my body and I could literally feel the cold outside.

''Your father has told me about V, the son of his best friend by the way.'' She said. I was surprised and looked at her with a shocked expression.

''You mean Taehyung?'' I asked.

''Oh right, Taehyung.'' She laughed. ''I was wondering who in the world would name his son by an alphabetical character.''

''V is only his nickname, luckily.'' I laughed a little. ''He's just a good friend.''

''Really? I don't think so.'' She looked surprised and her reaction made me confused.

"Wait, what do you mean?" This was getting way too confusing and no matter how hard I tried, I didn't really get it.

"Your father and his dad promised each other to let you guys be boyfriend and girlfriend." After saying that I looked at granny with enlarged eyes, not sure whether I heard right.

"And I remember hearing them talking about marriage." And this made me freak out so much. I didn't even graduate yet and they thought about letting me marry someone I don't even love? I was rolled my eyes and felt my cheeks burning, assuming they were bright red now.

"No way. Granny, I think you heard wrong."

"You also didn't know about this?" She scoffed. "Oh god your father was and still is a troublemaker!"

"Sorry, but I need to talk to dad." I said and rushed downstairs to the living room and was shocked to see me with an unpleasant expression.

"Dad, you want me to marry Taehyung?" I asked, my tone furious.

"Well," he paused, "it's just dating. We still have time to talk about marriage if it'll come to that point."

"What the hell. We're in the fucking 21st century in case you forgot! There is nothing with arranged marriage, at least not in my life!"

"Young lady, cursing in this house is not allowed! Your grandparents are here and how you behave right now is disrespectful!" Dad answered, his light anger was already slightly noticeable by his voice.

"This is the least thing I care about right now." I folded my arms. "Why didn't you tell me about it?"

Dad sighed, annoyed by my behavior.

"I wanted to tell you this morning but we were interrupted and I didn't get to see you during the day until now."

"Never ever am I going to marry someone I don't even love.'' I looked angrily away.

''I'm not saying that you have to,'' he paused, ''We just came to the idea. No one forces you.''

I could only laugh by what dad was saying since it didn't make sense at all.

''Of course no one forces me. And what's with that promise?''

''That was back in my high school years.'' Dad laughed, kind of amused. ''We just thought it would be awesome, if this really happened.''

''So, you're not serious?'' I asked.

''We were young and immature. And yes I know we live in the 21st century.'' Dad replied, making me feel relieved. ''But you would make me - us incredibly happy if you give it a try.'' I was about so say anything but dad was one step ahead. ''And I say it again. You are not forced.'' He underlined.

I just sighed and saw grandpa looking speechless at both dad and me.

''It's fine grandpa. Keep going with whatever you two did.'' I laughed it off and sneakily left the living room.

—

It was the last day of school before christmas was coming. Although I loved christmas because of it's festive atmosphere and these decorations - oh god they were the best, I didn't feel very happy. I tried to avoid people at school, even Taehyung. I wasn't in the mood to be with anyone and I preferred being alone at this time. Ever since I found out about granny's condition I spent most of my free time with her. I wanted to be at her side as long as I can.

Granny seemed to be very interested in my 'love life' if I could say that. This got me so annoyed that I told her we would talk about it later. Though, she insisted everytime I visited her and I promised her to tell her soon enough. She was getting weaker and weaker by the time I saw her.

Even on the last day of school before christmas holidays, Jungkook didn't dare to show up as well. Everytime I see him, my anger rises and I just can't look at him at ease. But when I don't get to see him after a while, I feel uneasy. To be honest, it was a real struggle to find out whether getting to see his face was worse or not.

I've been wondering how he could graduate if he skipped almost half the school year but that wasn't the only thing I was curious about him. It's been over 7 months since I encountered Jungkook and he was still as mysterious as I came to school for the first time. Thinking about it, I actually don't know him at all.

As I walked around the hallways at school, someone passed me and everything seemed to slow down as I saw Jungkook's side profile. Although I could only see half of his face, Jungkook's expression was stiff, almost tense. I didn't stop walking though since I was the one who wanted him to get out of my life. I still have some kind of pride. Seeing him again however, made me even more curious but I had to stop myself and tell myself that he isn't good for my life.

I visited granny at the hospital again and her condition just worsened. There was no chance to communicate with her anymore. The oxygen mask as well as the beeping sound that came every second sent cold shivers up and down my spine. Dad came back after talking to the doctor.

"There is nothing we can do now." He heaved a big sigh and we watched granny lying in the bedside, her eyes closed. Not being able to do anything for granny was fucking hell. It was like watching somebody getting weaker and weaker until they get bounded to these horrible medical devices. It was just painful.

''Granny, I have to go now. See you tomorrow.'' I spoke to her, hoping she heard me.

"You're going too right dad?" I looked at him.

"Of course, we are not going to celebrate christmas eve without her." He smiled.

Dad and I headed home, exhausted from the day. He was going to cook a huge meal for christmas and I was kind of excited for it. On the way home, I saw a figure on the other side of the street, who looked like Jungkook. My eyes grew large and I took a second glance to make sure that it was really him.

His face was expressionless as always and although I hated to admit it, but he kind of looked hot with this black long coat. It made me frustrated 'cause if he weren't so much of a fucking asshole, I would seriously fall for him the moment I see him.

But of course life wouldn't make it that easy for us.

It didn't get any better as dad came home on christmas eve, telling me that granny passed away. I was such in shock that my lacrymal gland didn't function properly. I then pretty much spent the whole day in my room, sitting on my bed and watched the snowflakes falling down.

I heard dad coming upstairs but didn't care at all as he opened the door.

"Don't you want to eat?" He asked.

I didn't respond immediately since I didn't know how to answer. I was honestly not in the mood to eat anything.

"Nope." I said, still looking out of the window.

"You have to eat," he paused, "it's not good to starve yourself."

"I'm not starving myself, it's just that I don't have appetite."

"At least eat just a bit. Do it for granny." He sighed and silently closed the door.

He was actually true. If I lived with granny, i would get fat withing a week. She would never give in as stubborn as she is. Since I did feel guilty about it, I went downstairs and headed to the dining table. Grandpa was there as well. I could see his swollen eyes and the sniffing made it more obvious.

It was incredibly quiet and I held my chopsticks, playing around with my food. Even if it was just a tiny bit, I felt like throwing up. I just didn't feel like eating.

"Oh I almost forgot," dad suddenly spoke and stood up to take something. I could see this gigantic box which was wrapped in a red shiny paper.

"It's from granny." Grandpa said. My eyes widened. I didn't know whether I should feel happy or sad about it.

After dinner, I headed back to my room and silently closed the door. I carefully opened the box and the first thing I saw was a beautiful long dark blue dress and I presumed granny sewed it herself. Back then, she told me that she worked as a tailor and as much as I remember dad said granny was very successful and talented.

At the bottom of the box I saw a letter which was safely secured.

Open it if you know that you will be loved.